My Father, Who Is In Heaven


He came for the sick

He came for the sick

When I pray this, I am addressing my heavenly father and my earthly father. It has become so personal to me and I have a picture of my father whenever I come before my heavenly father.

The longing in my heart is to see him again and to bring honor to him. I see all the little details of my life, woven together to form the fabric of my story. The purpose of my life. Defined by God, before my birth. It has taken me a while to see the calling and the plan. But I know that all of this pain is bringing me to the final conclusion. His promises are, “that all these things will work together for my good.”

I know that when we surrender our lives to Christ, we have been ransomed from the grave. I was bought with His blood. My life no longer belongs to me. But He is at work in me and through me.

I don’t represent myself on this earth, but Him. So though “I am in this world, I am not of this world”. I cannot be purchased by the material, since I’ve already been purchased by something which is more valuable than anything in this world. His blood.

Because of this, I don’t desire to have recognition or wealth. My desire is to fulfill His will for my life. This means to honor my father, even in his grave. Yes, I’ve screwed up many times. I’ve had my heart breaks and tantrums. I’ve screamed at my heavenly Father, “take this away! I don’t want it!” I’ve told Him, like the Israelites, “I was better off in Egypt.” The pain of these experiences have left me feeling abandoned and rejected. So much sorrow, that I can relate to His experience on the cross. I understand that cry of anguish, “Daddy, where are you? Why have you left me?” Sure, maybe Christ didn’t use this vernacular, but the meaning was the same.

My dad was a man who had faithfully served his country and his company. In the end of his tormented life, he was robbed by both. The only joy he had left was his job and his family. Now it had abruptly come to an end, by his own hand.

I certainly couldn’t find any good which could come from this. But then again, when most people looked to the cross and our Lord’s crucifixion, I’m sure they thought the same. I’m sure that at the time, His disciples looked to His death as the end. That Satan’s plan had succeeded. But the end is only for those who have no hope.

This was really the beginning. Our Lord told us that this is His very name. “The Alpha and Omega-The Beginning and the End.” Yes, now I am starting to understand how profound this message really is to mankind.

First, I had to go through these trials to comprehend the depth of His love for all of us. I had to let go of fear and pain and learn to trust My Father. He reminded me that, Christ did not come into this world to condemn us, but that through Him, we might be saved.”

Saved from what? Well, if I rounded up everyone who had brought harm to my earthly father and brought about this suffering, there wouldn’t be a prison big enough to contain them. As the heart of man is full of corruption, what purpose does prison serve? Besides being a drain on taxpayers, it only makes criminals worse.

No, our Lord told us that, “we are anointed to set the captives free.” But this is not by the laws of man. The law does not make one free. As Paul so eloquently stated in scripture, “Until the law was given, I had no desire to sin.”

As I pursued lawyer after lawyer. One law enforcement official after another, to bring justice, I realize that man cannot offer the justice I seek. “One man cannot give his life for another.” This is not going to bring honor to my father or peace to him. Because we are in a corrupt world, our whole system is designed to reward criminals and punish the innocent. It is contrary to our God.

Our Lords plan is always redemptive. His life for ours. He told us, “that the punishment that was meant to bring us peace, was upon Him.”  This is not restoration, or reformation. These things are temporary and without power. But it is regeneration, which only comes by the power of the Holy Spirit of God. The same breath that our Lord breathed into Adam. This is only accessed through our true repentance and the acknowledgement of His sacrifice.

So I pray to my heavenly father, “That His will be done, on this earth as it is in heaven.” As I do this I believe I am bringing honor to my earthly father, and in due time, my Lord will bring forth a harvest.

So, with this in mind, I step out in faith. I allow Him to direct me in the plan. I pray that “He would open doors which no man can shut, and close doors that no man can open.” All with the complete faith that He is drawing the final harvest to a close. I am part of His plan and I am blessed to be His  partner. In the end, whatever it takes, I pray I that I make both of my father’s proud.

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Stop! In the Name of Love!!


