My Father, Who Is In Heaven

He came for the sick

He came for the sick

When I pray this, I am addressing my heavenly father and my earthly father. It has become so personal to me and I have a picture of my father whenever I come before my heavenly father.

The longing in my heart is to see him again and to bring honor to him. I see all the little details of my life, woven together to form the fabric of my story. The purpose of my life. Defined by God, before my birth. It has taken me a while to see the calling and the plan. But I know that all of this pain is bringing me to the final conclusion. His promises are, “that all these things will work together for my good.”

I know that when we surrender our lives to Christ, we have been ransomed from the grave. I was bought with His blood. My life no longer belongs to me. But He is at work in me and through me.

I don’t represent myself on this earth, but Him. So though “I am in this world, I am not of this world”. I cannot be purchased by the material, since I’ve already been purchased by something which is more valuable than anything in this world. His blood.

Because of this, I don’t desire to have recognition or wealth. My desire is to fulfill His will for my life. This means to honor my father, even in his grave. Yes, I’ve screwed up many times. I’ve had my heart breaks and tantrums. I’ve screamed at my heavenly Father, “take this away! I don’t want it!” I’ve told Him, like the Israelites, “I was better off in Egypt.” The pain of these experiences have left me feeling abandoned and rejected. So much sorrow, that I can relate to His experience on the cross. I understand that cry of anguish, “Daddy, where are you? Why have you left me?” Sure, maybe Christ didn’t use this vernacular, but the meaning was the same.

My dad was a man who had faithfully served his country and his company. In the end of his tormented life, he was robbed by both. The only joy he had left was his job and his family. Now it had abruptly come to an end, by his own hand.

I certainly couldn’t find any good which could come from this. But then again, when most people looked to the cross and our Lord’s crucifixion, I’m sure they thought the same. I’m sure that at the time, His disciples looked to His death as the end. That Satan’s plan had succeeded. But the end is only for those who have no hope.

This was really the beginning. Our Lord told us that this is His very name. “The Alpha and Omega-The Beginning and the End.” Yes, now I am starting to understand how profound this message really is to mankind.

First, I had to go through these trials to comprehend the depth of His love for all of us. I had to let go of fear and pain and learn to trust My Father. He reminded me that, Christ did not come into this world to condemn us, but that through Him, we might be saved.”

Saved from what? Well, if I rounded up everyone who had brought harm to my earthly father and brought about this suffering, there wouldn’t be a prison big enough to contain them. As the heart of man is full of corruption, what purpose does prison serve? Besides being a drain on taxpayers, it only makes criminals worse.

No, our Lord told us that, “we are anointed to set the captives free.” But this is not by the laws of man. The law does not make one free. As Paul so eloquently stated in scripture, “Until the law was given, I had no desire to sin.”

As I pursued lawyer after lawyer. One law enforcement official after another, to bring justice, I realize that man cannot offer the justice I seek. “One man cannot give his life for another.” This is not going to bring honor to my father or peace to him. Because we are in a corrupt world, our whole system is designed to reward criminals and punish the innocent. It is contrary to our God.

Our Lords plan is always redemptive. His life for ours. He told us, “that the punishment that was meant to bring us peace, was upon Him.”  This is not restoration, or reformation. These things are temporary and without power. But it is regeneration, which only comes by the power of the Holy Spirit of God. The same breath that our Lord breathed into Adam. This is only accessed through our true repentance and the acknowledgement of His sacrifice.

So I pray to my heavenly father, “That His will be done, on this earth as it is in heaven.” As I do this I believe I am bringing honor to my earthly father, and in due time, my Lord will bring forth a harvest.

So, with this in mind, I step out in faith. I allow Him to direct me in the plan. I pray that “He would open doors which no man can shut, and close doors that no man can open.” All with the complete faith that He is drawing the final harvest to a close. I am part of His plan and I am blessed to be His  partner. In the end, whatever it takes, I pray I that I make both of my father’s proud.

Thy Will Be Done

I am watching the political race and I’m also experiencing something similar at my own place of employment. As I spoke to a friend the other day, only one word came to mind about all of this, ‘disillusioned.’  But the Lord keeps reminding me that everything is in His hands and this is all part of His plan.

My job is prayer and to take a stand for His righteousness. I have been grieved by so much pain which has been caused in my own personal life and the lives of so many other’s because of this greed.I don’t wage war for the material, or I would be like the people I am battling.  And it is the ultimate bully, of our souls, who pulls the strings of man. He drives men’s hearts to desire that which is evil. Again and again,we are told in scripture, “You do not war against flesh and blood. But against powers, principalities, and rulers of this ‘dark world.'” This is our chapter in spiritual warfare Ephesians 6) and it is extremely important that believers understand this Especially when we come up against these powers. They operate through people.

