I had a vision long ago, and I knew right where I’d be at His return.

The last train pulling in

The only difference in my dream was that the earth was in total darkness. I was at the very top of a tower. 

I was only 18 years old when I had this dream and I remember every detail as if it were yesterday. So profound. I had no idea, since I was extremely upset. I thought I was going to die, because some guys had given my girlfriends and me some powerful pills as we were drinking beer with them and we found out later. We were at an outdoor concert. A hangout called, The Site. All the hippies went there on the weekends to listen to music, and the local artists and burnouts would just jam together. 

Everyone pretty much trusted each other, because hey, we were hippies. Not cool, what these guys did. We tried to drive back from Lake Michigan and we were terrified. They laughed about it after we drank the beers. They actually had the nerve to ask, “do you know what you just drank? And told us they were called Thorazine and it was for mental patients. Apparently if came from the medicine cabinet of one of their mothers. Hmmm, maybe he saw into our future. lol They thought it was hilarious to do this to unsuspecting girls. Ahh, the 70’s, so much fun. Well, I can tell you that this is why many people didn’t survive, and I thought my heart was going to stop that night. 

But I got up and tried to walk around. When I did have this dream, it was the most profound, as I have stated, and I was immediately “awakened,” almost alarmed by the message.Yea sure, some people could say it was a hallucination, but it was clearly not. It was so startling to me that I was ‘scared straight!”  It was so very obvious to me that it was God and I had no relationship with Him at that time. He showed me that I was surely not going to die, because He had plans for me and He had a place and a time that He had designated for my appointed destiny and it sure didn’t include me partying my life away. All my life I was wondering about this picture. I started to see it unfolding, but now I have actually seen the reality of it and it is most amazing. He tells us that He would show us things before they happen. 

My girlfriend had called me later to see how I was feeling and get together. She still was feeling pretty bad. I told her about the dream and she was amazed by it. 

I told her the whole earth was in darkness and yet I could almost reach out and touch a planet. I was standing beside three people. They seemed to be my loved ones. I had no idea who they were since it was far in my future. A voice spoke and it seemed to be God. He said, “Get the people ready.” I knew what He meant and I said “yes.” 

I began to tell people to board these designated trains into a city and I told them to leave everything behind. As I continued in what has clearly been my gifting, one of evangelism, since becoming a believer, I see this part of the dream being fulfilled. 

I was reaching the very end of the dream when I could see that the last people were boarding the trains. I entered a tower in this city and I went into an elevator and went all the way up to the very top floor. On that floor I stepped into a room that seemed to be a conference room full of people. They seemed to be waiting for me. It was as if I had been witnessing to these people without being aware of it. I had spoken to them briefly and walked over to the window and looked out. 

At this point I realized the last train full of people was coming into the station and an excitement was building in the room. I looked out the window and pointed, “He’s coming!” I shouted. Everyone began to shout, “He’s coming, He’s coming!” We all looked over the horizon and what had been total blackness, was now the brightest light we had ever seen coming up over the horizon. Brighter than the sun! The shouting was growing and so was the excitement as every corner of darkness was being filled with light! 

When I woke, I was filled with a joy that I had experienced something incredible and I had a calling that was profound. I also understood that this was something very deep with prophetic implications, since I’ve never forgotten it. I knew that I could not be taken from this earth until the Lord was finished with His work. 

Yesterday, I was under tremendous spiritual attack. Many forces of darkness have tried to come against me. A person who has done terrible things over and over again. He is gripped with deception and tries to make me responsible for his own mistakes. He’s never taken responsibility in his own life and always lies to cover his deeds. This has caused me much grief in my life and also others around him. I must constantly pray for guidance and there is a tendency to be codependent, so I must step back. This is when I must pray. 

The Lord gave me a word yesterday; 

God is our refuge and our strength an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. 

There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God the holy place where the most high dwells. 

God is within her she will not fall; God will help her at break of day. Nations are in an uproar kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts, The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. 