Here it is; the story of the woman scheduled for execution by stoning. Yes, believe it or not, it still exists. But although the Iranian’s still practice this, it is not found as a law in the Quran, strangely enough. As I posted earlier, it was in the Jewish laws and practiced thousands of years ago, but then everything changed. What happened to change this law? Grace had come, in the form of Jesus Christ.  He was the substitute. He took our beatings, “by his stripes we are healed.” He took the public humiliation and the death that was meant for us.(Isaiah 53) “The punishment that was meant to bring us peace, was upon Him!

Now there is an outcry from the international communities about this poor womans’ sentence. Of course it’s outrageous to believe that a culture can still practice such barbaric acts and especially for a sin, which seems to be the norm in our present day. In fact it is almost glorified in some cultures. The punishment truly does not meet the crime.

But, this shows you that people who have no hope, stand judged by the law. It is a terrible thing, and all who judge others by these laws, shall themselves be judged accordingly. Perhaps not on this side  of eternity, but the Great Judgment Throne, where they will see the only True Judge, our Holy God and without the Advocate, Jesus Christ, as the mediator, their pleas will be in vain.

We stand accused of sin. Period. End of Story. The punishment by our Holy God, who could not even look upon His Son, when He bore our sins….is death. But it is eternal death.

This is why we cling to Christ, the one who made restitution for all mankind. This is also why He could say to the woman, being dragged to her imminent death, “Where are  your accusers?”

Pray for this woman, and all of those who are still being subjected to these laws. Pray that they will see the truth and the grace that sets them free! This is love, “Greater Love Has No Man, than He lays down His life for a brother.”

This is what our Savior has done for us…all in the name of Love!

Yeshua-Behold the Lamb!


And by His stripes we are healed

It is the prophet Isaiah’s words spoken to the nation of Israel about their coming messiah. The nation of Israel had seen many, claiming to be ‘the one.’ Much like we do today and many who are not knowledgeable of the words of the prophets, are deceived, as they were in Jesus day. We have had people searching for a miraculous sign, especially when times are tough, and if they don’t know Jesus words, such as, “it is a wicked and adulterous generation who seeks after a sign and none shall be given,” then they shall be running to and fro seeking after all kinds of crazy things and worshipping people and false idols. They pray to other people and even objectify things. It’s incredible that humans have all but forgotten that the nation of Israel did the exact same thing when Moses went up to the mountain to get the tablets and made a golden calf.

I watched a special the other night about all the so-called saints that have been declared by a church that the people are praying to. Keep it simple and do not sin folks! Everything is in Gods word. “There is but one God and one mediator between God and men the man Christ Jesus, who gave Himself as a ransom for all men-the testimony given in its proper time.(1Timothy2:5,6)

Just as so many other mediators are out there, we just cannot deify angels, objects, or loved ones, no matter how good they may have been. Even the preachers are called to guide us, however, as I’ve pointed out, we are to walk in obedience to God’s word and we are humans.

I think it’s appropriate on the eve of Resurrection Day to dig into Isaiah’s prophetic words to the nation of Israel, since it’s such a beautiful picture of messiah. It is mysteriously left out of the temple teachings. You will see why after I impart the bulk of the text; It is interesting to note that this prophet had spoken these words at least 500 years or more before Christ had made His appearance to the nation of Israel. Weary from so many claiming to be the messiah and longing for a ruler to overthrow the oppressive Roman rule, this man was just one more crackpot to some, but to those who had the spiritual eyes and ears required….just as is required today

Isaiah 53; Who had believed our message, and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed? He grew up before him like a tender shoot out of dry ground. He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to Him, nothing in His appearance that we should desire Him.

(this whole paragraph speaks of His humble birth and the fact that He had no attractive qualities that would draw attention to Himself. Nothing majestic to indicate royalty. His kingdom was not of this world and He made this clear. In fact we’ve never had anything in all of scripture to describe His appearance, except that He was of large stature, dark-skinned and had a beard. God did everhthingwith purpose. He knows man wants to worship an image and He tells us that we are to “worship in Spirit and in Truth” Man has a tendency to follow other men, and this is why Jesus told His disciples that He would send them the Holy Spirit who would live in all of us believers and we must be as servants.

v3 He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed Him not. Surely He took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows, yet we considered Him stricken by God, smitten by Him and afflicted.

