The Simple Life


My brother is just so funny. I feel blessed to have him in my life. He makes me laugh so hard.  It’s wonderful for my mother to share this time with him too, since he had been living apart from her for many years.

I’ve noticed that he and the other people with special needs bring home beautiful pictures. The other day I was looking at this picture and I said, “Kevin, this is not yours. You’ve taken someone else’s picture by mistake.” He promptly picked up a pen and crossed out the other persons name and wrote his own name on the top! Then he said, “There you go.” As if life is just that easy. Take what you want. I wonder how many times he’s seen that done I thought. “Hmm,” I said. “He’d make a great attorney!”

My mother and I were laughing so hard at him. In his world forgery was nothing. If you like it, make it yours.

I looked at all of the artwork and started looking at the things in my home. I realized that life is just too short to collect things. The beauty of simple things that the artwork my brother produces, is better than anything one can purchase.

I sat in my living room and was sad when I noticed a small cardboard box which held the belongings which my mother was left with after being moved from her home. I took a picture. I cried to think this was so important to her.The Barbie dolls which she used to knit clothing for. No one could believe that she could do this and it was something that she took great pride in. The little Charlie Brown that plays music. The pictures. I managed to get the bronze shoes from my brother Dennis who had passed away as a baby. These she somehow never lost in all of her shuffling through the years. It is difficult to see my mother’s life reduced to a cardboard box. But then I look around and feel the weight of all the things in my life holding me down. I don’t want anything in my life. I can’t stand things holding me back from what is important. I hate greed and what it does to people. It hurts me to see what it has done. I don’t want to take care of things. Although I love looking at my brother’s pictures. And my mother’s things. It’s cute, but we all have the propensity to collect. So I want to bring joy to other’s by giving.

Now I got my mom into a pottery class to learn something new. She was making me laugh with her antics. When the teacher told her to “pinch her pot,” she said, “What?” “Yea, I said, “That meant something completely different in the 70’s!” Now she’s learning a different skill at 82 and she’ll be able to make new memories and so will I.

I realized that life is not about owning things. In fact the more time I spend with my mother, the more fleeting I see that our time is on this earth. I see that those who have robbed and tried to fill their lives with things, are missing the most important qualities.

My mother and I listened to my brother talking last night. He was telling us about the lipstick that he was going to give his girlfriend at school. He was going to put it in his purse. It’s really a fannypack. He crams all kinds of stuff into that purse. Sometimes I’ll check it just too unload some things. It’s so stuffed full. I just have to see what he’s carrying around and it’s funny. Pictures of things unrelated. I try to connect the subjects, but can’t seem to and move on. The objects make no sense,but they amuse me.

The keychains that I have given him have all found a place on this pack. I have actually had to remove some,because it has become unsafe. The weight of this is ridiculous. And the fact that one of them is a round basketball for coins, makes it hilarious with his gait and when he bowls, underhanded, my son made the remark that it’s a good thing I didn’t give him the bull’s you know what, to hang from this pack, or it would be quite a sight to behold, when he bends down to bowl! This visual just made me crack up.

He is very animated. And when he tells us that someone threw up at school it’s hilarious. He is over the top. I don’t think it happened the way he tells us and at times, I only wish I could place a hidden camera on him. There was one day that he told me that one person threw up and another girl was told that “she stinks and needed to go into the bathroom,” while the teacher was spraying the bathroom. And later, he said the same girl was his girlfriend. My son, who is not easily grossed out, said, “Come on, I don’t want to hear this! You’re girlfriend stinks!” And my brother as proud as could be, said, “Yes, she stinks! Right?” Wow! That’s unconditional love at it’s best! And, all I can say is, those special education teacher’s work very hard, and deserve pay raises!!! Treat them well. They’re very special people.

But,people like my brother are also very special and he keeps me centered. I sometimes find I’m taking him for granted and when I come back to him, I find humor in his simple words and beauty in the world around him. It is just what God was trying to point out to all of us and the reason He told us that “the meek would inherit the earth.”

Look at what a mess we have made of all of this. Greedy people have tried to use people like my brother for selfish gain. I’ve had people say, “They look at your brother like a throwaway.” That has brought me unspeakable pain.” Yes, even at his birth they thought he wouldn’t live. But God had a different plan. And his plans were to bring men to repentance through my brother. Yes, my brother who is so innocent. Who would take an art project and cross someones name and sign his name, would do this with anything. He knows no difference. He tells me everything costs “a hundred dollars.”

But who cares? My brother puts everything in perspective. Whether it a billion dollars or a penny, in his mind it’s the same price. Just as the value of a soul is worth more than everything. And as the Lord has said, “Woe to the man who gains the whole world, yet loses his own soul.”

Don’t Embrace Deception, Destroy It!


I was thinking about my prayer journals that I have kept over the years. I will pick up one of them and begin to read. Always amazed at the miracles which I’ve experienced. I detail everything. Including dreams and the fulfillment of those dreams.

Many are prophetic, and I know the difference. They have a powerful influence, and spill over into my natural life. I feel the Lord revealing things and reminding me of the dream and it’s messages. I see the little reminders or signs, as He is revealing the prophetic meaning in my ‘real life.’

Many times, when it comes to prophetic dreams, being completed,  they have a repeating theme. I will think it has come to its conclusion, only to begin again. And I also realize it is for a much larger audience, that I had originally understood. Perhaps the Lord does not want to overwhelm me with this knowledge.

One such dream, was many years ago. I had been in leadership in a church. It was experiencing some shaking, in the top  and I had a profound dream. I knew it had something to do with this. I met with the pastor and his wife to share what I had seen.

