I’m An Investor!


To be at His feet

Yes, one of my many titles. I am an investor and very good at it. What? You think because this economy is in the trash, I cannot get returns?

Well, the returns I get for my investments are increased 10 times and more! This is because I invest in the eternal. The souls are the harvest and I am a laborer. Yes, I love what I do because it brings me to the very feet of my Lord. I see grown men cry and little children with all the amazement of heaven on their faces. When I witness the love of Christ to these lost souls, there is no amount of money or material possessions which can compare. The ‘capital gains’ are impossible to estimate.

I don’t have to pay taxes on this and the benefits I reap are incalculable. Yes, from the very highest level of worldly status to the meekest of the earth. I have had a glimpse of their souls and the gift of the Holy Spirit, to know just which ones he is sending me to.

It never ceases to amaze me. Unless you are one of these, laborers, you will never understand the thrill of the harvest and the Lords words to us regarding this enormous responsibility and the most glorious times which we have been blessed to be a part of.

Listen to Jesus words; “Do you not say, “Four months more and then the harvest?” “I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest!”(John 4:35)

The time is right now. But in each of our lives this is true, no matter what age we are living in. When these words were spoken, the disciples believed that Christ’s return would be in their own lifetime, however, the Lord knew that the harvest was not yet full and many things had not yet come to pass. The  time of the Gentiles, as one example.( Luke 21:24) And this, as it came to pass, has been the greatest part of the harvest, thus far. That is, until the Time of Jacobs Troubles, begins. At this time the harvest shall change and it is time for the Jews to be brought back. Oh, it will come to pass, because God has spoken this.

It is interesting to note that Christ did not pray for the harvest. As I said God had already made a plan and the harvest is coming and no man or being can stop it. However, the Lords words were clear and direct, regarding the harvest. He was ‘training the laborers.’

“After this the Lord appointed seventy-two others, and sent them two by two ahead of Him to every town and place where he was about to go. He told them,  “The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the Harvest, therefore to send out workers into His harvest field Go! I am sending you out like lambs among wolves.” (Luke 10:1-3) It is interesting to note that the Lord sends the laborers, before Him. This is one of the most important aspect sof our calling. We prepare the way, or coming of the Lord. This is the spirit of John the Baptist and the work surrounding his ministry is the Lord’s calling for us. He told us that the “spirit of John the Baptist,or Elijah, would be prevalent, right before His return, “turning the hearts of the children to their Father, and the Father to His children.”

We can see that the Lord specifically tells us to pray to the Lord of the Harvest, to send workers. We know from His words also that the laborers, are the disciples, which any follower of Christ becomes. We have the Great Commission, and an understanding of our calling. “Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation. Whoever believes and is baptised will be saved, but whoever does not believe, will be condemned.” (Mark 16:15)

I recently had a friend tell me she always thought I was so unique. “How so?” I asked her. Well, I have met so many Christians and you’re different. You let your son get his hair cut in a mohawk and you are very nonjudgmental. Well, it made me think of my daughter’s own comments. She has a lip ring and although I don’t like it, she had mentioned that Jesus would be hanging out with her and her friends. I laughed and told her she was absolutely right. He most certainly would have been right there in the middle of all of them. I reminded her, just as I had shared with my friend, that Jesus, had most of His problems with the ‘church people.’ Yes, the Pharisees and the Sadducees, who thought they had arrived. They cornered the market on truth, yet they were so blinded by self-righteousness, they could not recognize that Jesus was “The Truth,” in the flesh. He was constantly pointing out their hypocrisy, and told them quite plainly, their actions kept the very people, whom they were to be witnesses to, out of the kingdom of God. He also spoke of the fact that one could appear clean on the outside, yet this inside was full of corruption. Yet, we all have sin within, so He was quite obviously speaking to the one crucial difference; these men felt they had no need of the Savior.

So the harvest needs to hear the Good News. They only need to recognize their need of Him, this comes through humility and repentance. Our surrender.

Now I reminded my friend, who had prayed with me to receive Christ, that this could have never happened, had I spoke to her about all of her sins. Nor could I begin to witness to anyone else. I had started a ministry to people infected with AIDs, and in this place I came into contact with so many who were suffering as a result of their own bondage to sins. The heart of the Lord is full of compassion, and unless our heart breaks with the same things that break His own, we cannot serve. We must be like Him.