(all His life He was made to suffer in the body of a man to learn what it meant to be fully human. “He became obedient unto all things, even unto death on the cross.” And men assumed He was being cursed because of His suffering.

but he was pierced for OUR transgressions, he was crushed for OUR iniquities; the punishment that brought US peace was upon him, and by his wounds, WE are healed.

Every year at Passover, I’m fascinated when I look at the matzoh and see the piercings and the stripes on the unleavened matzoh. It is all a picture of HIM. It was the foreshadow of His coming and the completion of the picture is when He sat with His disciples at the table passing this matzoh around the table. They had done this year after year. This was to be the culmination  on this very night. The reason the Passover was given. Leaven, is yeast, which is a picture of sin.(ex 12:15,Mt16:6,1Co5:6) He took the bread and passed it to his disciples breaking it, he spoke about the fact that up until this point they had always done this in remembrance of their exodus from Egypt. From now on they would “do this in remembrance of Him.” He is the Passover Lamb.” Now you see the Old Testament practices had value since they pointed to Christ.

v6We all like sheep have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way;and the Lord has laid on Him the iniquity of us all.

v7He was oppressed and afflicted, yet He did not open his mouth; he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is silent so he did no open His mouth.By oppression and judgment He was taken away.

(Jesus Christ stood before Pilate and was examined and found to be without cause. He was asked by the Jews what they wanted to do with Him and they asked for Barabas to be released on His behalf. interestingly, Barabas name, means, “son of the father.” Jesus  (being the true son of the Father)became his substitute, and what a picture of substitutionary sin, (God’s guilt offering) from the beginning to the very end.

v8And who can speak of His descendants? For He was cut off from the land of the living; for the transgression of my people He was stricken. He was assigned a grave with the wicked, and with the rich in His death though He had done no violence, nor was any deceit in His mouth.

(He had no marriage or family, so that puts an end to the nonsense about his wife and the Hollywood fairytale. The real wedding will take place at the “wedding feast,” with His bride, the church. He left for this reason. He was assigned a “rich man’s grave,” when Joseph of Arimathea, donated his very own tomb to Him to be used.

v10Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush Him and cause Him to suffer, and though the Lord makes His life a guilt offering He will see His offspring and prolong His days, and the will of the Lord will prosper in His hand.

(All who have placed their trust in Christ are His offspring. We are of the Incorruptible seed.)

v11After the suffering of His soul, He will see the LIGHT of LIFE, and be satisfied, by His knowledge my righteous servant will justify many, and He will bear their iniquities.

(The Three days in the tomb and the Resurrection! )

v12 Therefore I will give Him a portion among the great, and He will divide the spoils with the strong, because HE poured out HIS life unto death, and was numbered with the transgressors. For He bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors!

Now as we celebrate this Passover/Easter it is simple to know it is the same holy day. The Israelites were to take a perfect lamb( Jesus) and sacrifice this lamb. Dip the hyssop(faith) into the blood. Place this over the doorpost and sideposts of the doors(to form a cross) and the angel of death would ‘pass over ‘their families. We do this now by faith when we confess Christ as our Savior. “Behold I stand at the door and knock, and if anyone opens I will come in.”(Rev.3:20)

He Has Risen!!!!

No Time


This is what the Lord keeps speaking to me. Don’t waste your time on those who refuse to hear your message and turn from their ways. It was not meant for their ears.

“Who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?  He grew up before him like a tender shoot out of dry ground  He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to Him, nothing in His appearance that we should desire Him.”

You see the message was always hidden, for that reason. The Lord wanted us to seek Him earnestly. He didn’t come in wearing priestly garments with flashy clothes and jewelry. Be careful!

