Lord Break Me and Pour Me Out!


Every time I suffer a word comes to me. A word from the Holy Spirit. “Your suffering is a sweet fragrance to the Lord. This is your offering.”

I know I must have been an offering from birth, for my suffering has been great. I don’t even share all my experiences with people, because it seems exaggerated. Even in my own mind I wonder, “How could I have possibly experienced all of this pain? Shouldn’t I have checked out a long time ago? Surely people, even my own father, had far less, and they took the last train out.

I ask, “How much Lord? When will  all of this end?  The words that bring comfort are, “My grace is sufficient for you, my child. And my strength is made perfect in your weakness.”

Yes, that is the plan isn’t it? His strength. His power. And in the end, His Glory. This is where I will see the meaning of all the suffering. The altar is His and the hands that tied me, are His scarred palms. Didn’t He tell us that we would suffer as He suffered? In this we share the common bond. The love that died for us. This  is what keeps me going through another round.

Then break me Lord. Pour me out as a drink offering. The Water of Life, that people will thirst at your presence in me. At the end of my life I want to say that I did not turn away from my suffering. But I made myself a willing sacrifice as you had for me. I allowed you to break me and shape me in the image of you.

I will run to your arms when I need comfort. You alone can keep me from falling and you alone love me unconditionally. It’s you. The one who loves me forever, and it’s you, “who will never leave me nor forsake me, even until the end of time.”

Yes, for you, I hold on. So, I will cry my tears and sob into the night, but in the final hour, I will know…I did  not shrink back. I ran the race. I did it all for you.

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Carol Ann Hoel
    Jul 31, 2010 @ 20:57:24

    Yes, you will be blessed to have entered into His suffering. Thank you for sharing.

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