The Veil that Covers

“Mom, why did God give us eyelids?” My son just asked me that question the other day? “Well, it’s for protection from the elements. Besides, when we sleep, we have to keep the light out and we have shields for total darkness.”

Now I was glad, he was asking about God’s creation in the whole process. At his age, sometimes, children just question, is God really behind the whole thing, or some alien life form. Or perhaps the big explosion, made these eyelids of mine. Yea, I’m thinking even my 14 year old son, wouldn’t be buying that story. The zombies make way more sense, than, “hey son, there was a big explosion in space and we all came together and your face was made. Oh, and eyelids were formed so you could blink and sleep. Isn’t that amazing?” He’d say, “Mom, you are really insane.” But look people. This is what is taught as a science in your schools to your kids. They razzle, dazzle them with a bunch of words, and make it sound like a science. By the time they come out they think it’s real. But if you break it down in simple terms, this is what they’re saying.

So, my son say’s,” why didn’t God just let our eyes get wet?” I had to laugh at the sound of all of us crying all day long.For some people with hardened hearts, it sure wouldn’t hurt. I think there are people that do things in this world, who haven’t shed a tear. At the heartbreak they have caused. They’ve never uttered the words, “I’m sorry,” to the people they have hurt. They have never bothered to humble themselves to anyone. So perhaps that would be a good idea. But that wasn’t God’s plan.

God has a plan and it is coming soon. It involves His church. He refers to His church as His bride. It is an amazing analogy as I will point out. Many on this earth have not understood. In scripture it is referred to as “a mystery.” Yes, this is because the Bride is veiled, until her time of revealing.

But veiled to whom? “And even if our gospel is veiled it is veiled to veiled to those who are perishing. 2 Corinthians4:3 Now the true church of the Lord is not a building, as many believe. He specifically told his followers, “You also are like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house to be a holy priesthood, offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ. (1Peter 2:5) The Lord does not deliberately veil the gospel. But what I see in this, is that there are some who are hardened and no matter how much you try to reach them, they are unwilling to soften. “So as the Holy Spirit says; “Today, if you hear his voice do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion, during the time of testing in the desert. (Hebrews 3:7,8)

I had a dream yesterday, that a young girl had asked for me to be some kind of a mentor to her. I don’t know if I was in a restaurant or what it was. But when we got together, she was so full of pride, she kept telling me the way it was going to be. Every time I opened my mouth, she started talking. It was as if, I was working for her, and she was my manager.She was haughty and sat towering over me, as if I was now applying for a position at her company. It was all very strange. Almost as if she just wanted me here to feed her pride. It made me wonder why I bothered coming here in the first place.  I kept my mouth shut, as the Lord reminded me, “I am opposed to the proud, but I give grace to the humble.” I realized the Lord was testing her heart.

Now, I told her, “Look, you are the one who contacted me to help you. But I cannot, if you keep trying to teach me.A student isn’t greater than the teacher. You have no experience in this area, yet you are not teachable. You will  not accept any help. I do know about this. I don’t want recognition, because I am not looking for it. But you just have made this a miserable experience. I’m afraid I will have to stop this.”

About a week later, she contacted me and asked me to help again. “I can’t do this. I really need your help. I know you can teach me, because you have experience.” “Ok,” I told her, “But this time, you will have to trust me.” I have some knowledge in this area.” The exact same thing happened. This girl rose up against me.  Every time I tried to show her something or, help her, she knew better. It was as if this was so deeply ingrained in her, she just couldn’t stop herself. She couldn’t receive direction from me. She was the same as the Lords description of the Jews in the desert, “stubborn and stiff-necked.” I couldn’t take it anymore. I said, “That’s it! You’re on your own! I have reached the end of trying to reach out to someone who wants to wallow in their own mess they’ve created. If the hand is extended and it is not taken, what can you do?” A few weeks later, I went by a fast food restaurant to pick up some food and I saw her. She was miserable and I wanted to cry. I said hello to her. She looked so sad. She had eyes, which were pleading with me, but I didn’t know what to say. I knew it was something which had to happen to break her of her pride.

This is heartbreaking in the eyes of the church. The church is God’s presence on this earth. This is why we pray, “Your kingdom come, on earth, as it is in heaven.” We are the earthen vessels, which carry this very precious treasure. The Holy Spirit. Which makes us the Holy Church. The veiled Bride. Yes, we come and we go. Into many people’s lives. Some recognize us, and some do not.