However, the enemy is described as very beautiful. He was the “bright and shining one” The “one who appears as an angel of light” Yes, that’s right, more than likely He will be sitting right next to you at church folding his/her hands with bible and praying earnestly for the needs of others, and oh so righteous, while tearing apart that terrible person that doesn’t come to church cause they are just such a sinner.He will detail the facets of their lives that make them unworthy, forgetting, of course his own shortcomings. They surround themselves with companions who will cover for each other and have thereby managed to deceive themselves. No one will speak the truth in love, lest they offend another. Yes, true conviction means that one doesn’t need to even speak, the Holy Spirit brings the word to a person and shows them. I’ve had new believers come to me and tell me, “”look the Lord showed me this in my life and its sin, I just can’t do this. That before I even mentioned a word. So if you are a person that has been claims to be a believer, and you have obvious sin in your life, you may want to question this. There simply must be a regeneration(born again) experience to qualify this. “Behold the old has passed away, all things have become new!” Otherwise you’re just playing church and it’s just a dead ritual and God will not be mocked. No one wants to follow that.

Each day is a new day and His mercies are new every morning. I  ask the Lord to help me check my spirit. I don’t want to be guilty of this. I have always had a heart for the lost and felt most comfortable outside the walls of these places. This is what the Lord reminds me of. That this is where His heart is also. And as long as I keep my focus, I will keep my heart soft. I’m reminded of the story in scripture when the Pharisee was praying in the temple and thanking God that he was “not like that heathen over there, as he looked with contempt at the man praying a short distance away from him.” Of course, the Pharisee was all decked out and this man was a sinner, in his eyes, since he was a teacher of the law, he felt he was just unable to compare. Oh, how Satan deceives us.

I cannot reiterate this enough, the true church exists outside of a building. It is hidden in the body of true believers and cannot be torn apart. It comes in th form of obedience to His word. Nothing can stand against it. The gates of hell shall not prevail against the true church of Jesus Christ!

Although they try the false church tries to understand, but they cannot. They haven’t been regenerated, as I stated earlier. The rail against what they do not understand, and try to hurt the messenger. The Lord tells us not to cast our pearls before swine, because the absence of the Holy Spirit inside, gives them an anger and no conviction of sin. This is why we pray. Only the Lord knows who will receive Him and who will not.

There is a battle raging in these last days and the true church is taking a stand. What is false will fall. Only Gods Word will remain. He is the root that springs out of dry ground!!!! And his Word is the Water that is needed to make it grow!

Isaiah 53…Read it and Weep!


jesus_37“I will pour out on the house of David and the inhabitants of Jerusalem a spirit of grace and supplication. They will look on me the one they have pierced, and they will mourn for him as one mourns for an only child, and grieve bitterly for him as one grieves bitterly for a firstborn son.(Zech 12:10-11 This exact verse is repeated in John 19:37 as the disciples realized that this prophecy was fulfilled with the crucifixion of Jesus.Only the remnant had seen this, but there will come a time when the whole nation of Israel will see His return and mourn as they realize, indeed He is the one who had made the Atonement for all..and they will weep…bitterly.

Remember Jesus had looked over the nation of Israel at one point and mourned for her Himself as He said, “Oh, Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing. Look, your house is left to you desolate. For I tell you, you will not see me again until you say, ‘ Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. (Mt 23:37-38)

Now as we see what Isaiah spoke almost 700 years before the coming messiah, we understand that this was a nation of people who had seen many people claiming to be the messiah, not unlike the crackpots we have experienced in our own lifetime.For even John the Baptist had to ask Jesus, if He was the one, or if He should expect someone else. And finally, the Father indeed confirmed that Jesus, was His son, “in whom He was well pleased.”

We cannot condemn these people and had it not been for the ‘blinding’ of the Jews, we would not have been ‘grafted’ into the vine, as Paul spoke of in scripture. We have to be grateful for this and the preservation of the words of the prophets and the laws. This was all done with a plan and a purpose to bring them back to the original vine. It is the ‘ingrafting’ and the gentile church is responsible to ”provoke the Jew to jealousy.” This being a Godly jealousy, to make them envy our understanding of the Word and their God. To know that they can now enter into the Holy of Holies, because the temple sacrifice has already been made by the blood of Jesus Christ and the curtain has been torn allowing us entrance.

