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So many people are crying out in anger and hurt, at what’s been done to our environment and this is just the latest catastrophe caused by man. Yes, the Lord spoke of all of these things, and this not being of His hands, but our own. However, it all links back to the ‘corruptible.’ In man’s heart and in the whole earth. Remember He told us that things would go from bad to worse, and man, being corrupted with greed and malice, would not be able to end this curse. 

Jesus Christ came to redeem the whole earth. That’s right, all of creation.He tells us in Romans 8:19, “The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God. We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. 

As I have reminded those who have never understood childbirth, the pains become more intense with labor, and the groaning becomes just as intense as a woman suffers each contraction. The baby does not go back into the womb and the labor subside. No, a beautiful creation is brought forth after the suffering and the mother’s joy is complete. All the pain of labor is forgotten. 

For those who have spiritual eyes, the oil spill, and mans latest attempts at fixing what they have destroyed, are in vain. What happens to the wildlife and the persons livelihoods dependent on this body of water, is part of creation’s groaning. At each attempt we see people groaning in fear and remorse. 

These men should be seeking counsel from the Lord, the one who created heaven and earth. As I have said many times, all wisdom comes from Him. The first error, was the massive coverup, as usual. Adam, once again, running from his own deeds and believing our heavenly Father could not see. The one who had created mans eyes, cannot see? The one who had created his ears and heart, cannot hear or understand that it was by his own evil inclinations, we have this disaster? Now they go about trying to solve the problems, void of HIM. 

This is the reason our whole world is in turmoil. Now my only prayer is that something more catastrophic doesn’t happen. I remember the oil fields under Saddam Hussein’s direction, and the fires that ensued. Horribly evil was this man’s heart. inherently evil and murderous, yet mans greed and this deception is all the same in God’s eyes. 

As I read Revelation 18, I am reminded of the smoke and fire and the destruction of Babylon. Merchants and civilians alike, sobbing in the loss of this ‘great city.’  Crying out, “Woe! Woe! O great city, O Babylon, city of power! In one hour your doom has come!” 

Yet, no one to this day, has any idea, where the United States, places in prophetic accounts, as it doesn’t seem to be mentioned. I’ve always wondered at this. What city(or nation)could this be? I’m praying it is not our own, but the scene is being staged for greater catastrophe. The way out, is to turn to the Lord. 

To look at the two most powerful nations, Britain and the United States, we can see how blessed they have been, yet how the Lord speaks of the dispersion of the ten lost tribes, the inherent blessings they received, and judgement for the lack of gratefulness to His obvious blessings. As I’ve  pointed out many times, all prophecy has its beginnings and endings with the nation of Israel  and the manner in which she is treated. 

I would suggest to you that it would be prudent to understand, who you may be first.Watching the migration of the ten tribes and the promises attached to Israel, would indicate its importance to your own life. How would one know if they have descended from one of these tribes? This should put an end to any animosity you may have toward Israel. 

Next it would be imperative that you understand, all the blessings and curses involved with the treatment of God’s chosen people. He didn’t make this conditional. God Himself grew weary with her unfaithfulness and laid a heavy judgment upon her. Yet, you may indeed be part of this dispersion. Now as you read the judgment toward the nations who exhibit hatred for Israel and her people, this would imply we are headed toward, perilous events. A nation who had always embraced this nation is slowly turning, and in this you will also see the Lord turning, against those who cast her aside. 

The poem written by Rudyard Kipling speaks of this. It is extremely prophetic and it is worth contemplating in these days. Lest we forget, the biblical account of all who turned a cold heart toward the Lord and His people. 

It is going to play out as the Lord has ordained, however, you have the personal choice. To be blessed or cursed. The Lord said, “This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live and that you may love the Lord your God, listen to His voice, and hold fast to Him!” 

Every time I’ve read this scripture, I have thought of a loving Father, playing the game, ‘guess the correct hand.’ Which, when chosen correctly, holds a special treasure for His child. The difference in this word, is that this isn’t a game, and our loving Father even tells us which hand to choose! He tells us what incredible blessings are in store for us when we choose correctly, and yet some people still choose, death. It is extremely sad when the instructions are clear and concise, that some will turn away. 

Our Father has made it simple to understand, lest we claim ignorance. He’s told us that “my laws have been written upon mans hearts, so the we are without excuse.” 

So knowing this, “Choose this day, whom you shall serve, as for me and my house, we shall serve the Lord.” (Joshua 24:15)

Father…your daughter is weeping

The bride is distraught

I was watching the news about our Florida weather system and I was at once saddened by the voice of the Lord. “There is a storm coming.” I knew He meant a massive storm. Yes,this will be unlike the others. Impending doom.