So there are many in this world who run to buildings of worship, to go to church. This is a verb. But our Lord uses the description to Peter as a noun. The true church, which our Lord is referring to, is a living breathing organism. Vessels, which are yielded for His use. Regenerated vessels, by the power of the Holy Spirit. So when we walk this earth, we Are the Church!

Now let’s look back at the examples of Jesus Christ. He went into temples. But very few times did we see these examples given to us in scripture. His core ministry was to the lost and it was out in the world. He did not find importance to impress with accolades of the priests. Human pride is the downfall of many. They too, did not recognize Him. He was our example.

He was persecuted by the Pharisees and the Saducees. All the teachers of the Law. They were filled with pride. They wanted to teach the teacher. They had no idea who stood before them. Their eyes, were veiled.

Then, the unthinkable; they blasphemed him. They told him his power came from the devil. They were all liars, yet, when they spoke against the Holy Spirit by calling him a liar, they were condemned. (Luke 12:10)

Now as, believers, we represent the true church. Yet many don’t see. The Lord tells us; “And I will ask the Father and He will give you another Advocate to help you and be with you forever-the Spirit of Truth. The world cannot accept Him, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him. But you know Him, for He lives in you and will be in you.” (John 14:15-17)

So, we see here that many people in this world run to structures, which they call churches. They may have fellowship with one another. But the true church, presents itself to us. We do not run to it. And many times, as I know from my life. As I have gone forth to be a witness, I’ve been persecuted. People have grieved the Holy Spirit. Some have even blasphemed the Holy Spirit.

And remember the Lord told us that “if the world hates you, know that it hated Me before it hated you. (John 15:18) So, we are not in bad company if feeling persecuted for no particular reason. It is because we are indwelt by His Spirit.

There’s nothing wrong with going to structures for fellowship. However, many people are inside buildings and have no relationship to Christ. That is not to say that some people in those buildings have no relationship to Christ.  By the same token, many of the true church, do not run to buildings. Just like Christ and His disciples. They did not waste time, on buildings. They ministered as they went about their daily lives. Christ gave the commission, and made no mention of “making structures.” The problem was with Judas taking in the money, if you recall. Those disciples were to get their needs met by the people along the way. The true church, as they fed the gospel, they were fed, by the Father. Their, ‘daily bread.” There was no room for corruption. And the disciples continued to work at their jobs. Interesting isn’t it? I had a young girl tell me that “the church is a business.” Which clearly showed me her lack of understanding about what the capacity of the church really is.” But this is why our Lord entered into the temple with a whip and turned over the tables.

I had not been so keenly aware in my past. We are to be consecrated for His use. If someone is turned out, of the church. It is not punishment. It is for their own consecration. To preserve their soul. The Lord loves us so much and is willing to do everything possible to bring us back. Not willing that any man should perish. He speaks of His discipline “for our righteousness.”

Many times I had dragged the Lord into acts of unrighteousness without any understanding of the Holy Spirit in my life. To keep the temple holy. It meant nothing to me. I was stubborn and rebellious and thought it was just a bunch of words. The Lord had to train me through much suffering.

His desire is to present to Himself a radiant bride. Spotless and without blemish or wrinkle. So we must see that until this time, we will suffer to that end. So, the bride is on the earth making herself ready. She is presenting herself before the masses with a message of hope. Spreading the Good News. It is a message for all mankind. I’m praying that your bitterness does not enter in and the veil be removed. The Lord wants everyone to enter into His wedding feast.

The Spirit and the Bride say Come Lord Jesus!

The Wedding Feast


Hotel Jerusalem

I recently returned from Israel and what an experience. But not without the aid of the Holy Spirit and what I like to describe as “Holy Spirit journalism.” He just leads me into the middle of the story, which He is uncovering. I see things through His eyes. Of course, at the time, I never know that I’m being sent by the Lord, until I’m right in the middle of the story unfolding. This happens to believers constantly.

When I called a friend of mine a few months ago to thank her for inviting me on a trip last winter, because, as it turned out, I stepped right into the middle of a scheme, involving my own mother, she said, “isn’t it funny how the Lord uses us, and we are oblivious to it all?” I started to laugh.

Well, with this trip, I was contacted by a friend, and he told me he had a ‘land only,’ price available for me. This is what I had been interested in, along with Christians. The added bonus, was that the tour group would be led by Jewish believers. This would be incredible teachings as I would also be able to see some of these biblical pictures. How could I pass this up?