Which tells you how many titles we carry. We are servants, foot-washers, harvesters, laborers, etc. All we need to remember is to stay at His feet. Those feet which walked through the dirt of this earth and were always ready to bring the news of redemption and healing. Those feet which were finally pierced through, for our own dirt. Those feet which descended into the depths of hell, to release those in captivity. Those feet which stood in the room with His disciples, full of awe at His new body which still bore the wounds for all. His feet, which His disciples witnessed ascending to the Father. And all of this, so He could send the Spirit of God to live within us and do what He did. “I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.(John 14:12,13)

Remember, the Lord was only on this earth for 33 years. We have time and wisdom as our ally. All the wisdom and power of Christ, are available to us, as believers. The same power, which resurrected Jesus from the dead, lives in us!

How incredible is this? As I have said, I’ve seen the beauty of brokenness and surrender. I witnessed the power of the Holy Spirits transforming power in peoples’ lives. The true resurrection of the dead. They were dead, yet now they live. They have been born again.

I recently heard a woman speaking about her trip to Israel. “To stand on the spot where my Savior walked,” she commented. I thought, yes, this would be a powerful experience. Yet, the Holy Spirit reminded me; although you find it fascinating, it is much greater to walk as He walked, than to stand where He stood.

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I had a vision long ago, and I knew right where I’d be at His return.


The last train pulling in

The only difference in my dream was that the earth was in total darkness. I was at the very top of a tower. 

I was only 18 years old when I had this dream and I remember every detail as if it were yesterday. So profound. I had no idea, since I was extremely upset. I thought I was going to die, because some guys had given my girlfriends and me some powerful pills as we were drinking beer with them and we found out later. We were at an outdoor concert. A hangout called, The Site. All the hippies went there on the weekends to listen to music, and the local artists and burnouts would just jam together. 

Everyone pretty much trusted each other, because hey, we were hippies. Not cool, what these guys did. We tried to drive back from Lake Michigan and we were terrified. They laughed about it after we drank the beers. They actually had the nerve to ask, “do you know what you just drank? And told us they were called Thorazine and it was for mental patients. Apparently if came from the medicine cabinet of one of their mothers. Hmmm, maybe he saw into our future. lol They thought it was hilarious to do this to unsuspecting girls. Ahh, the 70’s, so much fun. Well, I can tell you that this is why many people didn’t survive, and I thought my heart was going to stop that night. 

But I got up and tried to walk around. When I did have this dream, it was the most profound, as I have stated, and I was immediately “awakened,” almost alarmed by the message.Yea sure, some people could say it was a hallucination, but it was clearly not. It was so startling to me that I was ‘scared straight!”  It was so very obvious to me that it was God and I had no relationship with Him at that time. He showed me that I was surely not going to die, because He had plans for me and He had a place and a time that He had designated for my appointed destiny and it sure didn’t include me partying my life away. All my life I was wondering about this picture. I started to see it unfolding, but now I have actually seen the reality of it and it is most amazing. He tells us that He would show us things before they happen. 

My girlfriend had called me later to see how I was feeling and get together. She still was feeling pretty bad. I told her about the dream and she was amazed by it. 

I told her the whole earth was in darkness and yet I could almost reach out and touch a planet. I was standing beside three people. They seemed to be my loved ones. I had no idea who they were since it was far in my future. A voice spoke and it seemed to be God. He said, “Get the people ready.” I knew what He meant and I said “yes.” 

I began to tell people to board these designated trains into a city and I told them to leave everything behind. As I continued in what has clearly been my gifting, one of evangelism, since becoming a believer, I see this part of the dream being fulfilled. 

I was reaching the very end of the dream when I could see that the last people were boarding the trains. I entered a tower in this city and I went into an elevator and went all the way up to the very top floor. On that floor I stepped into a room that seemed to be a conference room full of people. They seemed to be waiting for me. It was as if I had been witnessing to these people without being aware of it. I had spoken to them briefly and walked over to the window and looked out. 

At this point I realized the last train full of people was coming into the station and an excitement was building in the room. I looked out the window and pointed, “He’s coming!” I shouted. Everyone began to shout, “He’s coming, He’s coming!” We all looked over the horizon and what had been total blackness, was now the brightest light we had ever seen coming up over the horizon. Brighter than the sun! The shouting was growing and so was the excitement as every corner of darkness was being filled with light! 

When I woke, I was filled with a joy that I had experienced something incredible and I had a calling that was profound. I also understood that this was something very deep with prophetic implications, since I’ve never forgotten it. I knew that I could not be taken from this earth until the Lord was finished with His work. 