It was indeed, quite prophetic, as the knowledge which I shared, I could have not known, had it not been the Lord who had revealed these things to me. At one point, I posed a question to the pastor and his wife about this particular part of my dream. They both looked at each other with as much surprise as can be expected when the Lord, “reads our mail.”

But now, as I said, This dream speaks to a much larger group than just that church from so many years ago. The Lord had me revisit this dream. And I will share this. You may ask the Lord how this applies to you or your life.

The dream:

We were all a large group, standing outside of the church. As we stood close to each other, someone screamed. I looked around, and the large crowd seemed to part, in a panic.

Right down the middle, ran a huge iguana. It ran straight up into a tree resting on the highest branches. Everyone screamed in terror.

I looked at the pastor’s wife. She had a large apple, in her hand. She proceeded to throw it. But instead of throwing it at the iguana, she tossed it straight up into the air.

I watched it go up, and as it fell, I placed my hand out to catch it. When I had it firmly in my hand, I drew my arm back and threw as hard as I could. I hit the iguana, and it fell out of the tree and died.

Everyone’s fear was immediately gone and replaced with a feeling of peace.

As I said, this dream I had in 1993. Almost 20 years ago. 

Now, after I had that dream, I was troubled. What did it mean? I knew what I was dealing with on a personal level, in that church. And it involved the leadership and a lot of drama.

One day we were having a church picnic, at the beach. As I was watching all the strange behavior’s of the people involved in this dream, the most bizarre of all, was what I would say the Lord used to shake me up.

A man was walking past all of us with an iguana. As one of the people asked him to stop, she said, “May I hold it?” As she took hold of this iguana, I remembered my dream. I couldn’t believe this woman, who was very involved in this mess, was now standing before me, petting and cuddling this iguana. It was so bizarre, that this in itself, seemed like a dream.

Now the Lord told me, to remember the details of this dream. When I returned home, I opened my journal and read. This iguana, symbolized, something. The Lord revealed to me that it was, “Deception.” The Lord revealed that this woman was, “embracing deception.”

Next, I thought of the division, caused by, ‘deception.’ As this spirit ran through the crowd, terrifying everyone.

I thought of the ‘apple.’ Which I realized, has always been implicated in the fall of man. Apple, would be symbolic of ‘sin.’ And in my dream, the pastors wife seemed to have the power to address this spirit, but, she allowed it to rule.

So, after the apple was tossed up, it then fell into my hands. I didn’t hesitate. I landed the fatal blow. I realized I couldn’t wait, or this sin, would not only destroy me, but everyone else. This is what ‘deception’ will do.

Well, we know that deception is just another name for Satan and his army. The Father of Lies.

Now, as I was thinking of this in a broader sense, I realized that I have since found out much more about this dream. As I look back, I realized, that was one incident. Now, I have in my hands, the ability to take him down. The Lord has given this to me. Just as He did for David. He took 5 smooth stones, but he only needed 1. Because the Lord’s power is upon me.

So now, I wait. I pray and ask Him to show me, what, when, where. It is His timing and His plan. But I know that He tests His servants, to see if they are worthy to carry out the plan. It means we must die to ourselves. If we begin to ’embrace deception,’ the plan is rendered powerless. We must totally surrender to our Father’s will. Seek Him. It is a plan to deliver all men from evil. Not just some. And no one can earn this great gift.

It is ours by grace. When ‘deception’ falls and dies, our lives are resurrected. The scales will fall from our eyes, and we will see clearly. And we will not see a horror in a tree, but, Jesus Christ. The one who gave His life on a tree, for us! There’s nothing more amazing, or more beautiful than this!

The Seer Anointing

Words In Sand


I was thinking about a story in scripture today. It always resonated with me, because of the profound message which the Lord was trying to convey. And when I see people trying to act ‘all religious,’ I immediately think of the woman caught in adultery.

I absolutely loath many portrayals of Jesus, since they take away from His most human side. Yes, He was God in the flesh, but the flesh, is the part that intrigues me most. He was the example. And if He didn’t go around acting superior and holier than anyone, why should we?

Today, someone was telling me about a teenager’s phone calling him, accidentally. This is a person, who goes to church all the time and loves to talk about the misdeeds of everyone else.  They said, “he had such a potty mouth. His friend and him, were talking and I could hear them cursing. I just thought it was terrible. Meanwhile, I know this person is just as bad. Him and the other person, had recorded the call and played it to each other, and talked about the whole episode, as if it was an unforgivable offense. Now he thought, I would agree, that this was just horrible.

I looked at him and said, “You know, it’s not the outside of a cup that makes it clean.” Reading the discourse in Matthew 23, is a picture of the anger, which Christ had at this hypocrisy. He speaks to the blind leaders. The inside is what needs to be clean. Then the outside will follow.

This guy, just didn’t get it. He stared at me with a blank look. I was pointing out that this is not significant, since none of us are perfect. Without calling him out too much, I hoped he understood, that I wasn’t saying, “Oh who care’s if the kid was cursing?” But  my bigger question was, “Why were you listening? Isn’t that an invasion of his privacy? And then you recorded and played it for someone else?”

Then the natural story that came to my mind was, the woman in found in the Book of John 8. When I read, there are always certain words that seem to pop out at me. For example; v3 standing the woman before a group, was humilitating enough. But being caught, in the act of adultery, even more. Imagine this woman’s circumstances. The punishment for this sin was, death by stoning.

