You Have Disappointed Me


The Lord longs to show you compassion

This is His word to us

“The Lord is full of grace and mercy and He longs to forgive.”

It’s amazing, what a simple message this is, yet so powerful. We are not like Him. He tells us this. And yet I read and hear stories about someone falling from grace, every day.

Yet, this is not true grace. It’s only our human standards, subject to change with each person’s rules. It is not an absolute standard of righteousness. Where does this absolute standard originate, if we are so subjective in our judgments? Yes, this is the question that comes to each of us at some time or another. Moral codes. And why don’t the animals have them as well? Is there a such thing as murder, incest, rape, in the animal world? So, we can already acknowledge that humans have a moral code and it has been placed within us. “For since the creation of the world, His invisible qualities, have been clearly seen, His eternal power, His divine nature-have been clearly seen, being misunderstood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.” (Romans 1:20)

Today the sex scandal and tomorrow, something else. What do we expect? We are fallen beings, living in a corrupt world. We are subject to temptations every day, and what is the source of power to overcome?Or shall I say, Whom? It is not going come from a man-made system of religion. This story shows yet another person, trying to become sanctified by a form of religion and sinning at the same time, while pointing the finger at others. A perfect example of the Lords word to us, “Be careful how you judge, lest you be judged by the same measure, you use.”

Oh, I know, we all have done it. There is always someone, worse than myself. However, God does not look at things the same way, as we do. The sacrifice of our Lord, meant and open curtain between us and the Father, for us all. But in so doing, and this is the rub, we first must acknowledge that we just aren’t as good as we think we are. Yep, that’s the difficult part. How can we acknowledge this, if we are yet looking at someone else and saying, “I’m not as bad as that guy!”

This story in the news, is the same as all I have heard this past year. Sex scandals, drugs, greed. I watched the evening news the other night and the title was, “Who has disappointed us the most in 2009?” The mere title, gives the impression that we, have some courtroom and sit as the judges of all mankind. We know that judges in the courts, are also sinful men, as we have seen in our own government. No one is immune to this ‘sin disease.’

So, who are we to say that “We are disappointed?” I had a pastor state, that if God told us, “Listen, I’m going to pick 20 minutes of your life and show it to the world.” We would be hysterical about this. Wouldn’t we want to choose the portion that denotes all of our ‘good behavior? But if God told us, I will be the one to decide. I’m betting we would have the ACLU standing at the door!

I mean who does this ‘God” think He is? Violating my rights, like this! If He does this, it will show the world that I am just like them and then I will lose my self-appointed right to judge others by my standards!

Yes, this is it, isn’t it? It’s all about rights. I had someone speak to me recently about the rights of a person, and the person, she was speaking of, is in prison.  At some point, even in this world system of laws, we can lose our rights. Or a better explanation is that we choose, to give them up.

But while we decide, who’s rights have been trampled, we need to stop, and look at the cross. A man, who had done no wrong, died because He gave up His rights for us,. And He willingly did this, for the ones who could not be right in any way, shape or form, no matter how hard we tried.

As I read this story in the news bout this “scandalous woman,” I noticed that she  gave money to her church, which her sister pastored. I’m betting, she thought she was ‘buying some grace,’ to elevate herself. For some reason, we still try to assume God is like man. He can be bribed, to turning a blind eye to our deeds. This is mans way of doing things. Empty religion.

The Lord tells us, “They worship me with their lips, but their hearts, are far from me. The hold to a form of religion, but deny my power.”

Of course, this is a picture of everyone, before we reach the true understanding, of how sick all of us really are. This is why Jesus Christ, the great physician, has come. He came for the sick, not the healthy. And my joke has always been, “that if a man thinks he’s healthy…he the sickest of all!”

Every day, I must remind myself, I am sick, in need of the physician. When we lean on Him, and not our own strength, we allow the Lord to take these burdens. He will give us the strength to overcome. The law of sin and death is inherent, in every human being, and therefore, our choice will always be to follow our flesh…that is until we turn to the Lord. We just cannot turn from sin, before we accept Him, to be our master and savior.