Yesterday, I was under tremendous spiritual attack. Many forces of darkness have tried to come against me. A person who has done terrible things over and over again. He is gripped with deception and tries to make me responsible for his own mistakes. He’s never taken responsibility in his own life and always lies to cover his deeds. This has caused me much grief in my life and also others around him. I must constantly pray for guidance and there is a tendency to be codependent, so I must step back. This is when I must pray. 

The Lord gave me a word yesterday; 

God is our refuge and our strength an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. 

There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God the holy place where the most high dwells. 

God is within her she will not fall; God will help her at break of day. Nations are in an uproar kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts, The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. 

Yes, the city of our God, is the city that all of the people are coming to. As He has His people preparing the way. And we are His servants. As long as we obey Him, He is in us and we shall not fall. He shall help us. I know my life is in His hands and I love the ones He has called me to. 

There are times I wonder if others have had this same dream or vision as I’ve had. There were others in that room after all. There were others on those trains too. And what are all the songs about trains in relationship to “people get ready, there’s a train a comin?” Is all this just coincidence? God gives visions and dreams to people about the future events. 

These days are upon us and the trumpet blast is about to sound. He is coming!!!!

Come Just As You Are


I am being reminded of so many friends as this Resurrection Day approaches and one in particular. I had the privilege of being able to pray with one who had passed away recently and the Lord told me it was urgent. Although I am directionally challenged and the enemy kept trying to route me in circles, this only made me more determined to get to my destination. He should know me better than that. I had some sisters praying for me and I fulfilled my directive given by the Lord. Now you have no idea how many spiritual warriors are in the world. Putting on their armor and on their knees fighting those battles with their spiritual swords as you go about your daily business. Yes, the laborers are always busy in the harvest fields, quietly sowing and watering seeds, as the Lord ‘gives the increase.”

I thought of a friend of mine years ago and we are told to “share our testimonies” as a way of building up the body, so this is what I do. And if it seems I’m boasting, I assure you, I am not. As Paul said, “If I boast, let me boast in the Lord.” For it is not I that do these things, but Christ in me.” Believe me, I’m just as amazed to watch these miraculous things as anyone else, and I share all of this, only as a means of encouraging others to get out and walk in faith, so they may also see the ordinary become extraordinary, in their own lives. This is what the Lord has commanded us to do. Make, disciples!

When I began reading my prayer journal from 1988, I saw the year that I  read a few years later, when I began working for my present company and met my friend who had become like a sister to me. So incredibly close, that her and I had the same first names, except hers was spelled differently. She had the same middle name, and her last name had the same first initial. Was this some strange coincidence? We were roommates and we had ID numbers that happened to be one number apart. We became best friends along with our other roommate in training and sat next to each other in every class. This drove our instructors crazy! We thought it was hilarious. We were unlike most of the other roommates, since it usually is difficult enough in flight attendant training with the stress level involved and all the craziness.

I had just come from the most horrific time of my life. In the course of two years, I had lost my brother, my father, been stripped of my job with Eastern Airlines, trying to make a marriage work, raise a toddler, near bankruptcy, etc. You name it, I lived it. 

But something else happened. In the midst of it all, I thought, the only way my ex-husband would make it and I could handle any stress would be to go to church. Somehow I knew that the bizarre things that I was dealing with in my life were spiritual. I knew only God could help me. And I’ve shared this before, when I made one simple request and I only had a small amount of something left in me to cry out, I said, “God if you’re real, please make sure I’m with my brother when he dies.” That’s all it took. When that plea was fulfilled, He began to lead me down the path to prove He was, and is, the great, I AM!

Now, I will tell you, by the time I got to my new company, I was a new person. Yes, this is what’s called, “Born Again.” The new creation. The old has passed away. Oh, believe, I was glad. I didn’t have anything, yet, I had a reason to be glad. So, I had two roommates watching me and wondering, what does she have to be so happy about? Little did I know, that I had a lot of people watching me. “We are Epistle’s being read.”

After I was out of training I stayed in the city of San Francisco and I realized that the Lord had me serving Him there. I was a witness to my roommates and they had all turned their lives to Him. This was encouraging to me as well. To see the power of His Spirit at work and His words, “Lift up my name and all men will be drawn to me!” Yes, as a new believer, I sure didn’t know what I was doing, but I could see it was true.