But isn’t this what these men wanted to do to her? Flaunt their superiority and decimate her character. And in the end, have the grounds to end her life. But it begs the question, how did they actually catch her in the act? If, they had not been spying on her first?

Ah yes, the argument today would be for the sake of having the proof to accuse her. But now, look at what the Lord does with this information. H bends down and starts to write on the ground with his finger. How odd. Yes, most people would ask, “Why was He doing this?” But to some of us, we wondering, what was He writing?”

I think that He may have outed,  some of those people, without giving names. Perhaps He wrote their, secret sins, in the sand. But the most obvious, was His calm demeanor, during this whole situation. I am impressed with the time He took to respond. It seems, a great deal of time. And He took a break from His writing. He straightened up,  to utter the famous words; Let any one of you who is without sin, be the first to cast the stone.” This is when He stooped down again.

So, it seems He began His preliminary message, and He stood at eye level to the people He was addressing. And this also allowed the best vantage point, along with the group, read His writing. But then he gave them more time and it may be, to include more of the members. He stooped down to write again, which seemed to give the maximum amount of impact.

Now in verse 8;  At this those who heard, began to go away, one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there.” This is when He asked her, “Has no one condemned you?” She answers, “No one sir.”  “Then neither do I condemn you.” But the last words to her were, “Go now and leave your life of sin.”

I think about the message of redemption in this story. Condemned to die, because of her sin. The enemy of our soul, is called, “The Accuser.” One of his many titles. And he works through humans to constantly remind us of where we screwed up. What we’ve done wrong. How far we’ve missed the mark.

But Christ came to shed His blood as an offering on our behalf. This sacrifice is the greatest gift of love. His blood has, “cleansed us from all sin.

Our sins are like those words, written in the sand. The Wind of Truth, had blown and the sand shifts. It fills in all those areas of darkness and words that condemn.

He cannot lie. He has already told us, “That as far as the east is from the west, I will remember your sins no more.” This always fascinates me. We are human, and although we try to forgive, we can’t really ever forget. It’s not possible. But for God, it is. So, as I’ve heard it said, “if He’s forgotten, why do we keep reminding Him?”

This is the time of the year to reflect on the awesomeness of His sacrifice and what it really means. Passover, Resurrection Day. It is all about Redemption.

Thank you Lord for your great mercy!

And Every Nation Shall Gather


Against Israel….

Well how is this going to happen? Everyone would wonder when and how these words could come to pass. But look, in the days that we are living in, and Daniel had spoken of the times of the end, “when people would be running to and fro, seeking knowledge.”  In other words, the information highway. The internet.

When the chaos broke out in Egypt, it was the first medium to be cut off, making sure that all ties to the outside world be disconnected, immediately, with the hopes that Twitter, Facebook, and social outlets, be disconnected. Gone are the days of propaganda, and brainwashing. The power is in the hands of the people.

Now, the scrolls which were given to Daniel, are being translated. “These are meant for the times of the end.” The angel of the Lord had spoken to him. They are not meant for you. Well, we are most certainly in these times. And how do we know? Because, as I have spoken so many times before, it has, and always shall be, about the covenant with Israel.

The war that will ensue, is not about anything else. Although, it will be a great deception. My friend today mentioned something about the great oil reserves and the land in one breath. And she is a believer. I had to gently remind her that although these may be great assets, it has never been about either of these things. That is just smoke and mirrors in the hands in the enemy.

It goes back to the beginning in the Garden of Eden, and the curse spoken and the inception of the covenant began with Ismael and Isaac.

Isaac, fathered the nation of Israel and Abraham, being his father was known as the “father of faith.” All who accepted ‘by faith,’ this sacrifice made by the blood of Christ, became inheritors of the covenant.

Ismael, was the half-brother and therefore he was not the inheritor of the covenant. Although the Lord did not cut Him off. God did say he would be the father of a great nation. However, the Lord did say that Ismael and Isaac would always be at war with one another. And this has been a struggle that would take place until His return to end this.

It is the epic battle of good and evil. Satan against God Himself. He will bring all of his forces against God’s forces and the Lord will prevail. He has already said that He has written Israel upon the palm of His hand and I would challenge anyone or anything to come against them. Because in so doing, you are coming against the Lord Himself. So I urge you to pray for the peace of JerUSAlem!

“I will bless those who bless you(Israel), and I will curse those who curse you.”

The Heart of Our Father


To Be Forgiven

This love is the love that reached down from heaven and gave his only son for us. What kind of love is this?