I am reminded of the prophetic dream I had last month. I was looking at flooded streets when an angel appeared to speak a word of guidance. In the natural many things have happened to bring this the Father’s displeasure.

The final act of treachery against His bride and the Father is very upset. She has been hurt so much by the world and in her pain she has cried out to her Father to send Him. She waits and waits and has been torn apart by wolves, yet when she hears her Father speak about judgment, she weeps. She says a silent prayer of intercession and now she finally understands the reason for all her pain and sorrow. He also reminds her that the true groom, the Lord Himself, is the perfect groom. “A wife submits to her husband, but the husband, lays down His life for His wife,the way Christ did for the church.” The bride has not experienced this in her earthly covenant and it has brought inexplicable pain.

“Now,” the Father reminds her, “You have the heart of my son. Didn’t I tell you that when you see Him, you will be like Him? Knowing all, as you are fully known. My son was a man full of sorrow. He suffered all things, so that He could understand the plight of mankind and my love toward them. Now you have this heart.”

Yes, even to those who have brought the Bride tremendous pain, she cries out for mercy. She begs her Father to hold back His hand. When He asks her, “what would you have me do?” She remembers the end is not the answer. “I would have you forgive them Father. They don’t understand what they are doing. They are in the grip of sin and in danger of perishing. Please help them.”

This is when He reminds her that, all of the world is in this bondage to sin, and His judgment is not to bring harm as much as it is to turn men away. The bride waits patiently for His return, yet she is full of the Spirit and can never stop trying to help those who are suffering, including the ones who have raised their hands against her. It is the compassion of Christ that strengthens her and lifts her up. Again and again,  as she is wounded, she rises again, for she knows that in the end “He will give her beauty for ashes.””

The hurricane and tidal wave that have come into her life are only the precursor to her Father’s own hand. She is the apple of His eye and “when the enemy comes in like a flood, He shall raise a standard against Him.”

Now it is time for all who love Him to “rend their hearts.” The Father is waiting and the groom is standing beside the Father, anxiously waiting to return for His bride.

Her Value is Far Above Rubies

A wife of noble character

It has taken me a while to analyze and study this portion of Proverbs 31. This is the epilogue for the ‘Wife of Noble Character.” And although all of these characteristics may be difficult to be fulfilled in one wife/mother, it is the essence of a “Godly woman,” versus a worldly woman.

What sets a Proverbs woman apart from the rest of the world? We can look at all the beautiful women and always find ourselves lacking. Dealing with the pornography industry, which is the leader in the market, should tell us which sins are the major stronghold for most men. So understanding this should make us ask ourselves, what makes me different?

In verse 30, it explains the difference. We are women of the kingdom, and we start to have a different attitude about ourselves and the world around us. The verse says it all; “Charm is deceptive, beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.”

Now look at that verse and look at the people whom you have had admiration for. Is it because of their beauty? Is this something they have mastered as a skill? Isn’t the outward appearance, totally left to the Lord? Haven’t you met some person who had no outward beauty, yet you were drawn to them? And conversely, some outwardly striking people, have had such a terrible disposition, that you just couldn’t stand to look at them, ruining the vessel which God had given them.

Look at the description of our Lord, “He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to Him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire Him. (Isaiah 53:2) Yes, He was not placed in a vessel of a gorgeous man, nor in a royal family, yet people were drawn to Him, because He was filled with the Spirit of God. We are like Him, when we are filled with His spirit.

It is very liberating to realize this and surrender to His will. No more competing with the world. You have people who are drawn to you for the Holy Spirit, living in you, not your appearance. Oh, believe me, I had fallen into the trap. I know, being focused on the natural is all-consuming and it is impossible to please. The Lord has shown me this through an intense purging in my life. Now I am asking the Lord to remove what is not of Him. I do not long for the things of this world, which are temporal. The accolades which men are so proud of, are not something I aspire to. I am His servant, and very proud to call myself by this title.

I had recently looked at a profile which my brother created for me on some website, and even that spoke of exaggeration and arrogance. It’s not that he wasn’t trying to help, but he is of a different mind. He is still focused on the business world, and not an inkling of God’s hand in his life. Everything he does, he has attributed to himself, and one day my prayer is that he will understand, it is the Lord who has made him the person he is. He is ‘the potter,’ we are ‘the clay.’ That is not to say, he hasn’t worked hard, he has. But there are many hard-working people in this world who have not achieved the leve of success which my own brother has achieved, and that is because the Lord has poured His grace on him.