When a person falls, and they are ‘shamed,’ I believe that they are closer to the truth, than most. It is this discipline that the Lord speaks about. “He disciplines those that He loves.” He also tells us, “be sure to know that your sin will find you out.” Oh haven’t I experienced that thousands of times in my life?

It isn’t pleasant, and it has caused some, to even jump from the tallest buildings, however, if you listen carefully, this is probably the Lord bringing you to a place of submitting. It is His love allowing this uncovering. What feels like punishment is His perfect love. “Fear has to do with punishment, but perfect love, casts out all fear.” He wants you to know this perfect love.

If you are reading this, yes, He’s speaking to you. You are not so great as you think you are. You think that you are better? Yes, so did I. You think perhaps, because you haven’t ‘killed anyone,’ or ‘raped anyone,’ that you have a loophole? Or perhaps you have raped or killed. Well, God wants all of us. He loves us and He knows that the reason we do terrible things is because we are trying to live without him. He wants all of His children to know Him and once we realize it is His blood that He shed, to allow us in we are forgiven. He tells us that “as far as the east is from the west, I will remember you sin no more.” (Psalm 103:13)

I had an interesting discussion the other day about those words. The Lord did not say, “the North from the South, because one we reach the North Pole we start to go south again, but East is always East and West is always West. It is infinity…and where our sins are cast when repentance comes to us.

But what about you? What is the Lord speaking to you this day? Are you finding yourself, disappointed in world leaders, or the idols of the world? Have they “let you down,” because you had the false hopes that someone achieved a ‘god status?’ Well, stop being disappointed. Only God can be this for you. And He is reaching out to grab you in you quietest moments. When you are alone with no one else, He is speaking to you. The Lord tells us that “No one, can come to me, unless the Father who sent me, draws him, and I will raise him up on the last day.” (John 6:44) “So as the Holy Spirit says, “Today, if you hear His voice, do not harden you hearts.” (Hebrews 3:7,8)

This is your day, the first day, whether great or small, it makes no difference to the Lord, for He is no respecter of men. Turn to Him, and let Him be your rock and your shelter. He will never disappoint you!

Jesus Loves You….And So Do I!

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The Bride of Christ


Always waiting for my beloved

Always waiting for my beloved

I had a dream about 1993 and the Lord had shown me that I was about to endure some tribulations as His bride.

I had been in a fellowship at the time with many strong believers and had learned so much about my calling and my gifts. I also learned about spiritual warfare and the enemy that stalks us strong believers to try to seduce us back into the world. If you would have asked me then I probably would have said, “Oh that’s not going to happen to me. I can certainly recognize the schemes of the enemy and won’t fall into that trap.” I would have never imagined that years later, when the ultimate tribulation began in my life, that I would become blinded to the one that I challenged on so many other occasions. “But don’t you know that Satan himself appears as an angel of light, so that he may deceive many?”

Now I had forgotten all of that. Yet deceived people rarely know they are deceived until the Holy Spirit brings that conviction and warning. The Lord had shown me all too clearly in this particular dream, that I would indeed be deceived and it was to happen not too long before the wedding is about to begin.

When He brought this dream to back to my memory, I had to look at the circumstances of my life and acknowledge that everything had happened according to this dream.

The dream;

I was in a church and I was getting ready for my own wedding. I was wearing what appeared to be a red slip and one shoe. I could not find my gown or my other shoe. I was crying out to my bridesmaids that I needed these parts of my apparel or I would not be ready.

They were scrambling about trying to find my things for me when I ventured out of the church into a beautiful meadow. I was immediately impressed with the serenity of it all and had forgotten the fact that I was even about to enter into matrimony.

I had continued to walk and there sitting on a brick wall was a man. He was holding a guitar and singing in Italian. It was mesmerizing. I looked at him and was longing for more of this seductive music. I sat and listened as he looked at me and sang some more.