I’ve had strife in my own family and everyone seems to think that they have an exclusive entitlement to this pain when it comes to hurt and suffering. When it comes to the loss of relationship or divorce, separation, rejection, etc. But no one ever seems to remember what the Lord has done for us. That we turned our backs on Him. That we rejected Him. Oh, yea. Some would say, that’s not even real and they will go about the whole Easter thing, giving their kids baskets with chocolate eggs and rubber tasting chickens and celebrating whatever it is they’re celebrating. To them it’s just another holiday. Not a holy day at all. A day to make crafts or something. The whole meaning is lost. The fact that our God gave His life? Thats just a myth to them.  So it’s  really just another pagan holiday to them and they’re passing down to their kids. Then they wonder when they make those beautifully colored eggs, Then it’s no wonder that they don’t really have a relationship with their kids, or if they do, why the family is such a mess. And even if they have kids, the future fallout will be quite telling. The Lord commands us to “teach our children of His ways.” When we decide to do things our own way and things fall apart, we turn around and blame God, or worse, act as if He doesn’t even exist.
Well let’s take a look at God’s Word, the author of all relationships and see what He says.
In Malachi 4, He speaks about the Day of the Lord, which is coming soon. The family is important enough that He speaks of sending his prophet of a sign of restoration. verse 5; “See, I will send you the prophet Elijah before that great and dreadful day of the Lord comes. He will turn the hearts of the fathers to their children,and the children to their fathers; or else I will come and strike the land with a curse”
Now the reason it is referred to as the “great and dreadful day” is because for those who are  obedient to the Lord, it will be great, but for those, who are not, it will be dreadful.
As He says, He will strike the land with a curse.
When you see this is written before the Lord had come to this earth, we understand that the heart of the Father is to bring reconciliation.
Remember that it was “His only begotten son, that He gave to us.”  For those of us who are parents, it is an unimaginable horror.
But yet, we must now come to this conclusion. The Lord wanted one thing when He sent His son to this earth to be a “ransom for us.” To reconcile us to Himself.
So when He speaks in Malachi of the prophet “turning the hearts of the children to the father, it is not only to reconcile the earthly but to our heavenly Father. This is what Christ’s mission was all about and the reason He became sin.
When I heard of my loved one’s tears for his being ‘cut off’ from his children, I felt a sadness for him and it made me cry in my prayers to the Lord. He reminded me of the same rejection that He felt when He hung on the cross and He felt abandoned by His own Father because all of my sins, and the sins of others were cast upon Him, the spotless Lamb. His Father, being Holy, could not look upon sin.”About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?”-which mean, “My God, my God,why have you forsaken me? When some of those standing there heard this, they said, “He’s calling Elijah”
If you understand Passover, you will find this interesting to note that simultaneously, the lambs had been offered in the temple at the same time and was bound on the altar. This was to be a perfect, unblemished lamb, one per family. The High Priest performed the sacrifice in the Most Holy of Holies and this Lambs death would come at the same time as the death of the Lord, at which time the High Priest would speak the blessing over the lamb, “It is finished.” Just as Christ proclaimed of His own sacrifice.
At the Passover table there is always a seat for Elijah the prophet and the door is opened every year to see if he has arrived.
Now the prophet Malachi had spoken of the Spirit of Elijah before the return of the day of the Lord. This is the spirit of reconciliation.
The Father’s love for us is this great and He desires relationship with us, just as much as we cry for relationship with our own children. In fact this is why He has given us the experience of pain and brokenness, so that we can understand what this means to be restored.How He feels longing for us.  and why He sent His son to die. It was this important to Him. He made a way for us to return to Him.The curtain was torn that day in the temple, symbolizing the free entrance for us as children, by the shed blood through His Son. We became heirs to the throne because of Jesus Christ. No longer separated by sin. “but you received a spirit of sonship. And by Him we cry Abba, (daddy) Father. “
He stands  waiting with open arms of love. But He is the only one that can offer this.
When our relationship is restored to Him, then our other relationships will be restored.It is His promise to us.
“The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18
 

Declaring The Future Prophecy


And it was the most powerful scripture in the Old Testament besides the messianic Psalms, which speaks of the resurrection of the body.

Read; Isaiah 26:19- “But your dead will live; their bodies will rise.

You who dwell in the dust, wake up and shout for joy. Your dew is like the dew of the morning; the earth will give birth to her dead.

Yes, when you look further down in verse 20 it speaks to his people to go to “their rooms and shut their doors behind you; hide yourselves for a little while until his wrath has passed by.”

Sound familiar? Yes, it sounds very much like…the Passover. Yes, it is all the deliverance of Israel from her enemies and the Lords dealing with the sins of the nations. He speaks of the “Lord’s devastation of the earth.” (Isaiah 24)

Then He shall be dealing with Jacob to atone for his sin.It is, after all, referred to as, the time of Jacob’s trouble,” or the “tribulation.” Which I do not believe the bride(the believers) is going to experience. I know, some believers think that we are going to be on this earth for some or all of Jacobs trouble, however, according to my studies, this is just not part of the Lord’s plan for His bride.

It is not a doctrine that divides believers, however, it’s just a matter of opinion, but the Lord tells us in scripture that, “it has not been appointed for His church to see wrath.” And I have seen many other scriptures to support the fact that the bride will be taken away, to the wedding feast, for a period of 7 years, which would be appropriate for the period of silence listed in Revelation. This would explain the time of Jacobs Troubles, which is clearly meant to bring those who cannot see nor hear to Him. He says thatThat every nation shall gather against Israel and He shall return. At this point He shall return. And they shall see the one “whom they have pierced and they shall mourn. 

It is at this point when every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess, “That Jesus Christ is Lord!

Come Just As You Are


I am being reminded of so many friends as this Resurrection Day approaches and one in particular. I had the privilege of being able to pray with one who had passed away recently and the Lord told me it was urgent. Although I am directionally challenged and the enemy kept trying to route me in circles, this only made me more determined to get to my destination. He should know me better than that. I had some sisters praying for me and I fulfilled my directive given by the Lord. Now you have no idea how many spiritual warriors are in the world. Putting on their armor and on their knees fighting those battles with their spiritual swords as you go about your daily business. Yes, the laborers are always busy in the harvest fields, quietly sowing and watering seeds, as the Lord ‘gives the increase.”

I thought of a friend of mine years ago and we are told to “share our testimonies” as a way of building up the body, so this is what I do. And if it seems I’m boasting, I assure you, I am not. As Paul said, “If I boast, let me boast in the Lord.” For it is not I that do these things, but Christ in me.” Believe me, I’m just as amazed to watch these miraculous things as anyone else, and I share all of this, only as a means of encouraging others to get out and walk in faith, so they may also see the ordinary become extraordinary, in their own lives. This is what the Lord has commanded us to do. Make, disciples!