Yes, the city of our God, is the city that all of the people are coming to. As He has His people preparing the way. And we are His servants. As long as we obey Him, He is in us and we shall not fall. He shall help us. I know my life is in His hands and I love the ones He has called me to. 

There are times I wonder if others have had this same dream or vision as I’ve had. There were others in that room after all. There were others on those trains too. And what are all the songs about trains in relationship to “people get ready, there’s a train a comin?” Is all this just coincidence? God gives visions and dreams to people about the future events. 

These days are upon us and the trumpet blast is about to sound. He is coming!!!!

I Never Knew You!

come to meThese are the words that no one desires to hear when the Lord returns; but they will and it will be spoken to many people that are quite active within ministry and the church.

This will be the saddest day for all mankind and I grieve when I read about this in scripture. People are always saying, “well God knows my heart.” This is a direct fulfillment of what scriptures states, “the heart is wicked and deceitful above all things, who can know it?” Well it’s true, God can know it, however, the heart being wicked and deceitful only means that we can deceive ourselves into believing we have some kind of ‘goodness’ that can save us. We don’t. We were born into sin and there is only one that is good, as Christ stated to make His point. “Do not call anyone good for only our Father in heaven is good.

Oh yes, we are good at something that’s true. It is, as I stated, self-deception. We try to climb up on that cross as if we can redeem ourselves with works or our image that we have created. This image is nothing but a false idol that we bow down to and hope that others will as well. Yes, this is why the commandment tells us, “Do not worship false images.” We can create a picture of ourselves in our pride and it is the very thing that keeps us from entering into a true intimate relationship with Jesus Christ. The only one that can save us from our deception and pride. The word of God tells us that, “He became nothing.” That’s right, the king of the universe, stepped into a mortal body to live among us and He did not consider His reputation.

When we come to Christ, we are to have our identity in Christ and we become nothing. He lives through us and touches the world through our hands and feet. Our eyes and mouth. We are the vessels. As pathetic as we are, He loves us in all of our imperfection and He alone brings about the change in us by the power of the Holy Spirit. This cannot happen as long as we are still holding on to any belief that we are doing this or He needs our help. The opposite of the humanist belief must take hold and we crucify our flesh so that He knows we are dead to ourselves. This is why Paul said, “His strength is made perfect, in my weakness. When our pride is wiped out and we are broken. This is when Christ becomes the strongest in our lives. It is the only time that we realize it is not our power. “Not our will, but thine be done.” It’s simply impossible as long as we are sitting on the throne of our will and not submitted to Him.

Now, in the end when He judges mankind it will be just this self-deception that men have chosen, to be cast aside. It is not the Lord’s choosing, but the very men that have been serving in ministry. However, they are not serving God, they only give the appearance of this to the outside world. Here is the pinnacle of the judgement in that day. It says in scripture; (Matthew 7:21-23) “Not everyone who says to me, Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father in heaven. Many will say(and the word many translates to the majority, or greater part) to me on that day, “Lord did we not prohesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?” Then I will tell them plainly, Depart from me, I never knew you.” The word knew is defined as “an intimate relationship.

So when the separation takes place we can see that the Lord is not pleased with all of these works, even though the people that claimed this as their right to enter heaven, think that they were serving the kingdom. The key and the operative words are, “I never knew you.”

If you look further, in verse 24, He defines the real meaning of this relationship. You cannot hear the word of God and know the truth and continue to live your life any way you please. There must be an outward change that is visible of your relationship with Christ. And it is not the title or works you perform, but the lifestyle that you live. It must be a reflection of the Lord ruling and reigning on the throne of your heart. If He is ruling, you will have the power to turn away from an unrighteous life and overcome these areas of darkness. You can’t hide behind good works as a smokescreen and believe that the Lord is going to let you slip into the kingdom because you taugh bible study or led ministry. He demands a consecrated life and we are the example of the Word of God being read. Paul tells us, ‘we are epistles being read.” Our life and the fruit of our lives to the world.