I was sharing an experience with a couple of women the other day, and it was about Dr. office I had gone to when I had fallen down. They were laughing so hard, since the whole experience is hilarious. It seemed it was a cover for a pain clinic, and I pursued the adventure to the very end. Of course, it didn’t take me long to realize, the Lord was sending me on a personal mission. He had healed me right before the end, thereby avoiding any need for medication, which would have defeat the purpose, with this doctor.

As I finished the story, the girl asked, “Why would you go to this place to have the MRI? I would have been terrified.” I shared that I have a passion for writing, and I felt I needed to investigate the whole thing.  I would call this more of a spiritual adventure, and the Lord does the ‘uncovering.’ I knew that the Lord was the one sending me, so why should I fear? As they said, “you should have reported him.” I said, “No, that wasn’t my job. Besides, a few days later I saw a rash of investigations on these “pill mills,” all over the city. So I knew the Lord wanted me to speak to this man directly and give him a chance. I don’t question God’s methods, and he tells us, “I do not delight in those who shrink back.”

Well, I had gone through so much in the last couple of years, and I had been ‘shrinking back,’ from my mission and my calling. Now the Lord was reminding me, I am this woman. Set apart from the world, and the light in me is not to bring punishment, but to turn mens hearts back to Him.

 When we are sent by Him, we have His supernatural protection. Which I did. It is an amazing story and the Lord enabled me to speak to the doctor about what he was doing and a young boy who was working at this place. The boy was only 19, and I was sad to see him dispensing pills like candy to people as they came in the door. He was drawn to me from the first day I came in. This is where I could see the Spirit drawing him. We do not always know who we are being sent to. It says that the Holy Spirit woos people, whom the Father is drawing. It is much like a romantic interlude.

This is what I mean when I tell you that people will be drawn or repulsed by the Spirit. The Lord tells us that some would “hate us because of Him.” However, it also says, “But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere a fragrance of the knowledge of Him. For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. To the one we are the smell of death; to the other, the fragrance of life.(2 Cor.14-16)

All my life I have wondered in amazement as I watched people seem to hide from me. It only made me more curious. I never understood why this was happening and they would point to the very truth, that they were trying to hide. It is almost comical.  But finally the Lord reminded me of the resurrection power which I carry within me. “The ‘belt of truth,’ buckled firmly around my waist. It is the light which dispels darkness. And it is what I am supposed to be shining to those in darkness to find their way out. Not as a means of condemnation. “For God did not send His son into this world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him.”(John 3:17) His mere presence, drew people or made them run in fear. Although, it is the power of His perfect love, which ‘casts out all fear.

This is what He has given us in the vessels, which makes us so powerful. And the woman who has this is the greatest of all. As the Proverb says, v29, “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.”(v31) “Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gates.”

As I have recognized my true identity, I realized that I don’t care for the praises of men. Yes, I had been unfairly treated many times. Cheated all my life, yet that never bothered me.As long as I was doing the work of the Lord, I didn’t care. It wasn’t until I allowed the hurts toc creep in and my soul was unguarded, that the enemy’s arrows were able to injure me. Yes, the enemy knows all your deepest wounds, and if he can, this is what he wants to touch. We cannot allow this pain to keep us from our calling. This is the ultimate warfare and we press on until we overcome. We hold onto nothing, so that when he comes again, we can say like Christ, “The prince of this world has come and he has nothing in me.”

But it isn’t until I truly understood the meaning of this, that I can see how different we are. I understand the purpose of the intense warfare, as I shared with my friend. The ultimate goal is for us to be “conformed to His image.” He didn’t look at His own royal blood and hold onto anything. He became the servant to all men.

Now who can put a value on this?

Behold-The Remnant!

The Remnant

I was with a girl the other day and the Lord arranged a divine appointment as He always seems to do this. She was sharing some things in her life as I was and we had many hurts in common. I had told her that my faith sustained me and we continued to talk. As she shared her experience of religion, I realized, as I’m sure she did, it was an emotional,ritualistic experience. Nothing like the intimate relationship I had spoken of with the Lord.