When I began reading my prayer journal from 1988, I saw the year that I  read a few years later, when I began working for my present company and met my friend who had become like a sister to me. So incredibly close, that her and I had the same first names, except hers was spelled differently. She had the same middle name, and her last name had the same first initial. Was this some strange coincidence? We were roommates and we had ID numbers that happened to be one number apart. We became best friends along with our other roommate in training and sat next to each other in every class. This drove our instructors crazy! We thought it was hilarious. We were unlike most of the other roommates, since it usually is difficult enough in flight attendant training with the stress level involved and all the craziness.

I had just come from the most horrific time of my life. In the course of two years, I had lost my brother, my father, been stripped of my job with Eastern Airlines, trying to make a marriage work, raise a toddler, near bankruptcy, etc. You name it, I lived it. 

But something else happened. In the midst of it all, I thought, the only way my ex-husband would make it and I could handle any stress would be to go to church. Somehow I knew that the bizarre things that I was dealing with in my life were spiritual. I knew only God could help me. And I’ve shared this before, when I made one simple request and I only had a small amount of something left in me to cry out, I said, “God if you’re real, please make sure I’m with my brother when he dies.” That’s all it took. When that plea was fulfilled, He began to lead me down the path to prove He was, and is, the great, I AM!

Now, I will tell you, by the time I got to my new company, I was a new person. Yes, this is what’s called, “Born Again.” The new creation. The old has passed away. Oh, believe, I was glad. I didn’t have anything, yet, I had a reason to be glad. So, I had two roommates watching me and wondering, what does she have to be so happy about? Little did I know, that I had a lot of people watching me. “We are Epistle’s being read.”

After I was out of training I stayed in the city of San Francisco and I realized that the Lord had me serving Him there. I was a witness to my roommates and they had all turned their lives to Him. This was encouraging to me as well. To see the power of His Spirit at work and His words, “Lift up my name and all men will be drawn to me!” Yes, as a new believer, I sure didn’t know what I was doing, but I could see it was true.

Now I transferred to New York and I was with my friend whom had been like my sister. We flew all of our trips together and now I was beginning to see, we would get along great, unless someone would start talking to me about my faith. I never started this conversation of course and I never slammed someone over the head with a bible. As my pastor used to say, “The Holy Spirit is a gentleman. He waits to be invited in. How true this is. He will never break down the door of anyones heart. But remember the Lord said to the woman at the well, “if you drink of that water, you shall thirst again, but if you knew of the water, that I have to offer, you would never thirst again. It was at this point, she asked, for this water.

My friend, was in a group with me and some other flight attendants one day as they just started firing questions at me. They seemed very intrigued, not unlike the group in San Francisco, that I had mentored at one time. They weren’t being antagonistic, but very interested. So I was answering them. It was at this point that she went and sat down around the corner, but within earshot of the conversation. The Holy Spirit reminded me that “Gods Word, does not return void, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.”(Isaiah 55:11) I held fast to this promise for her life and prayed for her constantly because of my love for her. He reminded me that He had placed her in my life for that purpose and nothing was a coincidence. But we are linked together with others in this life for His purposes and plans.

Later, she confronted me. “Why do you have to talk to people about your faith all the time?” “Listen,” I told her. “I love you like a sister, but , my faith in the Lord, is part of who I am, and if you love me, then you can not separate that from me. When I speak it is for those who want to hear, not for those who do not. There will always be some, that don’t want to know about the Lord, but even if there is one, that is the one the Lord is speaking to.” At this she didn’t say anything else.

Upon returning home, I grieved for her. She was a psychology major, and I knew that it was her own worldly intelligence and wit that kept her spiritually blinded. I knew, because I had been the same way. This is exactly why the Lord yoked us together. We had a kindred spirit and in every other way, we were similar. Now she was trying to makes sense of something that, would never hold logic. This was the stumbling block. The other stumbling block was her Religion. Yes, that other thing that Satan loves to use against man. Her security blanket. The double-whammy. Logic and Religion. The Dual Highway to Hell. How many times did she tell me, “I’m Catholic.”  Hmm, well, good luck with that. (That’s what I want to say…ahhh, but I was there once too, so grace kicks in.)

That’s it…I decided, I’m fasting for her. I told the Lord. I’m going on a three-day fast and I’m praying for her. I was going to meet her in New York on the third day.

Now I don’t know what the Lord going to do but I just pray and pray and pray. I fly into New York on the third day and I see her. She’s waiting outside for me. What in the world is wrong with her? She looks terrified. “What’s going on?” I ask her. “Oh, my gosh! I had the worst nightmare last night! ” she says. “What was it about?” “Well, in my bedroom I have a little statue of Mary on my nightstand by my bed and in my dream it started talking to me!” “What did it say?” I asked. “It doesn’t matter It was demonic! I started screaming for my mom and dad in my dream! I told them to call you! I told them that you would know what to do! It’s like you’re a priestess or something.” “Well listen, I don’t have to be a priestess to cast out demons. All I must have is authority. And any follower of Jesus Christ does carry that authority! You know the Lord said that he would use dreams to terrify some, (Job 7:14). He will do whatever it takes to bring us back from our foolishness and you’d better believe our prayers are powerful. So if you have loved ones you’re praying for, don’t give up! At that point I asked her, when are you ready to surrender to the Lord’s love? He’s waiting for you. He doesn’t want to punish but to have a relationship with you. And the Holy Spirit says, “Today if you hear His voice do not harden your hearts.” (Hebrews 3:7)

Your religion teaches that you must be good enough to come to Christ, but Christ tells us we can never be good enough and that is why, He came to us! He became the living sacrifice. Every time we try to use religion as our ‘cover’ it becomes Adam and Eve, with the animal skins, all over again. Trying to use an insufficient covering, as they tried to cover themselves. It wasn’t until Christ had come that we had the ultimate covering, at Calvary, when His blood was shed. 