If we do not allow this, we are in rebellion and we are the ones spoken of in the last days, “they worship me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.”

So we can see these portions of scripture are dealing with the ones that claim to know Him. He is not speaking of the unsaved world. It is far worse to claim you know the truth and continue on with your deeds of darkness and use the name of Christ to promote yourself. This is very dangerous since we can see that the lost, don’t walk in hypocrisy. They don’t claim to have a desire to follow Christ and therefore are not preaching a double standard.

I had a friend that came with me to a church years ago. It was a vital church, but things started to be shaken at the top. Church leadership was being called out, by the Lord. A definite shaking was taking place and these people had lives that were unconsecrated and they were doing things that were morally wrong.

My friend laughed when we had a trip together. We were in a European country and walked into a club and she and I saw women on the tables dancing and men drunk as could be. We walked out and she made the statement, “hey it’s just like that church!” I laughed so hard and thought, “you know, she’s right! What separates that church from the world, if the leaders are engaging in acts such as these? She had asked me, “why would these people even want to pretend? If they are going to do this stuff, why no just quit being involved in a church?” Very profound statement from my friend. I was trying to be a witness to her and yet, after she had seen this, she made the valid point, that these people were indeed, worse that she was in their actions, because of their sanctimonious and hypocritical lives.

Of course the Lord wouldn’t allow this to continue and the church fell apart. If the leadership wanted to walk in these ways, the Lord was not going to allow them to lead so many others down this slippery slope. “Judgement begins in the house of God.” And since we are also considered temples, this means us as well.

So here we see the end days approaching and I would encourage everyone, to look at these words with great fear and do a self-examination, just as I did. I speak for myself as well and can say, I had almost fallen away from discouragement, yet refused to be claiming I was an active believer when I was walking in darkness. I just couldn’t drag the Lords name through the mud. To me, get in or get out! This is exactly what the Lord says in Revelation. Remember, I had posted this once before.

Revelation 3:14-16 “I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So because you are lukewarm, neither hot nor cold, I am about to spit you out of my mouth!” (The word for spit/spew, is vomit) It actually makes the Lord sick to His stomach to see such hypocrisy and remember, He is speaking to the church.

It is coming very soon, so I would say, now is the time to get on your knees and repent. Ask Christ to come and reign in your heart so that you will be one of the over-comers that He praises in the end. These are the ones that He will say to, “Well done my good and faithful servant, enter into your rest!”

The Wedding Feast of the Lamb

The dream that I had about 15 years ago, is as vivid today as it was then. It’s meaning was spoken to me by the Holy Spirit as soon as I had awakened from it.

In the dream I had walked into a room and a man was sitting hunched over at a table. He was wearing the garb of a Jewish man in the ancient biblical days. I was with a girlfriend of mine and we were supposed to be on a double-date. I was with the son and she was with the father.

Soon, the son approached me and I watched as my friend sat down beside the mans father. I walked with the son to the kitchen where I started to prepare something at a counter.

I looked outside of the kitchen and saw that my girlfriend had decided to leave and the father was sad. I felt bad and didn’t know what to say. As I turned around to cut the food I thought, “I don’t want this man to see me from behind,  I don’t feel very attractive.”

At that moment it was as if he read my mind. He walked up to me and spoke into my ear, “you are so beautiful to me,” he said. Then he continued, “Come,the harvest festival is about to begin, but we must prepare for aras. I seemed to know what he meant in my dream, although, the word made absolutely no sense whatsoever.