This is why Paul exhorted us to remember our battle.He says, “We are  not ignorant of Satan’s devices.” He’s tricky, deceptive as can be. Always trying to distract the real focus and goal in mind.  As frustrated and hurt that I may be, I constantly think of those people in the grips of the enemy’s hands. And I pray, “that they escape from the snare of the enemy who has taken them captive to do his will.”

This discussion is one which I had with a person the other day. I was told that this person “was in the real world,” and it isn’t pretty. As if I’m unaware for some reason. The impression seemed to be, that I was fighting for some kind of “pay-back,” for what I feel has been stolen. That feeling of giving anything back to me, is nonexistent. I’m not emotional about that. When it comes to injustice, I do get emotional. I see it as righteous anger. I know I’m impulsive and brash, at times. I’d say if I compared myself to any disciple, it would be a combination of Peter’s temper and Paul’s ability to talk. Yes, Peter cut off the ear of a guard at Jesus arrest, and His words, are constantly ringing in my own, “He who lives by the sword also dies, by the sword.” But hey, as much as Peter screwed up look at the Lords, love for him. And when I think of Paul and his preaching until a man fell out of the window and died, only to have him come out and have to resurrect him, I have to laugh. I know that’s been a fairly good description of me at times as well. But here again, the man used to murder Christian’s, and look at what God can do with a life consecrated to Him?

Of course, the Lord has told us that, “we are in this world, but not of it.” But this doesn’t  make me immune to it. In fact, I would dare to say, I’ve suffered more direct hits from the enemy than most. In his attempts to thwart my faith, I have endured the most intense suffering. But my faith has only grown stronger through it all. I can tell people that the enemy is real, he wants to rob you of your faith, kill and destroy you.” This is a reality. I’ve done hand-to hand combat with him. If you want to talk about what isn’t pretty, this isn’t. But how far are you willing to go to save the souls, that are being stolen by him? And let me tell you, if you are real about loving His people, you will be under spiritual attack. But the Lord has promised, “His ministering angels who minister to all the heirs of salvation.”

The injustice perpetrated upon people, is something which the enemy has done by using his strategy of corruption within the hearts of men. Those men are also captive. They may be at a higher level of income, but captives to Satan’s devices, nonetheless.

My lifetime has been a sacrifice of caring for the needs of others, and I don’t look for income to impress anyone. Because I don’t need this gratification, I don’t find myself striving for the same things as others. I feel a deep compassion when people are hurt, and the person I was speaking with made the valid point that people “above me only care about money, not us.” Of course I know this is true, generally speaking, but just as there are exceptions to every rule, I would say, I found someone above me, who had a soft heart. Full of compassion and by the same token, there are people in the lowest income bracket which are also full of greed. This is not isolated to levels of society. It is sin, plain and simple. But in the end, it is the One, above all, who gives me grace and supplies my needs, so that I have what I need for the battle.

The Lord is King of all Kings, yet He said that He had come to this earth “to serve, and not to be served.” Well, then why would we be more important than our own creator? No, you see, my eyes are not clouded by this world and indeed, I could say I probably see a clearer picture, than some who claim to be “in the real world.” The truth is that, “the real world,” is not this material at all, but the spiritual behind the scenes. This is where we, (kingdom people) do our battle. Interceding and going where the Lord sends us. I have the discernment of the Holy Spirit as my guide. He leads me into the dark places to shine His light of truth. It makes some very uncomfortable, and others are drawn to it.

But in the end, He is the only one who can lead the way out of darkness. Because as we know, light penetrates darkness and it is not the other way around. The true world is the one which our Lord has designed. It is not corrupted by man and his sinful desires. Which we know is ruled by the ‘god of this age.’ This present kingdom will have its conclusion and the Lord’s kingdom will supplant this ‘real world.” This is why “the government is upon His shoulders and His kingdom shall have no end.”

But He has placed His people on this earth with a commission from Him, and He has told us that He has anointed us for this task. So there is no place which He sends us, where He does not anoint us. The anointing comes from a life of surrender. You don’t seclude yourself from the world, but “go into all the world.”

I had a pastor who used to say, “If you pray for anything for me, pray for my anointing.” Yes, this is a worthy prayer. The anointing is what breaks the yoke of bondage. It is not something which one can get from teachings or sitting in church. Indeed, Christ, spent very little time in “church.” (temple) You will see, the anointing requires action. It is the ‘precious gift inside these earthen vessels.” It cannot be stolen nor, can it be given to others. You can pray for it though, and the Lord gives freely to all who ask. So, as the kingdom of darkness grows darker, continue to pray, His will be done, in your life and the lives of others. In this way, this laying down of your desires, is the beginning of receiving the most important gift of all.

