The Groaning of the Spirit

In Romans 8:22 we are told that “all of creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time.

In verse 26 it says, “in the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.

Last night, all night long, I experienced this. My left side hurt me. I was in excruciating pain, as I was diagnosed with bronchitis and my left lung was hurting every time I coughed. Yet I found myself having dreams of sorrow. And I was hearing the wind blowing outside my window, and the Lord reminded me of His own side being pierced and the blood and water that ran out. All the sorrow He experienced at that moment. Everything in his heart as it spilled out from his side. All the sorrow of the world.

Each time I woke up I heard groans from my own mouth and thought this was the Spirit pleading to the Father and tears were coming down from my cheeks. Now this has happened to me before, but last night it was one episode after another. At one point my daughter was walking down the hall and I actually thought she heard me. I wondered what in the world was causing me so much sorrow and at one point I remembered thinking of a man I pray for every night before I sleep. I believe he thinks he has committed the unforgivable sin. I think it was the reason for the confrontation by the two girls the other day. They were in some way, representatives for him.But the Lord has assigned me to certain people within the framework of my own company and uniquely linked me to them. A few of them have been threaded from my past as well. The Lord has used many incidents, both good and evil to knit all of us together in this, ‘coat of many colors’ This is how God works. Some has been identically linked to my father’s death. Nothing in the Lord’s plans are ever coincidental. They are always perfectly orchestrated and in His timing. Everything is meant to bring us to the place of understanding that we are not beyond our need of forgiveness, nor are any of these sins  “unforgivable.” Man has a way of not being able to “let themselves off the hook,” in life. Because of the lies of the enemy and this is what keeps them in the darkness. They seek absolution and it is the one thing that seems out of  reach. They are deceived into a false system of religion until the end. At some point a person begins to buy into the lie that, they always have time to cop a plea at the last breath. Who wants a life like this anyway? That isn’t the ‘abundant life’ that Christ had promised.

This is why I have been linked in the chain to these people. It has been keeping me up at nights, and groaning as verse 27 states, “And He who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.” Whatever the Spirit is praying for these people I know  it is breaking them, and it brings sorrow.

I have had many wicked spirits trying to stand as a human shield in efforts to stand in my way and almost discourage me, but it won’t work. I know my calling. I have been through a lot in my life and the enemy deceived me for a while. Yes, he almost made me run in terror, but I won’t forsake the ones I’ve been called to, so he can just flee now.”Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.(James 4:7)

 “He who wins souls is wise. (Proverbs 11:30) So I keep praying, “Lord give us time. Let them know they are forgiven. Let them stop trying to justify themselves and know that you’ve already done that for them.”