There’s Only One ‘Soul Love!’

I woke from a dream this morning. It was a dream about my ‘soul love.’ I was so touched by the emotions which I experienced. I have just started to understand so much more about this one, true love.

In my dream the one who had stolen my heart, was coming with his family to my home. I was very nervous, and yet very excited. He was from a different world, than my own. He and his family, were very refined. Of great wealth and status. Yet, I knew, in spite of this, we had something powerful between us. It was like a fairytale. Our first meeting, left me trying to analyze everything about him. Why did he have such a hold on me, which no one else, had ever had? What is it about this man that makes him different? Since the first time, his eyes, met mine, I felt almost disturbed. It was a longing which I just couldn’t explain I secretly prayed that it would, go away

I realized this was not the  normal infatuation. It was something much different. Perhaps today, I thought, I will find he was just a figment of my imagination. A long-lost desire to make the young girls fairytale a reality. But now, I will finally be able to put this to rest.

When they entered my home, I felt rather stressed. Much like royalty, coming to visit. I wondered what kind of impression they might have. I had nothing to impress.

But then, they were so kind and I could see why, this man, seemed untouched by his position. A softness in his heart which was obvious to anyone. His family was like him. Not pretentious in any way. They didn’t seem to take notice of anything material. It wasn’t what I lacked, which they noticed. It was who I was, as a person. They wanted to know this woman, who had seemed to hypnotize this man.

As I felt immediately at ease with all of them, I thought, these people could be anyone. They were so genuine. So kind.

My eyes searched for him. As my gaze moved past the family circle, there he was. Standing in the background. Very quiet. I thought, it has seemed like an eternity, that I’ve waited for this moment. It almost seemed against the odds, that we would ever be reunited. Now, here he was, in my kitchen.

As I looked at him my heart was discerning his character. Amazed at the fact that he was so successful and seemed to have a global presence, yet here he was, hiding in the back of everyone. Almost as if he was shy in my presence. This intrigued me. Could it be that this man, whom I had fallen for, intimidated by me?

Now, I wanted to reveal my heart to him. Yet, I was afraid as well. How could he believe, I wasn’t just as afraid? These are unchartered waters for me. After so much heartbreak, I’m terrified by my own feelings.

Then I looked at his outward appearance. He had aged since our last meeting, but it didn’t matter. So have I. He was as attractive to me as the first day we had met.  I realized that the outward man, was just the flesh, and I had fallen in love with his heart. I looked at him again, and was amazed at my attraction for him. How could I convince him, that ‘he’s the one?’That he alone, held this place.

I thought, this man has had so many experiences, and met so many people, yet, he has no understanding of the power he has over me. I just wanted to prove to him that this feeling of insecurity he had, was something which goes both ways. This thing we have, goes beyond the natural appearance, and this is what makes it so special.

Later, as he was walking down a flight of stairs, he fell down. All the way to the bottom. I screamed and ran to him. He had really injured himself. I held him as I tried to hold his head. I couldn’t bear the thought of his physical pain. It was as if I felt it too.  I held him tightly, caressing his face, as I  thought, I don’t care what happens, I want to care for this man. I love him beyond everything.

I woke from my dream. I was thinking about all of this and then I remembered my trip to Israel, last year. On the flight, I sat next to a very kind man. He told me about the movies, which were playing. I really didn’t think I would watch anything. I was so tired. But he almost insisted. It was almost as if to say, “I want you to watch this. There is a message for you.”

I believe that God sends people to us to speak all the time. We must have spiritual ears to hear. The movie, which he told me to watch was, The King’s Speech.

I was so moved by this movie.  The King, was so shy. With such a tender heart. Such a sweet spirit. Kind and compassionate. This is the most endearing quality. It was amazing that his humility was so obvious that he had an aversion to the limelight. He was literally, tongue-tied, when he had to speak.

I wondered at this. The man in my dream seemed to be very much like, ‘the king’ It is the most endearing attribute. This is what made me connect with him. Something which can be described, but never explained.

As I read a quote from a friend this morning, it was one more reminder that, “someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.” That sure seems to say it all.

I’m a firm believer that God has someone specifically designed for a person. And we can either try to make something work, or allow Him to be the ultimate matchmaker. Just as He created Eve for Adam. No one knows our heart, more than the one who created it.

So this dream, seemed a reminder, and an encouragement to me.

The Most Divine Romance

I know I gave you a promise. Long before we met, I gave myself to you. I made a vow to wait for you. How would I know, that it would take so long? I was young and full of excitement. And then I ruined it. The pressures of the world, and the desire to have someone, drove me to break my promise to you. I had messed everything up. Please forgive me, but I was looking at the natural things, and lacked the spiritual maturity to understand. Driven by my emotions and a foolish heart, I had almost given up all hope, and then you made your entrance. And you had no fanfare. No majesty to attract attention. In fact, it was this very quality which made me notice you. A man of such prominence, with no desire for recognition.

In every other aspect of our lives we are different. But in matters of the heart, we are the same. And this is how I recognized you. This is how I knew you.

To just stand near you was enough for me. It was two pieces of a puzzle coming together. A spiritual tie, which cannot be severed. God and universe joined forces to join our hearts. And I know that what God joins, no man can separate.

Yes, “the things I wanted, you had bought for me.” But it isn’t ‘things,’ that I want. And although I may seem, “graceless,” I’m not completely without grace. My compassion for the hurting, and the pain I feel for the suffering of others,  runs deep. You have given me the example to follow. The grace and humility which I strive for.

And yes, “I do know who you are.” I always have. Before time, I made my promise to you. And when you came, you knew who I was as well. You staked your claim. When I felt I was falling, you came and rescued me. You caught my feet from slipping, because of your unconditional love. You know everything about me, and yet, you love me. Many times I wonder, How is this possible?You alone, captured my heart and covered me. You are my Boaz, and I am your, Ruth.

And you promised never, to leave me, nor forsake me. I know you’re there. You always send your messages to me. Words of such love and devotion. I have the same feelings of love and devotion for you.

And this is the most incredible love, to ever exist. It’s not natural, its supernatural. Although, I had been hurt, I know, it is my Lord’s way of purifying me. Burning out the things which, hindered my relationship   with you.

You did watch me suffer. But, you also knew it was part of the plan. I never tried to “show you the same.” I just withdrew because I thought, you abandoned me. But then, I remembered the words, spoken to me, so many times, and it is these words, I found the true meaning of this experience.

saiah 54:4-10

King James Version (KJV)


4Fear not; for thou shalt not be ashamed: neither be thou confounded; for thou shalt not be put to shame: for thou shalt forget the shame of thy youth, and shalt not remember the reproach of thy widowhood any more.

5For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.

6For the LORD hath called thee as a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit, and a wife of youth, when thou wast refused, saith thy God.

7For a small moment have I forsaken thee; but with great mercies will I gather thee.

8In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment; but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the LORD thy Redeemer.

So, now I wait. I know it is a test of patience, but I can hold on. Because I know that you are worth waiting for. I won’t defile this love, by allowing anyone to deceive my heart. I belong to you and you only.