I expressed to her that He had made a way for all people to come to Him in an intimate way, without ritual or any mediators. We are to look at Him as our Father now and He even tells us that we are children by adoption, allowing us to call Him, “Abba,” which is very intimate. It is as if we are climbing into His lap and crying “Daddy!” This is what Christ had accomplished for us on the cross, when the curtain had been torn. I reminded her that before that time, only a High Priest of Royal Order, was allowed into the Most Holy of Holies, to make sacrifice for the people of Israel. After Christ made sacrifice for us, He became our High Priest.
As we prayed, she cried and told me she never understood this before.
Well, I told her that religion, in many ways, keeps us focused on the wrong things and we miss, what Christ had really done for us. We go back to trying to work things out on our own.
I didn’t see her for a day and on the way back, she was telling me how excited she was after having prayed and wanting to start in a Bible Study. I told her when you have the Holy Spirit as your guide, you can read the bible with understanding, since He is the author. It is important for you to be in a study, rather than just involved in a church experience, which is nothing but ritual. God wants us to draw close to Him and to know Him, and this is how we do it.
Then she looked at a necklace which I was wearing and she said she liked it. It is a Star of David, with a cross in the middle of it. She said, “But the Jesus, will never go back to Israel again.” I dropped my jaw in disbelief. For someone who seemed to know very little about scripture, this remark was so Antisemitic, and out of left field. I said, “Did you know that Jesus was a Jew?” “Yes, but they killed him. And that’s the reason He said, Father forgive them, they don’t know what they’re doing.”
“Ok, listen,” I told her.”This is why it is very important for you to be in a study of the scriptures. You keep telling me this is “what you heard,’ but it is in total contradiction to God’s word.
God has a covenant with Israel and we are all inheritors of that same covenant as believers. Jesus Christ asked the Father to forgive all of us,that day. Every sinner, put Him on that cross. His prayer was as a High Priest, praying the prayer of forgiveness for all of mankind! I had to remind her that there were Roman’s and Jews alike that all took part in the sacrifice. A picture of Jew and Gentile. As I pointed out in scriptures before, “Roman soldiers cast lots for His clothing.” Everyone was implicated on that day. And God sent Him as a sacrifice. He was to make atonement for us. He said, “I lay my life down willingly, only to take it up again.”
But she said, “The Jews don’t believe and He will never go back to Israel again.“And do you know, that all the nations shall rise against Israel, and Christ Himself shall return and set His foot on the Mount of Olives, to put an end to the oppression? The Mount of Olives is in Israel. And God has said, that “I will bless those who bless Israel and curse those who curse her.”
“Oh, I didn’t hear that,” she said. “No, this is why you need to know what God says. He loves Israel, even though they have been stubborn and rebellious. Just like all of us. But in scripture you can see that the very first believers were Jews. There was always a remnant. And I told her I have many friends who are Jewish believers.
We do not cut off Israel. She is the Apple of God’s Eye. His love for her is great and His plan is to restore her even though she was unfaithful.
I remember looking at my bible once and being fascinated with the remnant.
In Romans 11, Paul speaks of the remnant. In verse two Elijah appealed to God against Israel. You see that? The prophet to the nation of Israel, appealing to God, against His own people! He was so angry, He told the Lord, “Lord, they have killed your prophets and torn down your altars; I am the only one left, and they are trying to kill me.
This is what God said, “I have reserved for myself seven thousand who have not bowed the knee to Baal. (v4)
So too, at the present time there is a remnant chosen by grace.
(v7)What then? What Israel sought so earnestly it did not obtain, but the elect did.
And this is the important part to remember, God allowed them to stumble and be blind. It says He gave them a “spirit of stupor.” (v8-10)
Why would He do something like this? How could a loving God darken the eyes of the very people He came for? Remember Jesus said, “I came first to the nation of Israel.”
This is why; Israels rejection of Christ resulted in salvation for the whole world. He became a “light to the gentiles.” And this is why it is so important that we understand what a great gift this has been and how much He loves Israel and plans for their return.
In verse 11, Paul repeats his question  to seal the understanding to his listeners. Just as I feel I must when speaking to those who want to make this a message of division or veiled antisemitism. That is demonically inspired and we know that anything surrounding Israel, Satan has hated from the beginning and will until the end.
“Again I ask; Did they stumble so as to fall beyond recovery? Not at all! Rather, because of the their transgression, salvation has come to the Gentiles to make Israel envious.
Paul tells us “not to be arrogant. If the natural olive branch had been cut off, to allow the wild to be ingrafted, how much more shall the natural be grafted in to their own olive tree?” (v18-24)
People run around with all kinds of wild beliefs and ideas, but if you really want to know God’s heart, then you must know Him in His word.
He also speaks of the Suffering Servant, and many over the years want to argue this point. Those who don’t believe in Jesus as messiah, want to believe it is Israel. I contend, that when any one of us is grafted into this vine, we are His and are called by His name.
All of the true servants of the Lord, are also suffering servants and are part of this remnant. We have His name and all of the promises of Israel apply.
When He speaks to me, He reminds me of this. “Israel, my splendor.” It is not a land, but a people chosen by grace to do the work of His hands and reveal His light to this dark world.

The Spirit Is Speaking About Preparing The Bride

Always waiting for my beloved

My friend and I have been communicating for weeks about the same subject. The wise and foolish virgins, spoken about in scriptures before the return of Christ. The Lord tells us that the Holy Spirit, when speaking a message, will continue to confirm His word by two or three witnesses.

