There’s Only One ‘Soul Love!’


I woke from a dream this morning. It was a dream about my ‘soul love.’ I was so touched by the emotions which I experienced. I have just started to understand so much more about this one, true love.

In my dream the one who had stolen my heart, was coming with his family to my home. I was very nervous, and yet very excited. He was from a different world, than my own. He and his family, were very refined. Of great wealth and status. Yet, I knew, in spite of this, we had something powerful between us. It was like a fairytale. Our first meeting, left me trying to analyze everything about him. Why did he have such a hold on me, which no one else, had ever had? What is it about this man that makes him different? Since the first time, his eyes, met mine, I felt almost disturbed. It was a longing which I just couldn’t explain I secretly prayed that it would, go away

I realized this was not the  normal infatuation. It was something much different. Perhaps today, I thought, I will find he was just a figment of my imagination. A long-lost desire to make the young girls fairytale a reality. But now, I will finally be able to put this to rest.

When they entered my home, I felt rather stressed. Much like royalty, coming to visit. I wondered what kind of impression they might have. I had nothing to impress.

But then, they were so kind and I could see why, this man, seemed untouched by his position. A softness in his heart which was obvious to anyone. His family was like him. Not pretentious in any way. They didn’t seem to take notice of anything material. It wasn’t what I lacked, which they noticed. It was who I was, as a person. They wanted to know this woman, who had seemed to hypnotize this man.

As I felt immediately at ease with all of them, I thought, these people could be anyone. They were so genuine. So kind.

My eyes searched for him. As my gaze moved past the family circle, there he was. Standing in the background. Very quiet. I thought, it has seemed like an eternity, that I’ve waited for this moment. It almost seemed against the odds, that we would ever be reunited. Now, here he was, in my kitchen.

As I looked at him my heart was discerning his character. Amazed at the fact that he was so successful and seemed to have a global presence, yet here he was, hiding in the back of everyone. Almost as if he was shy in my presence. This intrigued me. Could it be that this man, whom I had fallen for, intimidated by me?

Now, I wanted to reveal my heart to him. Yet, I was afraid as well. How could he believe, I wasn’t just as afraid? These are unchartered waters for me. After so much heartbreak, I’m terrified by my own feelings.

Then I looked at his outward appearance. He had aged since our last meeting, but it didn’t matter. So have I. He was as attractive to me as the first day we had met.  I realized that the outward man, was just the flesh, and I had fallen in love with his heart. I looked at him again, and was amazed at my attraction for him. How could I convince him, that ‘he’s the one?’That he alone, held this place.

I thought, this man has had so many experiences, and met so many people, yet, he has no understanding of the power he has over me. I just wanted to prove to him that this feeling of insecurity he had, was something which goes both ways. This thing we have, goes beyond the natural appearance, and this is what makes it so special.

Later, as he was walking down a flight of stairs, he fell down. All the way to the bottom. I screamed and ran to him. He had really injured himself. I held him as I tried to hold his head. I couldn’t bear the thought of his physical pain. It was as if I felt it too.  I held him tightly, caressing his face, as I  thought, I don’t care what happens, I want to care for this man. I love him beyond everything.

I woke from my dream. I was thinking about all of this and then I remembered my trip to Israel, last year. On the flight, I sat next to a very kind man. He told me about the movies, which were playing. I really didn’t think I would watch anything. I was so tired. But he almost insisted. It was almost as if to say, “I want you to watch this. There is a message for you.”

I believe that God sends people to us to speak all the time. We must have spiritual ears to hear. The movie, which he told me to watch was, The King’s Speech.

I was so moved by this movie.  The King, was so shy. With such a tender heart. Such a sweet spirit. Kind and compassionate. This is the most endearing quality. It was amazing that his humility was so obvious that he had an aversion to the limelight. He was literally, tongue-tied, when he had to speak.

I wondered at this. The man in my dream seemed to be very much like, ‘the king’ It is the most endearing attribute. This is what made me connect with him. Something which can be described, but never explained.

As I read a quote from a friend this morning, it was one more reminder that, “someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.” That sure seems to say it all.

I’m a firm believer that God has someone specifically designed for a person. And we can either try to make something work, or allow Him to be the ultimate matchmaker. Just as He created Eve for Adam. No one knows our heart, more than the one who created it.

So this dream, seemed a reminder, and an encouragement to me.

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  1. manonmona
    Mar 15, 2012 @ 03:36:11

    Reblogged this on Espacio de MANON.

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