Now I transferred to New York and I was with my friend whom had been like my sister. We flew all of our trips together and now I was beginning to see, we would get along great, unless someone would start talking to me about my faith. I never started this conversation of course and I never slammed someone over the head with a bible. As my pastor used to say, “The Holy Spirit is a gentleman. He waits to be invited in. How true this is. He will never break down the door of anyones heart. But remember the Lord said to the woman at the well, “if you drink of that water, you shall thirst again, but if you knew of the water, that I have to offer, you would never thirst again. It was at this point, she asked, for this water.

My friend, was in a group with me and some other flight attendants one day as they just started firing questions at me. They seemed very intrigued, not unlike the group in San Francisco, that I had mentored at one time. They weren’t being antagonistic, but very interested. So I was answering them. It was at this point that she went and sat down around the corner, but within earshot of the conversation. The Holy Spirit reminded me that “Gods Word, does not return void, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.”(Isaiah 55:11) I held fast to this promise for her life and prayed for her constantly because of my love for her. He reminded me that He had placed her in my life for that purpose and nothing was a coincidence. But we are linked together with others in this life for His purposes and plans.

Later, she confronted me. “Why do you have to talk to people about your faith all the time?” “Listen,” I told her. “I love you like a sister, but , my faith in the Lord, is part of who I am, and if you love me, then you can not separate that from me. When I speak it is for those who want to hear, not for those who do not. There will always be some, that don’t want to know about the Lord, but even if there is one, that is the one the Lord is speaking to.” At this she didn’t say anything else.

Upon returning home, I grieved for her. She was a psychology major, and I knew that it was her own worldly intelligence and wit that kept her spiritually blinded. I knew, because I had been the same way. This is exactly why the Lord yoked us together. We had a kindred spirit and in every other way, we were similar. Now she was trying to makes sense of something that, would never hold logic. This was the stumbling block. The other stumbling block was her Religion. Yes, that other thing that Satan loves to use against man. Her security blanket. The double-whammy. Logic and Religion. The Dual Highway to Hell. How many times did she tell me, “I’m Catholic.”  Hmm, well, good luck with that. (That’s what I want to say…ahhh, but I was there once too, so grace kicks in.)

That’s it…I decided, I’m fasting for her. I told the Lord. I’m going on a three-day fast and I’m praying for her. I was going to meet her in New York on the third day.

Now I don’t know what the Lord going to do but I just pray and pray and pray. I fly into New York on the third day and I see her. She’s waiting outside for me. What in the world is wrong with her? She looks terrified. “What’s going on?” I ask her. “Oh, my gosh! I had the worst nightmare last night! ” she says. “What was it about?” “Well, in my bedroom I have a little statue of Mary on my nightstand by my bed and in my dream it started talking to me!” “What did it say?” I asked. “It doesn’t matter It was demonic! I started screaming for my mom and dad in my dream! I told them to call you! I told them that you would know what to do! It’s like you’re a priestess or something.” “Well listen, I don’t have to be a priestess to cast out demons. All I must have is authority. And any follower of Jesus Christ does carry that authority! You know the Lord said that he would use dreams to terrify some, (Job 7:14). He will do whatever it takes to bring us back from our foolishness and you’d better believe our prayers are powerful. So if you have loved ones you’re praying for, don’t give up! At that point I asked her, when are you ready to surrender to the Lord’s love? He’s waiting for you. He doesn’t want to punish but to have a relationship with you. And the Holy Spirit says, “Today if you hear His voice do not harden your hearts.” (Hebrews 3:7)

Your religion teaches that you must be good enough to come to Christ, but Christ tells us we can never be good enough and that is why, He came to us! He became the living sacrifice. Every time we try to use religion as our ‘cover’ it becomes Adam and Eve, with the animal skins, all over again. Trying to use an insufficient covering, as they tried to cover themselves. It wasn’t until Christ had come that we had the ultimate covering, at Calvary, when His blood was shed. 

She understood this and accepted this. immediately after praying, her life began to change. She told me that she felt convicted about her own lifestyle and this was the power of the Lord telling her to make changes. As she began to ‘let go’ of things in her life, I watched as God began to change her. It was amazing. She let go of a worldly relationship and the Lord brought a Christian man into her life. She had met him on a flight and he was an airforce officer. He had regular bible studies and they ended up adopting 3 children from Russia.

She truly blossomed as she let go of her worldly needs and trusted the Lord. This is when we became true sisters. I had to let go and let the Lord deal with this aspect of her life. And I trusted Him and now I see the fruit that has been born as a result.

“The word is near you, it is in your mouth and in your heart, that is the word of faith we are proclaiming; That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. (Romans 10:9)