When we can prove this by scripture, they will mourn the one, whom they have pierced and the blinders shall be removed. As I stated in earlier posts, the first believers were all Jews, yet now the greater following are the gentiles. This will change as we enter into the end times, however, according to the Oracle, by the prophets and the gentile believers are a big part of that movement, so we absolutely need to understand our own Judaic roots.

Isaiah 53

Who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?

He grew up before Him like a tender shoot and like a root out of dry ground.

He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to Him, nothing in His appearance that we should desire Him.

(I find this interesting. It actually states that He wasn’t attractive. So much for the Hollywood version.)

He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.

Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

Surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows,

yet we considered him stricken by God,(just think, He is God! Yet people thought He was being cursed!)

smitten by him, and afflicted.

But He was pierced for our transgressions, (pierced in His side)

he was crushed for our iniquities (crushing blows to the head with a crown of thorns)

The punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his stripes we are healed(beatings upon his back that pulled the flesh from his back in strips) It’s also interesting to me on Passover that the matzo is pierced and striped, and unleavened which symbolized sin. (another teaching)

We all, like sheep, have gone astray,

each of us has turned to his own way,

and the Lord, has laid on him the iniquity of us all.

He was oppressed and afflicted.

yet, he did not open his mouth, (He was examined before Pilate and did not speak,although he was found to be innocent)

and as a sheep before her shearers is silent,

so he did not open his mouth.

By oppression, and judgment he was taken away,.

And who can speak of his descendants? (kind of puts to rest any theories about Jesus and Mary.)

For He was cut off from the land of the living;(His death) for the transgression of my people he was stricken.(the penalty for sin)

He was assigned to a grave with the wicked, (two thieves on the cross)

and with the rich in his death,(Joseph of Arimathea donated his own tomb to Jesus)

though he had done no violence, nor any deceit in his mouth,(the thief stated that this man had done no wrong and asked that Jesus take him with Him when He entered into Paradise)

Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer, (The Lord said, “I lay my life down willingly, only to take it up again!”)

and though the Lord makes his life a guilt offering

he will see his offspring and prolong his days, (everyone who gives their life to Christ, “by faith,” becomes a descendant.)

and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand.

After the suffering of his soul, he will see the light of life and be satisfied, by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many, and He will bear their iniquities. (The resurrection)

therefore I will give him a portion among the great, and he will divide the spoils with the strong, because he poured out His life unto death, and was numbered with the transgressors.

For He bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.

To think that this prophet had spoken this hundreds of years before Jesus had come to the earth, yet they still did not see it. What a perfect plan.

It was the evening before that the Passover meal had been celebrated with Jesus and his disciples and the moment He was on the cross was when the High Priest was slaughter the lamb on the altar in the Holy of Holies, symbolizing the rite of passage and God had torn the curtain in two making it an acceptable sacrifice. This is when the words were spoken, “It is finished!”

When the person saw Christ hanging on the cross and said, “Behold the lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world!” He was speaking in plural terms. The exodus from Egypt. The temple. The cross. It all came together at that one eternal moment on the cross. One sacrifice for all eternity, for all mankind. It is finished!

This is why we can apply the blood of the Lamb to the door post of our hearts, by faith, and the Angel of Death Must Pass Over us upon our death. We our guaranteed life eternal because of the perfect sacrifice! Not because of anything we’ve done, but because of what Christ has done for us!

One of My Greatest Accomplishments:


100_0065_00 Getting kicked out of a Jewish nursing home.

Yes, such a rabble-rouser I am! I had gone in to this nursing home to visit a girl who I had met in the bible study we had started. It was in a residence that we would go to weekly for people with the aids virus. At times the people who were very ill would be sent to the hospital, hospice or nursing homes in other areas for care.

Well, this happened to be a Jewish facility, however, non Jews were also sent to this nursing home, as well.