I knew that I may not get another chance like this, and I had prayed that the Lord would confirm, when it was His timing for me to make this trip, in my life. Apparently, this was it. I said, it was the most challenging time of my life, so it must be when the Lord was calling me.

Since I was flying standby, I thought, well, I’m avoiding Passover, so I was safe. Not so fast. I had forgotten, Spring Break. The first day.  I did see my friend and his wife. They were with the group. He took me to another woman who had been bumped because of the storms. Her and I sat together in the gate area. He asked me to keep her company, in case she didn’t get on and I got bumped.

We did get bumped, but we sat in the airport until the next flight. We had a chance to talk for quite a while. It’s when I first began to realize there was a little bit more to this trip than just the tour group.

 “Do you have any of Sister Gwen’s teachings?” All of a sudden, I felt the hair go up on the back of my neck. I have a hard enough time, with people and titles, but, now I started to feel I’d been slam-dunked, by my friend. In that, he never once mentioned, ‘Sister Gwen. “Hmmm, Who is Sister Gwen?” I asked. She began to tell me about the End Time Handmaidens. Now I’m starting to wonder about this whole scene. Ok, I’m also curious, though, and I love a story. So, I start listen, and ask some questions.

We arrive in The Galilee, that evening and Brother Gene, picked us up. Now, I’m not telling anyone, what they should, or should not believe. I’m simply putting this out there. You can decide on your own. I will share my own experience, and my impressions. Gene, was a very warm and charming person. He shared that he had himself decided to move to Israel at one point.

As, I arrived in The Galilee, I was met by a room full of people, and was a bit surprised, by the coldness of the leadership of the group. I thought for a Christian group, and including my friends, I am now, surprised by their distance.Later, I realized, it to be the fact that I was not a good recruit.

I saw the sweetest people on this trip, however, I could also assess, that many seemed to be almost hypnotized by the power of this woman, Sister Gwen. I was asked at one point, by a woman, “Have you done the 21 day fast by Sister Gwen?” “No,” I said. “Oh, after you meet her, you will!” She said, with complete loyalty in her voice. “I have done a 21 day fast in my life,” I told her. “It had nothing to do with Sister Gwen.” I was getting a little irritated with this woman and this brand of what I considered, good old fashioned witchcraft. It just seemed like a brainwashing. Nothing short of Jim Jones and pretty scary.

Now I was getting intrigued and couldn’t wait to see this Sister Gwen. Who was this woman who controlled the masses? She must be something else. What power she exudes over so many. The first day of the tour I had to go to the conference that night to help my friend’s mother. She was helping with the sale of the CD’s. The sweetest woman. But they are correct. These people would wear everyone out and then I was almost falling asleep in my chair.

Then it began. The music began to play and a wild frenzy began as the masses began to adore the woman coming down the aisle in her wheelchair!

Yes, that’s what I said. This Sister Gwen Shaw, is an 80, something year old woman, in a wheelchair, and she came sailing down the aisle. Now, she got behind a table with her walker next to her. She sat behind the table and began to talk. She was very charismatic. I will give her that.

But she was saying some things which did not line up to the written word. They did not sit right in my spirit. First, she plugged too many books and CD’s which did not line up with the word. And at one point, she said, “I don’t like to read things that can’t teach me! But Brother Gene can teach me! I recommend you all buy brother Gene’s book!” That, I thought was extremely proud.

Isn’t the Word of God enough to teach? Then, she would tell people that they did not send around a basket for offerings, but she would put a cloth in front of her and people would come and throw money on the table in front of her. She would say, “Now don’t be cheap with the Holy Spirit!” I thought, “Don’t bring the Lord’s name into this!”

I felt quite sure that they didn’t want me to know too much about what they were doing. At one point the group leader told me to “take off their tag, because someone might know I’m a tourist.” Which made me more than too happy to comply with her request.

At one point I heard the same woman rounding up converts at a table at dinner and discussing ‘the vows.’ She seemed to be very secretive about this. I wondered what made her so positive about my aversion that she never approached me.

I would speak to my friend’s mother as she told me they had homes in the area, called, Engertal. “What is it?” I asked. Is it a town? Is it a real place? “Oh, it’s the valley of the angels,” she said. When I looked up the place, I found it is supposed to be a hotbed for cults.