Well, she heard the parable in Matthew 25, of the 10 virgins. At this time we can see that 5 of the virgins had their lamps full of oil and were waiting for their bridegroom, while 5, were foolish, and did not take any oil with them. It states that “at midnight the cry rang out; “Here’s the bridegroom! Come out to meet him!”

Well of course we can see from the story the, virgins had fallen asleep and the foolish virgins had no oil with which to light their lamps. They were left out of the wedding banquet.

Now, I told my friend that I had heard the same message from a word of prophecy and then later on a program. It just kept coming. Then the Lord had reminded me of a dream I had many years ago. About 20 years ago and it fit right into this parable.

I had been in a small church bridal chamber. I was with my bridesmaids and I was wearing a red slip.  I had only one shoe and couldn’t find the other one. This was totally inappropriate and they were trying to prepare me for my wedding. I said, “Wait!” It’s as if I still had something to do. I ran out of the chamber across a beautiful open prairie with flowing tall grass and flowers. As if I was oblivious to the fact that I was about to be married.

All of a sudden I heard the most beautiful music and looked up. There, perched on a stone wall, was a very attractive man, playing a guitar. He seemed to be dark-skinned and perhaps Italian or similar. Very soothing and charismatic in his manner. I was drawn to him almost hypnotized. As he looked at me, he asked, “Would you like to hear more?” All of a sudden, I remembered my wedding. “Oh no!” I said, I can’t, I must get ready for my wedding!” “Wait, I have more! He said. No! I must Go!” I broke away and began to run back to the chapel. I came through the door into the bridal chambers with my bridesmaids waiting with everything in hand, just in time with minutes to spare.

As I woke I detailed everything in my dream and I understood this to mean that I would be distracted from my impending wedding to the bridegroom, Jesus Christ, if I were not careful. However, at the time, I did not see this as a problem, since I was very strong in my walk.

This dream seemed to indicate a very close proximity to His return, by the look of this wedding and the timing of my fall. This is what is scary to me. At that time I thought, there is no way with my love and devotion to Christ, and my passion for evangelism, that this could ever happen. Hmmm, as the Word says, “be careful how you stand, lest you fall.” Well, it would certainly seem, life and it’s troubles and the enemy’s craftiness can turn you away from your pure devotion, if you’re not careful.

When I had an encounter with the man on the wall, it could only mean one thing, and that is the enemy. He “masquerades as an angel of light.” In all his beauty and cunning charm. Deceptive as he may be, he is hypnotic, however, he cannot snatch away the ones, whom the Lord has called as His own. And he is certainly not more powerful than the Holy Spirit. His spell had been broken and the Lord protected me in very many ways.

I had His supernatural protection all around me, because there was a time, that I was walking in a dark place and I was one of the foolish virgins. And what He had done was just the dress rehearsal. The warning call, for me. Yes, that’s right. He disciplines those He loves. He tells us to get out of the world and go back to the bridal chamber where we belong! To get ready, for the day of reckoning is coming.

He shows us signs, if we have our spiritual radar. He did this for me. I listened to Him. I watched the signs. He spoke to me and even told me “he was getting married.” I knew what that meant. Although these words were spoken through a man, to me this meant, I had better stop playing around and do what I’m supposed to be doing. Being sanctified, the bride, without spot, wrinkle or blemish.

I had no business making a covenant with the Lord and committing adultery with the world and this was the meaning of the dream. Now He was sending a message from above. “It’s time to fill your lamp and stay wise. Just because it’s taking me a long time, does not mean that I am not coming for you.”

Yes, I have been doing just this. Filling and staying filled. I am reminding him, that I will never be empty again. My love for him is true and nothing nor anyone else will ever replace this love. It is pure and eternal.

He will not open the door to me and say, “I don’t know you!” But when He looks at me, it will be with the longing eyes of a groom toward His bride; The Apple of His Eye!

Many are called few are chosen!

“Dear Woman, Here Is Your Son.”

Greater Love Has No Man

Such a perfect Mother’s Day message tucked within the passages of scripture. I was reading one day many years ago, and it struck me as odd. Nothing is written into God’s word without meaning. Not one word. So I read and I had particular interest since I had stepchildren and had been in an extended family myself.  

I had a father who had married a woman who had extreme contempt for his children, however, I had no such feelings toward my stepchildren. I made sure they knew this, and I had such compassion because of the way I had been treated by my father’s wife. I didn’t even feel comfortable referring to her as a stepmother and she didn’t want us to. When we did something kind for her, she returned it with evil. My father was aware of it and he tried to ignore it. He was controlled by her and it was sad.  

