I’m Holding On

Don’t Be Afraid

I was in Kennedy all day today, waiting until my checkin for my trip.

Then the news break; Fighter planes, flanking a commercial aircraft to JFK.
I have to say that my anxiety soared. I felt a panic in my body, trying to take hold. The throat beginning to close, and my breathing quickened.
I felt the tears coming, so I abruptly left the table of flight attendants that I was, only minutes before, laughing and joking with.
I went into the bathroom, where I began my breathing exercises. Almost the same thing which I learned in my birthing classes, when I was pregnant.
I found that after having a severe panic attack, a couple of years ago, this exercise seemed to work.
Almost by accident, I discovered, if I slowed my breathing and concentrated on this, I would not experience a full panic.
I called my daughter and asked her to pray for me. She immediately did this while I was on the phone with her.
The Lord reminded me, that He has been here in each fearful circumstance, and He will never abandon me.
I remembered a song, which I used to play for my daughter when she was little. “When I am afraid, I will trust in Him.” I began to sing this in my spirit and felt a calm, begin to wash over me.
Yes, the fear is still in me, yet the Lord reminded me that He holds me. He has sent the Holy Spirit, “the comforter,” to give me peace.
As long as I have Him, I know that I can overcome.
I have been through terror and depression in the past few years, but it has drawn me so much closer to the Lord, as I have come to realize that my trust should be in Him, not man. Of this point I am sure, “He is my refuge and my strength. Of whom shall I be afraid?”

4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Carol Ann Hoel
    Oct 30, 2010 @ 18:53:30

    I am listening to the news this evening. Wow! A lot of scary stuff going on today. I will keep you in my prayers. Blessings to you…


  2. Carol Ann Hoel
    Oct 30, 2010 @ 08:39:17

    Very scary. I am sure I would have been suffering from panic, too. Praise to God always. I couldn’t get through an ordinary day without fear if it were not for Jesus, let alone a scare like that. God is good. Thank you for sharing…


    • flygurlual
      Oct 30, 2010 @ 11:26:03

      Yes, Carol, I have come to accept the fact that this fear is part of the constant ‘warfare,’ which the Lord told us we would experience. But Paul also reminded us of this and how to defeat the enemy by “putting on the whole armor of Gd.”
      I believe this is how the Lord sharpens us in our spiritual training.


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