Thy Kingdom Come

I think of  the excitement I felt at the  words from an “end of days,” dream I had when I was young. I knew this wasn’t   a regular dream. It was more of a ‘God-dream.’ And it was something revealed which I saw a prophetic in nature and it involved a lot of warfare in my own life. I had no idea that I would be trained in such a manner. A shy child, but something which would be borne out of a deep compassion for others and the pain of watching so many being hurt by greed. This doesn’t exclude the ones, ensnared by greed itself.

In my own life, I have no desire for anything material. It hasn’t always been this way but I have felt a slow, ‘stripping away,’ and a need to travel light. I look around and actually feel compelled to let go of things. I see how everything weighs people down. As I as waking from sleep one morning, I heard the Lord speaking to me, and His words to me were, “do you live for things, or for people?” I looked around my room. I knew that I could not continue to serve Him in the capacity which I would like, if anything is demanding my attention. He left Peter with a clear message, “Feed my sheep.” He didn’t speak about taking care of anything but His people. And His other messages, were always, “Store up your riches in heaven. The things which cannot be taken from you.” The enemy of our souls has been working overtime, to divert attention from this goal. People are still trying to make a  living so that they can pay for material things. It’s so sad, and the reason that there are broken ,disillusioned people everywhere. The interesting thing is that, whether the person is wealthy or not, they are just as broken. This in itself, should be a stark message, however, the statistics seem to prove that the missing ingredient is not money or power.

In fact, I rather like the movie, Lord of the Rings, because the concept was so simple, yet difficult for most to understand. The ring, seemed to be a thing, which everyone wanted to possess, but when it was in ones possession, it had the ability to possess that person. Exactly what greed does to a person. You cannot satisfy it. It is a growing monster. Which is why there was only one who could carry this ring. One who was didn’t seem to have the capacity to be owned by this evil.

Now,  as I watch the world, collapsing into this shambles, even my own small sphere, I see, it is the corruption of so many. But the Lord spoke of all of these things and the small army of His people, that would indeed, be called upon, to carry the ring. Believers, in the last days. His kingdom, upon the earth. This is why we pray, “Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth, as it is in heaven. ”

If you look back in history, you will see that God likes to do things to show His miracles. This is to prove that it is not by the power of man, but by Him. Look back at the story of Gideon’s Army. You will find this in the Book of Judges. First, Gideon tells the Lord that he is the weakest clan in all of Manasseh, and the least in his family. But the Lord reminds him, that He will be with him.

Now the army of Midian, was about 135,000, strong. At this point the Lord told Gideon, he must reduce his army, once again, so that they would not boast, that it was their own strength. He told him to let anyone that was afraid, leave. So, 22,000, left immediately. I’d imagine, Gideon was a little bit shaken by this, but it didn’t end here.

God spoke once again and said, “There are still too many men.” That’s where I might say, “Hey, Lord. Are you sure about this?” We all have these moments. We don’t see the plan. We get angry. It’s not making sense. I mean even with Gideon, a few chapters back, he put a fleece out, to test the Lord. And what’s up with that? Didn’t the Lord say, not to test Him? Well, even our Father knows, we aren’t always, down with His plans. We are, after all, scared, but He knows, some of us, have stronger faith than others. And I admire this guy, Gideon.

So, this is where the plan gets interesting. Gideon is told to take the men down to the water and he is to separate the men who lap the water with their tongues like a dog,  from those who kneel down to drink. Three hundred, lapped with their hands to their mouths. All the rest got down on their knees to drink.

Now, I went to Israel, last year, and I saw this spot. I was fascinated to think about all of these men and this one specific trait which the Lord was looking for in them.

Gideon's Army the spring

Now I thought, what is this, which set them apart, in the Lord’s plan? It seems to me, that it is a picture of greed. In that small mannerism, the Lord saw a difference in character. I see it myself. Men bringing the water to their mouths, rather than their mouths, to the water, to guzzle, as much as they could get. Very interesting, no? It made me think of my great-grandmother’s expression.  “You can only sleep in one bed, and you can only eat from one plate,” etc. I didn’t know her, but the wise words of a woman borne of the depression era and the loss of her husband. I believe her strength and fortitude was passed down for generations.

I think that the Lord was pointing out the men who had already lacked self-control. They learned a way of getting as much as they could, and therefore, they were not thinking of everyone, but just their own needs. The spring which was a shared resource was similar to an army force and you had to look out for each other.