Suddenly, I remembered! “Oh, I said, I must leave. I have to get ready for my wedding!” “No! He said. I have more, listen! He started to play and before I could become hypnotized,  once again, I decided to run.

I ran across the field toward the church. As I entered into the sanctuary and the small room, I saw my bridesmaids, holding my gown and my shoes. They hurriedly dressed me and placed my veil upon my head as I heard bells to start the ceremony. I was ready with just minutes to spare.

When I looked at the dream that I had written into my prayer journal, the Lord revealed so many things to me. He reminded me that I had been called and chosen when I was just a young girl. I had accepted His proposal. Yet, I was not finished. I had to consecrate my life and be ready for His return.

I learned about the ancient Jewish wedding customs and it was so beautiful and it also taught me that this is also an incredible picture of what is spoken of in scripture as the Rapture and following wedding feast.

When a man proposed he did it with a special cup of wine. It was a marriage proposal that was sealed as the man and woman drank from the cup. The future groom did not immediately take his bride.(Take drink, this is the covenant in my blood) The disciples were accepting Christ’s proposal of marriage.

He was to go to his father’s house and prepare for his bride. (I go to my Father’s house to prepare a place for you.(John 14)

The bride was to be ready at all times, since the groom would not let her know when he was coming to get her.(All of the virgins did not have their lamps full of oil at the bridegrooms return, therefore were left out of the wedding banquet. Matthew 25)

With a shout and the blow of the shofar, ( a rams horn) the bridegroom will announce his coming to his bride. (he shall send His angels with a loud trumpet call. Matthew 24:31, 1Cor.14:8, 1Th4:16)

At this point the bridegroom collects his bride and they shall go to the wedding feast. They would then go into a secluded chamber to consummate their vows as the fest continued. They would remain hidden for seven days. (Seven days, symbolizes the seven years of tribulation on the earth after the rapture has taken place. (Revelation 19:9) This is known as “The time of Jacob’s troubles.) It is a time of suffering that the earth has never known and it’s main purpose is to bring in the most hardened of unbelievers. It is also the time that every nation shall come against Israel.(Jacob)

After the bride and groom have consummated, they rejoin their party and it is the first time they see the bride, unveiled, in her radiant glory.(And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord’s glory, are being  transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.(Cor.3:18)

The bride revealed in Revelation 21:1,2) “Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, thew new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband.”

What a glorious picture! Who wouldn’t want to be a part of this? If a person thinks anything on this earth is superior, it is only because they lack faith. All of these things shall come to pass.

Now back to my dream. The Lord had interpreted this to me and it doesn’t take too much discernment, after understanding what I have just shown in scripture. I was in a rush to get ready, yet I was still lacking in my wedding garments.Matthew 22:11 The Parable of the Wedding Banquet) (Clothe yourself in Jesus Christ-Romans 13:14)

I thought I was ready, but the Lord revealed that I was not. I still had a longing for the world, by going out of the sanctuary and into the world, right before my own wedding was to begin. I was seduced by the world and had completely forgotten my groom.

As I wandered, I came upon another man that tried to seduce me with his charm. This is a picture of the enemy.

The Holy Spirit reminded me of my vows and the spell was broken. (Greater is He that is in me, than the one that is in the world.)(1John4:4)

At that point, I ran back to the sanctuary to find my bridesmaids, loyally waiting for my return with all my garments prepared for me. (Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance, the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes upon Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith. Hebrews 12:1,2)

I was made ready, spotless and blameless for my wedding. (Ephesians 5:26,27) to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless.

This is difficult to grasp, since we are all in a body of sin, however, all of these things when submitted to the power of Christ, will give us the ability to overcome, so that we can be a bride, “being made ready.” And “when He appears, we shall be like Him.” (1John 3:2,3)

Is it possible? Of course! Christ has told us and we know this to be true.