I followed him out of the doorway and into  another room. At this point he looked at me and since he was also dressed as a Jewish man would be dressed, although he had something more; he wore veils over his face. It seemed this did not surprise me, so I must have been accustomed to this. At this point he leaned forward and whispered something in Hebrew into my ear. As he leaned back and looked into my eyes, he removed a veil from his face. He leaned forward again, and once more, he whispered into my other ear. He leaned back and removed the other veil. Once more he leaned forward, very tenderly and whispered, but this time as he removed this last veil, I looked at him and it was as if he had revealed himself to me. It was as if I had always known him and I loved him in a way that cannot be described in earthly terms. I knew his soul and he knew mine. I felt as if he and I were one. It was the most incredible love I have ever experience and made me think, I can hold on for this. No love on earth compares.

The Lord tells us that , “now I see a poor reflection as in a mirror, then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part;then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. (1Corinthians13:12)

I felt when He looked at me, that I was fully known. But I also knew Him. It was as if I had always known Him.

It was the love spoken of in the Song of Solomon. Not something unclean or sexual as the world speaks of. This is the counterfeit and it is nothing in comparison.

When I got up from this dream, I was overwhelmed. There was so much in this dream. They are different than regular dreams.

First the Holy Spirit revealed the meaning of my girlfriend and the double-date. He showed me that she had no interest in truly having any kind of relationship with the father and this is why the father was so sad. Our father longs for a relationship with us, yet most people just abandon Him. If you’ve ever seen your father sitting alone, and looking lonely, this was the picture I had in my dream.

I had an idea that I was with the Son because I have a more intimate relationship than most people do. I have recalled even when I was a young girl, giving my life to the Lord and being very serious about this and excited about what a true relationship with Him meant in my life. I always felt His presence, even when I was slipping and felt He was my “first love.” I also know that He was calling me to come back to Him before His return. (Rev.2)

When I woke up I wrote in my journal right away. I do this when I receive a dream or vision from the Lord, to keep it fresh. The thing that I didn’t understand was the part when He took my hand and said, we must prepare for aras.”

I wondered, what language and can I find this word? I felt the Holy Spirit speaking to me, to get my Concordance and look up the word. Well, where do I start? I wondered. Is it Greek or Hebrew. Well, of course, He was speaking Hebrew into my ears. Those words I still do not remember and do not know if I shall remember until His return. As I opened the Concordance, I began to search. I prayed that I could find such a word and that the Lord could confirm it’s meaning.

I opened my eyes in amazement as my eyes fell on the page and seemed to zoom into the word-Aras; to be engaged to, betrothed, to marry. I was so awestruck. This is the marriage proposal of the Lord! He calls us His bride, the believers and this was such an intimate dream that I could not believe it. I’ve never forgotten it, yet I have longed for others to have this same type of experience. They would truly know how really He is and that He is the lover of our souls.

After that time, I had gone through many trials and I’m sure I thought that this would never happen to me. I thought that the enemy would never get his grasp on me. However, the Lord also says that in the last day “there will be a great falling away. Even the elect, if that were possible. Well, this is the apostasy that is spoken of.(Mark 13:22)But He specifically says, “if that were possible.” In my opinion, it means that it is not.

I am reminded by Him daily of this dream, however, and the final unveiling, where all shall be revealed. Now remember there are two parts to this. The wedding feast does not mean the end of the world. This is Christ coming for His church, (his bride). That is when the Holy Spirit in the body of believers shall be taken out. This will begin the time of tribulation.

The interesting thing is that He told me that the “harvest festival was about to begin.” This would seem to mean the Feast of Harvest, where the firstfruits were offered. (The Lord being the firstfruit of the resurrection) The Lord of the Harvest.

So anyone that does have a desire to understand the times we are in, should study the Feasts of the Lord, as I said many times. The are meant for Jew and Gentile to celebrate and they are also the timetable of the Lord. Of course He says, “I come like a thief in the night.” However, the bride must always be ready for her bridegroom to come and get her.

If you read the ancient wedding customs of the Jews, you will see that this is exactly why the Lord spoke about the need to always be prepared.

So I would just encourage anyone that does not know the Lord, to be ready, for His appearing. Search the scriptures and test what I am speaking to you. I am always concerned about the souls of men, and I would hope that you would find the truth.