On this particular day, I was walking in and I was wearing a shirt that had Isaiah 53 on it. This is the messianic chapter of Isaiah. It speaks all about the prophecies of Jesus and what He would accomplish, detailing what the nation of Israel was to look for in their messiah. It is amazing prophecy and every detail, indeed was fulfilled by Jesus, which can be pointed out to any Jew, to prove that Yeshua (Jesus), is the Jewish messiah, sent to the nation of Israel, including the fact that  He is also of the lineage of David. Now since Jesus was crucified and the temple was destroyed taking with it all genealogical records, making this crucial fact impossible to carry on any further into history.It seemed to prove once again that the prophets were all on the same page when it came to the stated lineage from the “messiah coming from the house of David.”

A funny thing with the Christian church. It seemed that the Old Testament was not a course of study for many. A very sad thing indeed, since it is our command to “witness first to the Jew then to the Gentile.” How can we do this if we don’t understand the Jewish mind?

Isaiah 53, is a chapter that is left out in many synagogues. Of all the chapters in the book of Isaiah, it is the one in the whole book of Isaiah that is the crucifixion in its entirety! That’s right. It’s no wonder that it is left out. By chance? I’m not sure or if it is spiritually swept under the rug, so to speak. But read it yourself. I will save that for my next post, however, I walked into that nursing home and the little old man named Charlie sat in his wheelchair and what happened next can only be described as supernatural.

It was my family. We were walking and as I approached, he was reading. He looked as if he was too old to see, but yet he was reading the text on the shirt, “he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities, the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds, we are healed.”

As he read, I asked him his name. He told me, “Charlie.” Well, Charlie, do you know who that is about?” “No” “That is about Jesus, the messiah”

At this point, I had no idea what belief he was, but he said, “I never heard any of this in Hebrew school.” I smiled. He looked to be about 80 or so. I already knew quite a bit about Hebrew school. “No,” I said, “I wouldn’t imagine you would . Listen, Charlie, Did you know that Jesus, has already come, and He’s coming back again?

He looked at me with eyes opened wide. “How come I’ve never heard this before?” He asked. “Well, Charlie, “Perhaps, No one else really understands or knows this, but He has come to the nation of Israel, and all you have to do is believe. He is about to return again. Do you want me to pray with you?” At this point Charlie grabbed my arm and he had tears in his eyes. “You’re the first person that has ever given me hope!” He said. I almost started crying.

As we sat in the hallway and I stood with my family and we were praying with him, a bunch of people were starting to pass by for the dinner hour. All of the older people were staring as they were walking by. All of a sudden I felt a woman stop and she seemed to be very agitated. Then a man came behind me. As I ended the prayer, the woman angrily yelled, “What church are you from?” I answered, “I’m not from a church.” “Well, what religion are you?” I’m not a religion.”” Well, I heard you say the name of Jesus!” “Yes, I did,” I said.

Now the man stepped in. I sensed he was trying to calm this woman down as she seemed very reactive. “Who are you visiting?” He asked. “Well, I originally came in to visit Linda, but Charlie started talking to me and then he said I could pray with him.” “That doesn’t sound like Charlie at all.” He said. Hmm, I said, “Yes, I suppose, that is totally out of character.” “Go to dinner Charlie, he yelled. At this point Charlie seemed clearly excited by the whole thing and I sensed that this was the most drama he’d experienced in a long time. He started wheeling himself down the hall and I was praying that the Lord was filling him with His spirit as he was leaving. I was praying that he really understood what he had done.

At this point the Administrator was looking at me intently and I realized he was staring at the necklace I was wearing. It is a Star of David with a Cross in the middle of it. It has been a source of confusion for many. I’ve had people ask, “are you trying to cover all the bases?” lol “Are you Jewish or Christian?” Never realizing that to be a Christian does in essence make you a Jew. The first Christians were all Jews and we are of the same vine.