Now every Mother’s Day my own son manages to finagle his own day because he reminds me that it is also “Son-Day.” Ever since he coined that phrase, he’s used it against me, and I wonder why he gets a free pass once a week, since I gave birth to him, and yet, I only get a day off, once a year! lol So each year, we throw the barbs back and forth on this day and I told him about this teaching I had found. I remembered it was when my stepson was about my sons age when I first noticed it. 

When I looked at this portion of scripture, I showed my youngest stepson and we were both amazed. He had been recently born again and pretty zealous for the Lord. “Hey,” I said, “I really never noticed this before.”  

John 19:23 “When the soldiers crucified Jesus, they took His clothes, dividing them into four shares, one for each of them, with the undergarment remaining. This garment was seamless, woven in one piece from top to bottom.(Like the temple curtain) “Let’s not tear it,” they said to one another. “Let’s decide by lot who will get it.”  

This happened that the scripture might be fulfilled which said, “They divided my garments among them and cast lots for my clothing.”  

So this is what the soldiers did. Near the cross of Jesus stood his mother, his mother’s sister, Mary, the wife of Clopas, and Mary Magdalene. When Jesus saw his mother there, and the disciple whom he loved standing nearby, he said to his mother, “Dear woman, here is your son, and to the disciple, Here is your mother. From that time on, the disciple took her into his home.  

Now I said to my stepson, here is Jesus, dying on the cross, and He finds this one of His last acts. It is extremely important to Him to appoint His mother and His disciple, John, as family.But why? If this is a picture given in scripture at the foot of the cross, I am assuming that this is something critical to all of us. The Holy Spirit is imparting wisdom from above and showing me that it is not human dna, which makes us family, but the blood of Jesus Christ, shed on that cross, and the faith applied by those who had drawn close, which reconciled those into the family that moment. They were intimate with His suffering as the thief on the cross who had been offered the same reconciliation and rights to the family that very day. 

In a few scriptures previous the soldiers were castings lots for the clothing of Jesus. They were focused on the material. As He said it was to fulfill scripture which had already been prophesied in a Psalm 22 written by David… “they pierced my hands and my feet. I can count all my bones; people stare and gloat over me. They divide my garments among them and cast lots for my clothing.”  

The reality of what was happening was not the material but the spiritual. The true meaning was found in what Christ was saying with His dying words. In the things which were taking place leading up to the moment and watching the scene unfold. I understood that this was a very important message He was sending humanity. It was a message of reconciliation with His own blood.  

Now it wasn’t as if his mother was all alone. Jesus had other brothers and sister’s who could have cared for Jesus mother. This wasn’t the purpose of Jesus concern or message. So, it would be fair to assume, He must have been trying to convey a powerful point in that act. Yes, many people seem to forget about the siblings Jesus had, although, He had even spoken in future tense that His family “were those who hear the Word of God and obey it.” He knew His mission and would be obedient to carry it out, even to death on the cross. Of course Mary was a virgin at His birth, but she did go on to have other children.  So this was a profound message.This wasn’t a simple, “Hey listen, I’m gonna be gone for a while. Take care of each other.” No, it was a message for every one of us to see. Look at everything He did, and listen to every word He spoke.  

It is a beautiful picture of reconciliation for all mankind. Now it would be a question to ask yourself; Who are you? The soldiers casting lots for something insignificant and missing the most important event taking place right in front of your eyes? Stripping the savior of His clothing and His dignity, with the hopes that you may have an heirloom worth some money one day?A conversation piece to hang on your mantel? Or maybe a picture or video for your webpage? Which one would you be?

Then there would be the very few that have  his heart. His compassion.

 While He looks down through His blood soaked face,in all His nakedness, He joins two people who are totally devoted to Him, and whom He happens to love, together as family.This is what the love of Christ does to humans. There is incredible, omnipotent, eternal  power in the blood.  

Happy Mother’s Day

Can You Drink of This Cup?

I was reading that “how we handle success does not speak as loudly as how we handle failure. I understand this and I truly believe it’s the reason for our suffering. How can we ever develop character without suffering?

Christ spoke to each of His disciples and told them that indeed they would drink from the same cup of suffering that He drank from, and it would be necessary to be one of His disciples. Why? Well, if they were going to walk His walk, and serve in His capacity, then it would make sense that they would have to experience His essence of sorrows and pain.

At times of my own extreme loneliness I am reminded of this. When I feel betrayed by the very ones that I love, I’m reminded of this. When I look at the people who I’m speaking to and I’m wondering, “why does it seem that I’m speaking to this person through a long tunnel and they can’t hear me? Why is it I seem to be speaking a different language? When I just want to slap the person silly, I’m reminded of this.