She understood this and accepted this. immediately after praying, her life began to change. She told me that she felt convicted about her own lifestyle and this was the power of the Lord telling her to make changes. As she began to ‘let go’ of things in her life, I watched as God began to change her. It was amazing. She let go of a worldly relationship and the Lord brought a Christian man into her life. She had met him on a flight and he was an airforce officer. He had regular bible studies and they ended up adopting 3 children from Russia.

She truly blossomed as she let go of her worldly needs and trusted the Lord. This is when we became true sisters. I had to let go and let the Lord deal with this aspect of her life. And I trusted Him and now I see the fruit that has been born as a result.

“The word is near you, it is in your mouth and in your heart, that is the word of faith we are proclaiming; That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. (Romans 10:9)

To Be Blameless and Complete…


In His Sight. Well this is the fulfillment of the scriptures but there are days that I honestly don’t know how it’s going to happen, except that I know our God can make the impossible…possible.

And to know He has already done that. To know what has already occurred and as I have studied and pointed out so many times, the importance of knowing our Hebrew roots, there is a reason for Christ’s coming through the house of David and the whole meaning of the Judaic rituals, albeit legalistic to most of the unbelieving Jews. The Lord told us that not a jot or tittle would pass away until the fulfillment and we are to learn of Him, of course, it is pretty difficult to do this, if we do not understand from His very Jewish mindset, the meaning of this text.My friend told me the other day, “I don’t do kosher.” Well, I’m sorry but Jesus is Kosher! Hey people! Jesus is a Jew for a reason! He said it over and over again! I came first to the nation of Israel. Now look, I’m not Jewish, I wasn’t born a Jew, I have nothing Jewish in me, but I can see it plain as day in scripture and I want to be blessed. He tells us, I will bless those who bless Israel and curse those who curse Israel. I can see antisemitic everywhere and I think it’s just something that’s demonically inspired. I believe it’s all because of that covenant that Israel has with the Lord and it’s going to become more and more divided the closer we get to the return of the Lord. And I’m sorry to ruffle some feather’s but there was a definite purpose for God bringing Jesus the Messiah into this world through the root of Jesse and if anyone is even slightly anti-semitic, they had better remember, that the Lord will be setting His foot smack dab on the Mount of Olives to end all of this nonsense and it is not going to be somewhere in Germany.

God’s plan and purpose has always been for all of mankind, but he certainly has designed the ‘coat of many colors’ arising through Joseph(Israel) and we have her to thank.

Now when I think of the perfect sacrifice of our Lord I think of the way things were done in the temple and of course this is the study of the temple sacrifice which was done by the High Priest on Passover. This was a yearly ritual and the lamb had to be a perfect paschal lamb. It was carefully inspected to make sure there was no defect of any kind. This was also what had happened to our Lord when He was taken before Pilate to be ‘examined’ and found to be without cause or any charge against him.

The lamb is now bound to the altar. He remains bound for six hours, until  twilight He suffers tremendously. The sins of the family have been ceremonially placed upon the head of this lamb and the suffering is a fragrant offering to the Lord.

You will remember that our Lord was denied, beaten, mocked, spit upon, and rejected, by men. And even our own Father had to look away when He became the sin offering for us. This is when He shouted out, “My God,My God, why have you forsaken me?” To feel abandoned by your father. It is a horrible feeling.

And now at twilight the High Priest finishes his ceremonial duties and when he strikes the fatal blow, he pronounces the words over the sacrificial lamb Tetelestai!…It is finished. Which Jesus Christ  who, being the High Priest (as we know in the order of Melchizedek) at that very moment, was pronouncing this blessing over Himself! An amazing thing! He had pronounced Himself an acceptable sacrifice!

And now the Lord has told us that we have also been redeemed from the curse of sin and death. And when we see Him, we shall be like Him. Yes, this is true. We  shall be spotless and without blemish. Blameless and complete in His sight.  This is why He became the sacrifice, so that we have this picture and now we see this in the Passover. As we celebrate this season coming up, we have a picture of His death and His life and what a beautiful picture if is.

Now you say you want a closer walk with the Lord? Really? The ones that walk closes to Him are the ones that suffer the most. I remember many things that the Holy Spirit brings forth since I was very young. A prominent memory is going to church with a woman that I did not know. My mother let her take me for some reason and she still doesn’t know who I’m talking about. We lived in a project then and this woman took me on several occasions. I remember standing next to her as she held my hand one Sunday and she looked at me and was sobbing. I seemed to know that God was causing her to weep as she was looking at me. It was the same experience that I felt when the nurse was rocking me in the chair in the Childrens Home and comforting me and so many others. Messengers of God, reaching out and touching me. Crying tears for me, as if they knew the battles ahead and the hardships. The suffering on the altar of life. The sins of my family and my own that would be placed upon my head. Crying out for that day when the pronouncement could finally be made and cleansing could come. The day of Jubilee. Finally the day of restoration!!!!