We went to The House of Peace, their 3 million dollar property in Jerusalem, for the special vows. I realized, “hey this is a real business venture, and Sister Gwen is drawing some big money here.” As I sat in this beautiful home, I took a tour and snapped some pictures. I saw a life-sized portrait of Sister Gwen on the wall. I thought of the fact that this woman allows everyone to bow to her and kiss her and take pictures at her side. Yet, even the angels would not allow Daniel or John, or Paul to fall at their feet. They sternly told them, “No! Your worship is reserved for the Lord, and Him only!”

At one point I asked, who stays at this house? “Oh, people who want to pray. And a couple of the women live here.” I was told.

Then Sister Gwen spoke and everyone was quiet. “Will all the Handmaidens and Servants please stand?” I earnestly looked around to see who all the people were. I was amazed to see how many people were actually part of this group. I mean there were also quite a few pastors on this tour as well. I know that there was only on Lutheran pastor who may have been on the same page as me. He was sitting at a table with me and my friend’s mother one morning, as he said, “It seems to be some kind of secret society.” And he started to laugh. I said, “It certainly does.” And we shared a knowing look. I noticed that he was conspicuously absent from the evening meetings with Sister Gwen.

After everyone sat down, the people who were taking their vows were asked to come forward. These were the same people who had been in the prayer meetings. Many of them were without any control at these meetings. As Paul speaks, these things should be done in Godly order,but it seemed more like mass hysteria.

I was extremely uncomfortable and it takes a lot for me to be uncomfortable. But as I saw the meetings unfold on those evenings, I went for prayer at one point and felt the Lords gentleness and heard him remind me. “The Holy Spirit is a gentleman, and be careful who lays hands on you.” I stepped out of the line and went to sit down. Yes, my friends mom, is just so sweet as she reminded me. “Everything should be done in order. You’re right.”

Now I’m listening to the vows and they are saying, “We will die for you Lord. We will go to prison for you Lord.” On and on. They said, many things that sounded good. But, I thought, a little bit of truth mixed with error is enough to be poison. Then they passes some blue pledge cards to them.

That’s strange. Those blue cards. I didn’t have to do any of that when I surrendered to the Lord. I just did it. I didn’t have to stand in front of all these people and pay for a 3 million dollar property for this woman. I didn’t have to buy her books and CD’s. I didn’t have to live in Engertal.

I went to Yad Vashem, the Holocaust museum, with two couple, on our free day. I wasn’t sure if the one couple were part of this group or not. I asked where they were from. “Oh, outside of Chicago.” Then I asked the man, how did you hear about the group. Thinking, maybe they were just used to keep the costs down, like me. “Oh, my wife is a handmaiden. I just go along for the ride.”

“Later his wife, got me aside. When are you going to take the vows?” “Oh, never. I said. “Why, are you afraid of the fast? Cause Sister Gwen would let you do a shorter one.” “No, I’ve done long fasts. I have a problem with taking vows to organizations.” She said, “You’re not taking a vow to an organization. You heard the vows, they said them to Jesus Christ.” “Oh really?” I said. “Then if I’ve already done that, why would I need to do that again? And what’s with the blue pledge cards, if you’re not pledging to an organization? You know the Lord said, Let your yes be yes and your no be no, and anything in between is a sin. He also said, many would come in my name.” She didn’t say anything else but turned to the new convert and tried to put out the fire I just created. I heard her talking about the guy on the internet that Sister Gwen was blasting since he’s been exposing them as a cult. All I heard was the name, Mark Scheiderer. I made note of it when Sister Gwen mentioned it, since I was also going to look him up. Sister Gwen had gone on in great length about him and had stated that he was from a long line of insanity. That made me laugh. As if this explains his expose in a nutshell. Well, then I guess I also qualify, and I am definitely from a long line of insanity and have papers to prove it! But then again, lets have a look at Sister Gwens family! Who doesn’t?

The last night we were there, I felt a bunch of people moving people around at my table at dinner. Everybody had to be rearranged. There she comes. The queen. She is sitting next to me. As this couple said. It was probably the last-ditch effort to recruit me. I doubt it.

At any rate, the tour was incredible. The sites were amazing. In the evening, is was the story unfolding which was intriguing. I can say the people were as sweet as could be, however, I was sad, to see such parasitic behavior. Some of these people had very little income, and to think they were giving it to such an organization, by manipulation, is disheartening.

It isn’t the first time, but we are to contend for the faith, and that’s what true believers are called to do. Call me insane, Sister Gwen, but this isn’t my first rodeo either. It’s time for you to be exposed.