Then I look at my brother with special needs. I remember the simplicity of his remark at my other brother’s funeral. As we wept and he stood over his casket and pointed. “He owes me $5.00.” Everyone standing there seconds before in total grief, began to laugh hysterically at this remark.
“The faith of a child.” “Unless a person become like a child he shall not enter the kingdom of God.” The Lord just gave us a word picture in that moment with a bit of humor at the perfect moment when we all needed it. And as a reminder that this life is not the end.

I tell this story to so many people and I love having my brother with me for this reason. I feel so blessed to be able to see life through his eyes. I felt a protectiveness for him as a child, yet now the Lord has shown me, that it is through him, that I am centered and my life is more balanced as a result. He and others like him, remind me that, this is a picture of the kingdom. Not the hustle and bustle of the material world. The innocence of the child. I watch him coloring in his coloring books and writing the words into his notebook from his childs bible. It is fascinating to me. Something I had enjoyed as a child and forgotten long ago. I wonder why he never tires of it. The Lord reminds me that the Word of God is being firmly planted into his spirit each time he writes it down on his paper. He cannot read, yet he writes very well. And when he goes to church he’s so proud to show everyone what he’s written.

I spoke to a friend of mine the other day. He has the name Solomon. I always joke with him that he is the wisest king. He doesn’t have a lot of money and he’s from Senegal. He knows several languages and he speaks to his mother often. He tells me his mother asks about me all the time. I remind him that he is one of the greatest in the kingdom, since he is “the least of these on this earth,” so I am honored to be hanging out with such royalty. He laughs so hard. “Oh! You always make me feel so good when you call!” He tells me. But what he doesn’t understand is that everything I’m telling him is gospel truth! The Lord has told us this. The first shall be last and the last shall be first. He has the sweetest spirit and gives what little he has to those in need. He has blessed my life in so many ways. Yet I met him when he was suffering, and watched the Lord lift him up. Because he never complained.

I told someone the other day, no matter what, I will bless the Lord. As Job said, “The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, but blessed be the name of the Lord!” This person kept asking me, what he should do about his circumstances. And every time I told him he needed to humble himself, he told me he had done so, but yet he really had not, because he was still complaining. He was blaming everyone else for what was happening to him. Basically lying.

I told him, if anything you should look at what I’ve been through. I have suffered tremendously, but just as the Lord had to “learn obedience through what He suffering,” how much more must we also submit to Him? You said yourself that I had been raked through the coals. I had been compared to Job and I realized one thing, nothing comes to me unless it has been sifted through my own Father’s hands. Now do you think the Father is unaware of your suffering? So you must first ask, “Father, what is it that you want me to learn from this? And stop railing against Him.”

It isn’t as if He doesn’t see our suffering. It isn’t also as if He isn’t going to put everything under His feet at the appointed time. But it is the lessons that we learn in the suffering which is the most important for our souls. I realized something about myself. In spite of the fact that these people do these terrible things to me, I still love them. When I even begin to entertain the thought of any retribution, I have tremendous pain, and this is how I know that I have the heart of the Lord. He reminds me of Abraham and how he interceded for the salvation of Sodom and Gomorrah and so many others throughout history. I just cannot tolerate the thought of anyone being hurt or punished, even though they have brought me pain. This is when He speaks to me and tells me that all of my suffering has brought me to the place where I have developed the compassion that He had when He was able to speak those words with His dying breath, “Father, forgive them, they know not what they do.”

I finally can understand. And not only understand, but empathize. This is the true cup of suffering that he spoke of. This is the Disciples Cup.It is to lay your own life down for another in spite of what they have done. It is the ultimate sacrifice. I don’t know a human that is capable of this total sacrifice but He wants us to love in this way. “There is no greater love than this, that a man lays down his life for his brother.” John 15:15

So we have some people who continue to try to plan without God and their plans are to no avail. They get themselves into trouble, time and time again. They suffer and God will show them the way back. But as I told this person, it all begins with humility. The way up, is always down, in the kingdom of God. We must humble ourselves. He tells us plainly that He is “opposed to the proud, yet He gives grace to the humble.” And if he isn’t sure where he is proud, ask God to show him. Just the fact that he said, he isn’t proud, makes him proud. We all have some areas of pride in our lives somewhere and we have to be humble enough to ask God to reveal those areas.

David told the Lord, “Search me O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is there an offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.” Psalm 139:23

Remember, the Lord tells us, that our own hearts can deceive us. So don’t think that the saying, “the Lord knows my heart,” is good enough to get by.