Isaiah 53…Read it and Weep!


jesus_37“I will pour out on the house of David and the inhabitants of Jerusalem a spirit of grace and supplication. They will look on me the one they have pierced, and they will mourn for him as one mourns for an only child, and grieve bitterly for him as one grieves bitterly for a firstborn son.(Zech 12:10-11 This exact verse is repeated in John 19:37 as the disciples realized that this prophecy was fulfilled with the crucifixion of Jesus.Only the remnant had seen this, but there will come a time when the whole nation of Israel will see His return and mourn as they realize, indeed He is the one who had made the Atonement for all..and they will weep…bitterly.

Remember Jesus had looked over the nation of Israel at one point and mourned for her Himself as He said, “Oh, Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing. Look, your house is left to you desolate. For I tell you, you will not see me again until you say, ‘ Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. (Mt 23:37-38)

Now as we see what Isaiah spoke almost 700 years before the coming messiah, we understand that this was a nation of people who had seen many people claiming to be the messiah, not unlike the crackpots we have experienced in our own lifetime.For even John the Baptist had to ask Jesus, if He was the one, or if He should expect someone else. And finally, the Father indeed confirmed that Jesus, was His son, “in whom He was well pleased.”

We cannot condemn these people and had it not been for the ‘blinding’ of the Jews, we would not have been ‘grafted’ into the vine, as Paul spoke of in scripture. We have to be grateful for this and the preservation of the words of the prophets and the laws. This was all done with a plan and a purpose to bring them back to the original vine. It is the ‘ingrafting’ and the gentile church is responsible to ”provoke the Jew to jealousy.” This being a Godly jealousy, to make them envy our understanding of the Word and their God. To know that they can now enter into the Holy of Holies, because the temple sacrifice has already been made by the blood of Jesus Christ and the curtain has been torn allowing us entrance.

When we can prove this by scripture, they will mourn the one, whom they have pierced and the blinders shall be removed. As I stated in earlier posts, the first believers were all Jews, yet now the greater following are the gentiles. This will change as we enter into the end times, however, according to the Oracle, by the prophets and the gentile believers are a big part of that movement, so we absolutely need to understand our own Judaic roots.

Isaiah 53

Who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?

He grew up before Him like a tender shoot and like a root out of dry ground.

He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to Him, nothing in His appearance that we should desire Him.

(I find this interesting. It actually states that He wasn’t attractive. So much for the Hollywood version.)

He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.

Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

Surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows,

yet we considered him stricken by God,(just think, He is God! Yet people thought He was being cursed!)

smitten by him, and afflicted.

But He was pierced for our transgressions, (pierced in His side)

he was crushed for our iniquities (crushing blows to the head with a crown of thorns)

The punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his stripes we are healed(beatings upon his back that pulled the flesh from his back in strips) It’s also interesting to me on Passover that the matzo is pierced and striped, and unleavened which symbolized sin. (another teaching)

We all, like sheep, have gone astray,

each of us has turned to his own way,

and the Lord, has laid on him the iniquity of us all.

He was oppressed and afflicted.

yet, he did not open his mouth, (He was examined before Pilate and did not speak,although he was found to be innocent)

and as a sheep before her shearers is silent,

so he did not open his mouth.

By oppression, and judgment he was taken away,.

And who can speak of his descendants? (kind of puts to rest any theories about Jesus and Mary.)

For He was cut off from the land of the living;(His death) for the transgression of my people he was stricken.(the penalty for sin)

He was assigned to a grave with the wicked, (two thieves on the cross)

and with the rich in his death,(Joseph of Arimathea donated his own tomb to Jesus)

though he had done no violence, nor any deceit in his mouth,(the thief stated that this man had done no wrong and asked that Jesus take him with Him when He entered into Paradise)

Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer, (The Lord said, “I lay my life down willingly, only to take it up again!”)

and though the Lord makes his life a guilt offering

he will see his offspring and prolong his days, (everyone who gives their life to Christ, “by faith,” becomes a descendant.)

and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand.

After the suffering of his soul, he will see the light of life and be satisfied, by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many, and He will bear their iniquities. (The resurrection)

therefore I will give him a portion among the great, and he will divide the spoils with the strong, because he poured out His life unto death, and was numbered with the transgressors.

For He bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.

To think that this prophet had spoken this hundreds of years before Jesus had come to the earth, yet they still did not see it. What a perfect plan.

It was the evening before that the Passover meal had been celebrated with Jesus and his disciples and the moment He was on the cross was when the High Priest was slaughter the lamb on the altar in the Holy of Holies, symbolizing the rite of passage and God had torn the curtain in two making it an acceptable sacrifice. This is when the words were spoken, “It is finished!”

When the person saw Christ hanging on the cross and said, “Behold the lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world!” He was speaking in plural terms. The exodus from Egypt. The temple. The cross. It all came together at that one eternal moment on the cross. One sacrifice for all eternity, for all mankind. It is finished!

This is why we can apply the blood of the Lamb to the door post of our hearts, by faith, and the Angel of Death Must Pass Over us upon our death. We our guaranteed life eternal because of the perfect sacrifice! Not because of anything we’ve done, but because of what Christ has done for us!

Elijah’s Cup


Always waiting for my redeemer

Always waiting for my redeemer

Well the Passover is still being celebrated and next it will be the Easter celebration. But what was Passover? It is what my last post was about. It was a remembrance of the release from captivity for all the nation of Israel. God’s miraculous power and the way He designed the release was all a foreshadow of the coming messiah. Everything that the nation of Israel was told to do was to point to a future event.