So now the man is staring and he says, “When you come in here you must visit the person you come in to visit!” I said, “Are you kidding me? This is a nursing home. These people are happy to have anyone visit them.” “Yes, he says, but you can’t just go around praying for people!” And in the name of Jesus! This is a Jewish home!” I said, “I may be more Jewish than you. Now, let me ask you something. If the name of Jesus,  doesn’t mean anything and it doesn’t carry any power, then why are you so disturbed that I should pray for someone in that name?”

At this point he became very upset and said, “I’m going to have to ask you to leave.” “Ok, I said. And at that, he escorted us out the back door. As soon as we were out, my ex husband and daughter and I laughed and high-fived each other at the thought of Charlie and all the excitement he had just experienced and the talk in the cafeteria that evening.

I had a sadness at the conversation though as I realized he’d been all through school and had never heard about the messiah promised to the nation of Israel. That is not until he was in his latter years. To grab my arm. It reminded me of the time I was in the hospital praying with a young man about to die. He did the same thing. The desperation in his eyes as he grabbed me. It was the same look. The Lord loves these souls. So much that He snatches them away from the jaws of the enemy, right before the end, through someone elses hands. I love to be the one to see that. There is nothing that compares.

I remember being in a church once and being so active in ministry that we joked of being in the “inner circle,” before, the church became all crazy and split. I wasn’t happy as I was happiest when I was serving outside the church. My joke became that we were so far in the inner circle we were out! The other day my son came up with something even better, he said, I was in more of a cul de sac! lol I loved that! I was never into status. I was the one that went into places that no one would want to go. Because this is where I would want someone to come if I was all alone. In the nursing homes, in the hospital.

I don’t care how wealthy or poor a person is, they will all face this one day.

Now, after Charlie had made this decision, I wondered if he really knew what he had done. I wanted to confirm this decision and wanted to give him a bible. I also had a book written by a holocaust survivor that had come to know the messiah, and I knew Charlie loved to read.

But how were we going to get into that nursing home? As my daughter and her dad and I were talking one day about this dilemma, we stood in a mall near our home. We looked up and there about 50 feet away from us stood the Administrator of this nursing home with another man! We could not believe our eyes, as this nursing home was quite a distance from this mall. “Well,” I said, “I guess this is a sign, that it’s time to go!” We laughed as we drove over to this place and the minute we walked in, there was Charlie in his chair right by the door. And as sure as we knew the Lord would confirm to us, he looked right at us and said, “Hey, did you guys get in trouble?” lol “Nah! Not too much! How about you?” “Oh, no, I told everyone about what you guys told me! he said, excitedly!” Then I gave him the books and he was so touched.

I think about the seeds that had been planted through Charlie in that nursing home and how sharp he was. I would do it all again. To be kicked out of a nursing home before I was ever accepted in! There is no greater accomplishment than that! If only the Administrator would have given me an award for my wall!

To the Greatest Rabble Rouser of the Jewish Nursing Home

Hmmm, come to think of it, I may have come in second for that as well!

“That at the name of Jesus every knee shall bow and every tongue confess Jesus Christ is Lord.” Php 2:10

“Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved.” Acts 4:12

I Am A Thief


Today was my day of reckoning.

Yes, today. I was asked a question a few days ago about my past and I told them what I thought to be a truthful answer, but it wasn’t until my post, yesterday that I had a recall  new events.The Lord reminded me of my youth and how different I am now. But still, I am reminded that indeed:

I am a thief. Yes and a liar. And I am self-righteous. I had all but forgotten these events because I colored them as grey and they were so muted, that I saw myself as a “whiter shade of pale.” And so much better than others.

When I was young I was very rebellious and I thought that a life of crime would be perfect. I lived in the inner city and this is a badge of honor. You earn bragging rights for stealing.And living in a project brings a special toughness for a girl’s survival.

My brother and I still laugh about a guy that was bragging to me one day while we were walking down the street. He was telling me about the houses he had broken into and he pointed to the homes. “Yep, I broke into that one, and that one, and that one.” This is when he pointed to my house!

I was furious! “You A**! My mother freaked out!” I told him. And she did. I remember that night. She went downstairs and screamed. She said, “Get out of my house before I get my husband”, as she ran back up the stairs.