The Lord reminded us that “not one of us is good.All of us has sinned. Everyone of us like sheep has strayed and gone our own way.” He is the only one who was without sin. We must turn to Him only and ask Him to search our hearts.

This should be the petition for each of us considering the days ahead.

I had a vision long ago, and I knew right where I’d be at His return.

The last train pulling in

The only difference in my dream was that the earth was in total darkness. I was at the very top of a tower. 

I was only 18 years old when I had this dream and I remember every detail as if it were yesterday. So profound. I had no idea, since I was extremely upset. I thought I was going to die, because some guys had given my girlfriends and me some powerful pills as we were drinking beer with them and we found out later. We were at an outdoor concert. A hangout called, The Site. All the hippies went there on the weekends to listen to music, and the local artists and burnouts would just jam together. 

Everyone pretty much trusted each other, because hey, we were hippies. Not cool, what these guys did. We tried to drive back from Lake Michigan and we were terrified. They laughed about it after we drank the beers. They actually had the nerve to ask, “do you know what you just drank? And told us they were called Thorazine and it was for mental patients. Apparently if came from the medicine cabinet of one of their mothers. Hmmm, maybe he saw into our future. lol They thought it was hilarious to do this to unsuspecting girls. Ahh, the 70’s, so much fun. Well, I can tell you that this is why many people didn’t survive, and I thought my heart was going to stop that night. 

But I got up and tried to walk around. When I did have this dream, it was the most profound, as I have stated, and I was immediately “awakened,” almost alarmed by the message.Yea sure, some people could say it was a hallucination, but it was clearly not. It was so startling to me that I was ‘scared straight!”  It was so very obvious to me that it was God and I had no relationship with Him at that time. He showed me that I was surely not going to die, because He had plans for me and He had a place and a time that He had designated for my appointed destiny and it sure didn’t include me partying my life away. All my life I was wondering about this picture. I started to see it unfolding, but now I have actually seen the reality of it and it is most amazing. He tells us that He would show us things before they happen. 

My girlfriend had called me later to see how I was feeling and get together. She still was feeling pretty bad. I told her about the dream and she was amazed by it. 

I told her the whole earth was in darkness and yet I could almost reach out and touch a planet. I was standing beside three people. They seemed to be my loved ones. I had no idea who they were since it was far in my future. A voice spoke and it seemed to be God. He said, “Get the people ready.” I knew what He meant and I said “yes.” 

I began to tell people to board these designated trains into a city and I told them to leave everything behind. As I continued in what has clearly been my gifting, one of evangelism, since becoming a believer, I see this part of the dream being fulfilled. 

I was reaching the very end of the dream when I could see that the last people were boarding the trains. I entered a tower in this city and I went into an elevator and went all the way up to the very top floor. On that floor I stepped into a room that seemed to be a conference room full of people. They seemed to be waiting for me. It was as if I had been witnessing to these people without being aware of it. I had spoken to them briefly and walked over to the window and looked out. 

At this point I realized the last train full of people was coming into the station and an excitement was building in the room. I looked out the window and pointed, “He’s coming!” I shouted. Everyone began to shout, “He’s coming, He’s coming!” We all looked over the horizon and what had been total blackness, was now the brightest light we had ever seen coming up over the horizon. Brighter than the sun! The shouting was growing and so was the excitement as every corner of darkness was being filled with light! 

When I woke, I was filled with a joy that I had experienced something incredible and I had a calling that was profound. I also understood that this was something very deep with prophetic implications, since I’ve never forgotten it. I knew that I could not be taken from this earth until the Lord was finished with His work. 

Yesterday, I was under tremendous spiritual attack. Many forces of darkness have tried to come against me. A person who has done terrible things over and over again. He is gripped with deception and tries to make me responsible for his own mistakes. He’s never taken responsibility in his own life and always lies to cover his deeds. This has caused me much grief in my life and also others around him. I must constantly pray for guidance and there is a tendency to be codependent, so I must step back. This is when I must pray. 

The Lord gave me a word yesterday; 

God is our refuge and our strength an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. 

There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God the holy place where the most high dwells. 

God is within her she will not fall; God will help her at break of day. Nations are in an uproar kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts, The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. 

Yes, the city of our God, is the city that all of the people are coming to. As He has His people preparing the way. And we are His servants. As long as we obey Him, He is in us and we shall not fall. He shall help us. I know my life is in His hands and I love the ones He has called me to. 

There are times I wonder if others have had this same dream or vision as I’ve had. There were others in that room after all. There were others on those trains too. And what are all the songs about trains in relationship to “people get ready, there’s a train a comin?” Is all this just coincidence? God gives visions and dreams to people about the future events. 

These days are upon us and the trumpet blast is about to sound. He is coming!!!!