Now we know that Jesus sat at a Passover when he had his “last supper.” This was all part of the plan and signs to those that had spiritual eyes and ears. The Jews that understood all the prophecies of the prophets could draw a picture and confirm that Christ was indeed who He claimed to be. The fulfillment of the prophecies all culminated with His hanging from the cross and the resurrection. However, how could so many Jews celebrated Passover and not understand that the messiah had indeed come and He is coming back again? Well for many Jews, just as many non-Jews, the Passover is just another ritual. They are remembering the past, however, have no idea that this pointed to Christ and His ministry on this earth. How can they know if they have not searched for the truth, like many of us? This is when you will see the many symbols within the Passover and why they were told to celebrate in this manner. God wants to reveal Himself to all of us that are seeking.

At the Seder table you can see the symbols of Christ everywhere. It is rich with the pictures of Him. The matzo, as I stated is unleavened bread and leaven was always referred to in a symbolic mannerm, as sin. This is why God foreknew that this would be Christ sitting at His own Seder before He was crucified and passing this. Breaking it into pieces to share with each of his disciples and saying, “Take eat, this is my body which is broken for you.” Now He told them as they ate, they should  no longer do this as a remembrance of their release from Egypt, but in remembrance of Him” This is why He also took the cup, which is standard with four glasses of wine. As the Jews had done year after year, they drank the cups in remembrance of the release from bondage as Hebrew slaves. Now Christ told them to drink of this cup, for this is now my blood shed for you. Do this in remembrance of me.” He told them that this would be the New Covenant that was being instituted by the shedding of His own blood. This was the lamb replacing the lamb that was sacrificed at twilight on Passover. When Christ was crucified it was at the exact time that the High Priest was making the animal sacrifice in the temple. This was all part of God’s plan.

When you look at the matzo, you will see that it is striped with lines. It also has pierce markings throughout. This is done with a tool to keep it from forming bubbles as it bakes. This also is a picture. The prophet Isaiah, lived approximately 500 years before Christ came to earth, However when you read Isaiah 53, you will read every prophetic sign that the prophet pointed out. This includes the stripes and piercings. ( Isaiah 53:5)”He was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities, the punishment that brought us peace and by His stripes we are healed.

We can see that the Lord knew that what He was telling the disciples was that up until this point you have celebrated Passover in remembrance of the past. That was just a picture. This is now the New Covenant and you will celebrate the Passover with new meaning. I AM the Passover.My blood being shed for you will cause the Angel of Death to pass over you upon death. You will not suffer the second death.

Now when you look at the lamb shank bone on the Passover table, you can remember what Christ has done. “He was led like a lamb to the slaughter and as a sheep before her shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth.” (Isaiah 53:7)

The Jews were required to sacrifice the lamb, however the temple was destroyed in 70 AD and no sacrifice could be made anyway. But we know  this to be true because the sacrifice had already been made.

The cup is placed at the head of the table for Elijah. The prophet that would be the forerunner of the Messiah. He was the one who would announce His coming and did so through John the Baptist. This cup is always waiting for the prophet and the children go and check the door to see if the messiah has arrived.

The most amazing part of the Seder is the Afikoman. The matzo is broken into three pieces and hidden in the linen. The Afikoman is the middle piece. It is a picture of Christ wrapped in linen and hidden in the tomb.The father takes the middle piece, symbolic of Christ, the second part of the Godhead,(the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit) and breaks it in two pieces. (His body broken for us.) The larger piece of the Afikoman is taken and hidden somewhere until later when the children will try and find it. “Seek the Lord while He may be found.” (Isaiah 55:6)At the end of dinner this piece is broken into smaller pieces and shared with every person at the table. Hence, Christ sharing himself with His followers. He did this symbolically when He passed the broken pieces around the table and told them to “take eat, this do in remembrance of Me.”

The third cup of wine at the Seder is the Cup of Redemption. It is the new covenant that Christ shared with His disciples. This He said, “is the new covenant made with my blood. As you drink, do this in remembrance of Me.”

The disciples had a keen understanding of what Christ was saying, because they knew that He was telling them that a new covenant was being established, however, they did not quite understand that He would have to literally die.

At the Seder the bitter herbs are eaten. This is symbolic of our own bitter lives before release from the captivity of sin. We also remember the suffering of the Messiah as we eat them. The horror of our own sin, placed upon Him. The Father could not even look upon Him, because He bore our sin as He hung from the cross. This is when Christ felt abandoned, “my God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” What a desolate feeling of loneliness He must have suffered on our own behalf, at that moment.

The salt water that the herbs are dipped into, are symbolic of the tears of our own bondage to slavery and how much we suffered before finding our redemption in Christ.

A wonderful book for believers to use for a Seder is called,Celebrate the Feasts, by Martha Zimmerman. There are quite a few on the market now, but for a christian version, you may look in a Christian bookstore, or even a Messianic bookstore. The Passover is a rich experience and it is so incredible to finally receive a greater revelation of what our Lord actually did for us.

Now after you had experienced a Seder, you may say, as I did; “How is it the Jew does not see their Christ is the center of this whole dinner?” Well, because, they only have half of the story. Just as Gentile believers cling to their traditions and have no understanding of Old Testament practices and why these were so important. The Jew that has not come to know what Christ actually did accomplish, will not be able to see that He indeed fulfilled everything that their own prophets foretold. It is only as they learn of Christ that they can actually see He is the purpose of the Passover. So once again, I encourage Gentile believers to learn about the Lord’s festivals so that your eyes will also be opened and you can open the eyes of others.

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