Well, after he realized how mad I was, he was so scared, he said, “Hey listen, I need a brown bag. I’ll pay you $30. “Ok,” I said. That made up for it, I guess. That’s how we did things in the ghetto. My brother and I thought he was a little slow anyway. Why would you rob from poor people? It just doesn’t make sense.

Well, we didn’t break into homes, but we did steal and it seemed it was acceptable. Me and my friends would go out on sprees and it just was a part of life in the ghetto Somehow stealing from stores rather than a person didn’t seem the same. And it was with those pastor’s kids that Iremember first learning some of these tricks, as well. Remember,(as I stated below) that they felt they had something to prove and the peer pressure is terrible at that age. I think of this and watch my children carefully. Our conscience didn’t seem to bother us. A few friends had been caught,(including a couple of those pk’s) but I wasn’t, and was almost proud of that.I’m reminded of the scripture, “They glory in their shame.” I quit before I was caught, but not because of my conscience, but more out of fear.

But, I realized today, I am exactly like those people who I have been so angry with. Those executives that have robbed me, are just of a different caliber, yet the heart is still the same.People working in big corporations look at the up line and almost believe that if “they’ve had things stolen from them, it’s acceptable to steal.” I’ve heard them say this. They believe they are taking back what’s been stolen from them.

I remember when I worked for Eastern Airlines and the employees were told to call Wackenhut Security if they suspected anyone of stealing. They were given a 1-800 to call. This was after we had been asked to give a 20% wage concession, which wasn’t to wise on the company’s behalf, as the phone lines were flooded with calls from employees reporting theft. “Yes, I’d like to report a theft.” “Can you tell me what was stolen?” “Yes, 20% seems to be missing from my paycheck!” The company was so irritated with this ingenious strategy from the employees, that they shut down the Wackenhut lines. It’s rather humorous, but as the saying goes, “there’s no honor among thieves.” They couldn’t really expect that to work.

The Lord has shown me this day, that whether it is me, or it is the corporate managers that have been driven by greed,

He died for us. We are all thieves. We are all liars.We are all sinners. I have been so angry because I felt these people and their greed killed my father.

But the Lord showed me something about those thieves on the cross. My father was the thief too. My father would have been next to the Lord, on the cross too. We all crucified Him. It is the reason that we have been given this picture of Him at Calvary.

Two thieves. One on each side of Christ.The only difference is that one of the thieves recognizes his need of the savior and accepts His free gift of salvation and the other  does not. The other was still trying to justify himself, even on his own cross. Unwilling to humble himself.

The other hurls insults at the only one that can save him. Never the less, they both are still thieves like us. They both are lost without a savior.

So I must be reminded, that I am a sinner, saved by grace. As Paul said, “I repent daily. I must be reminded that Paul, Murdered Christians, Peter denied Christ, and all of the disciples were tragically martyred for their faith, so who am I? To be counted amoung such great men and women of faith?

“We all like sheep have gone astray.” Isaiah 53:6

The Lord told me this day, that until I realize that “I am the thief and the liar,” He cannot use me to bring others to the knowledge of Christ. Until I realize that I’m not any better than these men. I’m not  more saved. We have the same free offer. There is no degree of sin in the Lord’s eyes. It’s not to say, that we aren’t accountable. He will see to that in His time. We have all paid the price for our sins, but the Lord comes to show us the way out of captivity.

I will hold no anger, but I will strive to have love and peace.

I felt so justified. But I cannot be justified. But I can be forgiven. And I want these that do not know Him, to also know what it is to be forgiven. To know what this means. To have the slate wiped clean. The peace that this brings.Finally…the cessation of lust. True peace.

And the most beautiful picture of all. What did Christ say to the thief that asked, “Lord, will you take me with you when you enter into your kingdom?” He answered, “I tell you the truth, this very day you shall enter with me into paradise!”

There you have it. Everything in this man’s life. Under the blood.

All is forgiven.

He is the Prince of Peace!

We all crucified Him

We all crucified Him

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