So the question was one of integrity. As it is the core of everything in life. And in the heart of man, we see corruption. We all have it, as it is sin. But, the Lord as we surrender to Christ, He exposes every dark corner and strengthens us for the battle.Anyone can have their slate wiped clean, and start new, with Christ. But this is the battle in the mind. The enemy deceives men, into filling this need for their savior with many false beliefs, or things. Whatever he can use in his arsenal of lies.

Through His army of believers, He is bringing His kingdom to this earth and He is weeding out this darkness. He will have men and women of integrity in places of authority. The true kingdom of God, is a spiritual kingdom which displaces this kingdom of darkness and evil. Justice will prevail. But for this to happen, the true believers must have self-control.  The apostle Paul gave us a warning about these days, it is imperative, as “Satan roams this earth as a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.”

As we pray, “Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth, as it is in heaven,” we will encourage each other. His kingdom, is already here in the hearts of believers. He’s just waiting for believers to take a stand! So, stand up, as Gideon’s army did. “He does not delight in those who shrink back.” If you are afraid, cut loose. This is not for the weak or faint-hearted. We are warriors, in the spiritual army of the Lord.

Paul told us that we “war not against, flesh and blood, but against powers, principalities, and spiritual wickedness in high places.” The first strategy in any war, is to know your enemy. Stop playing church and Be the church! Use all the weapons which the Lord has given you, and if you don’t know what they are, you aren’t in His Word. Cause that’s your Sword!

Now, train yourself as a good warrior, and either get in the battle or run away as a coward. As for me, I want to be on the front lines, where the action is!

The Natural Man vs The Spiritual Man


The Word of God tells us that we have two kinds of people in this world. The “natural or “psychikos,” or the spiritual man/woman(pnueumatikos)which is the person which has been regenerated by the power of the Holy Spirit and lives by the Spirit of God.

We also know that the Bible refers to the world and everything in it under Satans control. He is called the “god of this world.” The Christian is to overcome by the power of the Holy spirit by denying the temptations of this world and wage war against this world and thereby yielding ourselves to the voice of the Holy Spirit and His call to become sanctified.

I have always had experiences in my life that I would call, ‘different.’ I would not even share some of these things, as I know that most people could not even relate to these things as they are of a natural mind. The Lord spoke of these people as “natural men and said “that this is  foolishness to men who do not have the Spirit of God.”

I observe things on a daily basis and take note of these things as I ponder them, and I jot them down. I have always kept a journal and wondered why most people do not notice the details that I notice, yet, I know when I read the word of God, it is because, as Paul says, only some observe as they are growing in faith.Throughout the book of  Revelation the Lord speaks, “Let the one  that has an ear, hear what the Spirit is speaking.” And also “There will come a time when my people will worship me in Spirit and in truth.”

I love this scripture. This indicates that the more the natural man lets go of the things of this world and all of its trappings, the more he will experience God.

The Lord seemed to show us this in His own example as He went off all alone and He also fasted from everything. This was when Satan came to him in the desert and the first temptation was of course…food. The natural mans prime need. How many natural men would fail that test? But to know that God has a mission for us. A reason and a much higher calling, than feeding our bodies. Or to accomplish that business deal. Yes, this the very highest calling of all. Our eternal goal that He has in store for us. Our spiritual race that we are running. And it is the marathon.

Now, I have a Concordance that I study. And every person should study, “to show themselves approved of God.”

I have a New International  Full Life Study Bible, because I love the articles in this bible. I quote most of them and cannot live without this. It has helped me with most of my studies.

When people state that the bible was written by men, I laugh. Then they have never read the bible. The bible was written by men, of course, “as inspired, by the Holy Spirit.” When the Dead Sea Scrolls were discovered they were the complete works of Isaiah in entirety and as I’ve seen many times the archaeological records to prove the historical accuracy of the bible is enough but for someone that doesn’t have faith,there can never be enough proof, yet for someone that does have faith,proof  is not necessary.

If you say you believe in God, then you must believe that He is powerful enough to be the perfect editor of His own words to  His creation.

According to scripture, all government, education, business, etc. are ruled by the the the natural ruling spirits of this world and are opposed to the Spirit of God. They have a different belief system as we know from our understanding from God’s word.The Lord tells us plainly “not to cast our pearls before swine to be trampled underfoot.” I am inclined, at times to share some of my observations from the Spirit, and am reminded, that this is going to be perceived as foolish, this is why He tells us this.

This is why we pray, “His kingdom come, His will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.” He wants every mans eyes to be opened.

This is my prayer and I pray that the “natural man” also turns and becomes part of the final harvest as well.